I stare at the crowd
rapid breath intakes
sweaty palms
I can't do this
I look back at her
telling her I can't do it
don't overreact
she says
my heartbeat is deafening
faster
faster
as if it wants to escape
I can do this
I think
but i know I can't
I'll fail
fail
f a i l
I feel nauseous
why am i so stupid
all I have to do is go there
just walk
**** it
why am i afraid?
I can do this,
I convince myself again
but my heart and sweaty palms
told me otherwise
I look back to her again
with my pleading eyes
on the verge of crying
*it's so simple
how can you fail,
everyone else can do it*
she says
simple for her,
but I am not her
nor everyone else
why are you forcing me?
i bite my lip,
so hard that it's bleeding
I stammer
but- I - can't-do- it
why can't you understand?
Jun 14, 2014
Jun 14, 2014 at 1:47 AM UTC
She walks into school
and it starts again
the shaking,
it rips through her like a wave
She hears the sound of the voices
in the hallway
yet she cant make out what they're saying
She thinks all eyes are on her,
everything is just one big blur
She hears laughter and
she automatically thinks its
directed at her
She waits in the bathroom
like she does every morning
for the halls to be clear
She walks out
and wipes away her tears
Jun 14, 2014
Jun 14, 2014 at 1:46 AM UTC