Stranger than your sympathy
I refuse to take this passively
Ive been looking around and inside-out
Nothings here and not a sound
Tapestry a familiar melody
But I'm not sure where I can find
A piece mind and sanity
I've dug myself out and screamed out loud
I've been looking around and inside out
Nothing is here and there's no sound
Stranger than your sympathy
I'm sorry for your precious loss
But I'm still here while you've been gone
So many years have gone so wrong
And I don't know where I should go
With two roads ahead there is no home
So stranger than your sympathy I've found out that I was wrong and you're not here to hear it all
And I'm not sure where I belong
You let me know when I come home
I'll share what I read and you can speak on it
But even then I'll never be sure of what it was or what it's been
I've been ripping myself from the inside out
You're not here and it's all wrong
I've dug myself out and screamed out loud
I've been looking around and inside out
Nothing is here and there's no sound
Maybe not now but years from now
Stranger than your sympathy
Years later you'll be around
And I'll be there to guide you up
Cause I'll be home and you'll be close
Jul 13, 2018
Jul 13, 2018 at 2:09 AM UTC
You've taught me well, so horribly wrong.
Stuck in orange looking at these concrete walls
Memories of you are colder than these cuffs
You had to go make life so rough
You taught me well so horribly wrong
You've been gone so long
But sure enough, you've made me angry and tough
You've taught me so well, so horribly wrong
What?
I know you've had enough, life was too rough
Even though you taught me so well, so horribly wrong
I'm free outside soaking up the sun
You taught me well, so horribly wrong
So tell me, what have you done?
You tell me
How did you teach me so well, so horribly wrong?
The writings written on the **** the wall
Alcohol.
Jul 13, 2018
Jul 13, 2018 at 1:33 AM UTC
I’m so high up
But I can feel gravity slowly pulling me
Back to where I once was
Back to where I once was
I have what every girl seems to want
Skinny, pretty, petite
They tell me they’re jealous
But it’s them I wish I could be
I can feel gravity slowly pulling me
Back to where I once was
Back to where I once was
I feel so stuck
Like some must feel who have feet but legs that can’t walk
I have a body I can’t show off
It rejects all the good things I crave
Including my own baby I wish I could have and hold one day
(I heard it’s a blessing)
I can feel gravity slowing pulling me
Back to where I once was
Back to where I once was
Days like this I wish I could cut
Myself apart, build a new body
These scars hold me together
I can feel gravity slowly pulling me
Back to where I once was
Back to where I once was
With a heart that’s breaking apart
Sep 10, 2013
Sep 10, 2013 at 10:56 PM UTC
Where is he when I need him
He was always here,
On the other side waiting for my reply
Long notes back and forth
Shared stories become memories
Missing
The song sticks with me driving into the city
As I wonder if you're still alive,
How you're doing
What you're doing
If anything...
I hope you're around here some place
Aug 13, 2013
Aug 13, 2013 at 12:08 AM UTC
I hope you can’t hear me
Or see the things I’ve done and what I’m doing
I know you wouldn’t be proud
You taught me so well
So horribly wrong
I’ll never get caught
I’ll run and run
Faster than they can draw their guns
I’ve always been smarter than you
You were quick but lost site of the game
Gotta have brains to get away
You taught me so well
So horribly wrong
Thanks to you I’ll never get caught
I’ll never get caught
Forever on the run
Never moving
From where I started from
You taught me so well
So horribly wrong
Sep 4, 2012
Sep 4, 2012 at 11:18 PM UTC
I’m ready to go
Take me away
Show me a new place
Your mind is beautiful
I’m sure so will be your gaze
I don’t want to remember the past
His or her name
I want to forget these thoughts
You calm my mind
Help me sing new songs
I've been looking to the moon
Sitting alone on tombs
Talking to the dead
Wishing to hear everything unsaid
I want silence in my head
These screams keep me awake
In bed I alone lay
I want to forget my past
Look up and the moon
I want to next to you and sing a new tune
Anything other than the blues
There’s something about you
That pushes me through
I think I could fall in love with you
Sep 4, 2012
Sep 4, 2012 at 11:15 PM UTC
Sitting in a building so full of people
I feel like I’m the only one
Broken keys and different graffiti
Unfamiliar faces
Same old stories
Ears ringing
Listening to the ones on stage
I wonder what if
I fallowed their footsteps
How different my life would be
If I did more than write lyrics
Perhaps I’d be on a flight to Boston
I had a dream and I didn’t chase it
Now I hear they might make it
But then I remember
All the reasons why I ran
To a stranger I knew so well
When I felt I had nobody and nothing else
At the ends of my days I had a place
A bar that was a breath of fresh air
As the glasses caught my tears
I returned year after year
Until it all just disappeared
I wonder where my life will go from here
Sep 4, 2012
Sep 4, 2012 at 11:10 PM UTC
I wish I didn’t have to let go
Of this beautiful dress that fits me so well
It makes me smile as I fall with it to the ground
I wish on the stars
I want to take it out
Dance by candlelight and watch it flow
Twirl and make it grow
The whole night through
But this dress isn't mine to hold on to
I have to let this lovely dress go
I worry this dress will be buried below
I want it to shine
I want it to glow
I must confess
I love this dress
I wish I didn’t have to let it go
Sep 4, 2012
Sep 4, 2012 at 10:59 PM UTC
I walk the white lines
I wait patiently to be called
By those in white who walk the halls
Tapping my feet, looking around
Stretching and reading
Don't touch anything
Sitting back down and twiddling my thumbs
Waiting and waiting
For whatever is next to come
Why do I feel so alone
There’s always someone else
Waiting outside and in the same hall
We are one.
Sep 4, 2012
Sep 4, 2012 at 10:58 PM UTC