kelseywont - Hello Poetry

I was born with sadness built in Even my grandmother said, that is too much pain for a child to know And so I stand in my shower And I cry And I don't care how ugly it looks And I cry So hard it feels like retching And I cry From a place I have always known And I cry I fear I always will.

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Aug 20, 2023

Aug 20, 2023 at 9:48 PM UTC

broken soul

I was born with sadness built in Even my grandmother said, that is too much pain for a child to know And so I stand in my shower And I cry And I don't care how ugly it looks And I cry So hard it feels like retching And I cry From a place I have always known And I cry I fear I always will.

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Brew the coffee Brush your teeth Get dressed The world is on fire Get in your car Drive to work Sit at your desk The world is on fire Pay the bills Clean the house Feed the kids The world is on fire Take a shower Lay your head Start again The world is on fire Check your phone Read the news Wipe your tears The world is on fire Look around See the flames Feel the fears The world is on fire Wave your arms Scream for help No one listens The world is on fire Try to breathe Want to leave No one sees The world is on fire Hang your head Time for bed Start again The world is on fire Brew the coffee Brush your teeth Get dressed The world is on fire

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Aug 20, 2023

Aug 20, 2023 at 9:39 PM UTC

The World is on Fire

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I'd hear the word And recoil from it The thought of prayer Left me disgusted How hard it is To face each day While gripping nihilism So intensely that Your knuckles turn white What's the point Of goals and dreams If everything Means nothing And when you die It's just like it was Before you were born You don't exist and You don't even know it Why waste my time Doing anything of value When I can drown myself In drugs and ***** And still expire Just the same as you Yet once in a while That question would Push it's way into My consciousness "How could all of this be meaningless?" The seed was planted And as it grew It broke through That existential dread Leaving just enough room For hope to crawl in I started to think that Maybe there's more To all of this chaos Than anything I could Ever comprehend And who am I To be so sure there's not Then slowly my Perspective shifted My mind was open And I no longer Viewed the world As upside down Though the universe Will always remain A mystery And the truth is something I will never catch For today, I find myself okay With "maybe..."

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Feb 21, 2019

Feb 21, 2019 at 2:26 PM UTC

God?

I'd hear the word And recoil from it The thought of prayer Left me disgusted How hard it is To face each day While gripping nihilism So intensely that Your knuckles turn white What's the point Of goals and dreams If everything Means nothing And when you die It's just like it was Before you were born You don't exist and You don't even know it Why waste my time Doing anything of value When I can drown myself In drugs and ***** And still expire Just the same as you Yet once in a while That question would Push it's way into My consciousness "How could all of this be meaningless?" The seed was planted And as it grew It broke through That existential dread Leaving just enough room For hope to crawl in I started to think that Maybe there's more To all of this chaos Than anything I could Ever comprehend And who am I To be so sure there's not Then slowly my Perspective shifted My mind was open And I no longer Viewed the world As upside down Though the universe Will always remain A mystery And the truth is something I will never catch For today, I find myself okay With "maybe..."

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I can’t pretend That you’re my friend I’ve gotta defend My side I’m so ******* angry You make me crazy Not gunna back down and hide Cause I’m fed up With your games At least a bully Has the courage To talk **** To someone’s face But you’re a coward Your ***** work is done in whispers Behind turned backs Well, you won’t stick a knife in mine Because I’ve changed, you see Used to take your **** so passively But this time You’ll get a parting gift, A piece of my mind It’s over now Don’t try to turn this around My tongue will give you lashings Leave you laying on the ground So I suggest you stay away No more than “Hi” after today Put your tail between your legs There’s no food here for a stray

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Feb 19, 2019

Feb 19, 2019 at 3:53 PM UTC

Für Denise

I can’t pretend That you’re my friend I’ve gotta defend My side I’m so ******* angry You make me crazy Not gunna back down and hide Cause I’m fed up With your games At least a bully Has the courage To talk **** To someone’s face But you’re a coward Your ***** work is done in whispers Behind turned backs Well, you won’t stick a knife in mine Because I’ve changed, you see Used to take your **** so passively But this time You’ll get a parting gift, A piece of my mind It’s over now Don’t try to turn this around My tongue will give you lashings Leave you laying on the ground So I suggest you stay away No more than “Hi” after today Put your tail between your legs There’s no food here for a stray

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UP The world is mine To reinvent myself Breathe in euphoria Like oxygen Barely sleep a wink Racing thoughts turn Into words Dying to get past my lips Coming toward you At rapid speeds My energy Is motivation I can’t quit Can’t sit Still Til I C R A S H Vitality draining Through my pores Leaving behind Tired bones That can’t get out of bed Wishing I were dead Even a shower Seems impossible Sleeping is my Only escape I isolate Filled with hate There is no hope I’m all alone DOWN

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Feb 18, 2019

Feb 18, 2019 at 3:00 PM UTC

manic depression

UP The world is mine To reinvent myself Breathe in euphoria Like oxygen Barely sleep a wink Racing thoughts turn Into words Dying to get past my lips Coming toward you At rapid speeds My energy Is motivation I can’t quit Can’t sit Still Til I C R A S H Vitality draining Through my pores Leaving behind Tired bones That can’t get out of bed Wishing I were dead Even a shower Seems impossible Sleeping is my Only escape I isolate Filled with hate There is no hope I’m all alone DOWN

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I just want to Believe the things I wrote about myself On yellow Post-It notes Stuck to my mirror

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Feb 18, 2019

Feb 18, 2019 at 1:31 PM UTC

affirmations

I just want to Believe the things I wrote about myself On yellow Post-It notes Stuck to my mirror

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What happened to the days When I could be Unapologetically me Liquid confidence and ******* Not afraid Of anybody’s judgements Numbing the pain But now I’m sober and I’m stuck with just myself Can’t break free from the discomfort Of being trapped in my own skin Insecurities and inhibition Flowing through me like A toxic injection But I’m healthy and My ***** in line Why can’t I give Credit where it’s deserved Instead I focus on the Road that lies ahead Rather than How far I’ve trudged Uncertainty trembles with Every word So ******* awkward And everyone heard Obsess about it for Hours on end As if this cycle of thought Can somehow change The way things happened I tell myself That nothing could be worse Than being slave To a substance But something’s gotta change Someone, somewhere Teach me how to be sane Or I’ll pick up that shovel And start digging again

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Feb 18, 2019

Feb 18, 2019 at 10:41 AM UTC

Hole

What happened to the days When I could be Unapologetically me Liquid confidence and ******* Not afraid Of anybody’s judgements Numbing the pain But now I’m sober and I’m stuck with just myself Can’t break free from the discomfort Of being trapped in my own skin Insecurities and inhibition Flowing through me like A toxic injection But I’m healthy and My ***** in line Why can’t I give Credit where it’s deserved Instead I focus on the Road that lies ahead Rather than How far I’ve trudged Uncertainty trembles with Every word So ******* awkward And everyone heard Obsess about it for Hours on end As if this cycle of thought Can somehow change The way things happened I tell myself That nothing could be worse Than being slave To a substance But something’s gotta change Someone, somewhere Teach me how to be sane Or I’ll pick up that shovel And start digging again

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How can one believe That there is no other life In the universe?

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Feb 17, 2019

Feb 17, 2019 at 11:57 AM UTC

cosmic modesty