I see no possible escape from this disastrous life. Most people I know shy away from the truth. While you crawl through lies, your expression becomes like a drifting body. I hope that someday you will confess the truth.
I am troubled by my own mind over this foundation of truth that induces feelings of weakness, fear, and shame. I write with a deep sense of rejection toward the truth, I am bound to be dead end in the end. Another struggle weighs me down.
It’s neither the beginning nor the end until I return to myself. I am drowning in these shallow waters.
Dec 21, 2024
Dec 21, 2024 at 6:58 AM UTC
I'm so caught up in a life that I don't know what exists, my dreams are so unreal.
it's like a dark fantasy or something even darker.
in my younger years nothing really scared me, I mean monsters and the boogie man, where not a nightmare but reality.
I never grew up knowing God or even attending a church, be too honest.
I don't really know why I chose the path of Jesus.
my world was full of chaos at such a young age I rarely remember much,
and I think that has to do with the abuse I entailed.
I never really understood what the meaning of beauty meant until I
started getting better and finding the light that's been waiting.
for me and has so much love for me.
I hear whispers in my ear, and they are the way of life, light and freedom,
I just needed to listen.
like a shell from the ocean, you hear the cries of the waves.
I caught myself daydreaming about a girl I use to know, and
that girl is me.
when I was broken it took weeks to find my favorite color again,
people can change you if you let them and you become insane,
what's the world just like a marshmallow?
Jul 19, 2023
Jul 19, 2023 at 2:28 AM UTC
Everybody knows the ending to this game,
Save yourself the effort you seedy ****** up freak,
Its clear to me were broken not the ******* same,
This **** gets old and they fall read hard hiding secrets that they keep.
How can **** that hurts be so beautifully magic,
Its a shame how low I can go its awful and so tragic.Created a safe zone hide when they go out,
This is a story I wrote and y'all of figured who about,
Fair is what u give back but add some fairy glitter,
Smile when u see haters starring oh so bitter,
Jealousy is your crown you wear what u create,
I choose to love my twirly road u chose u sit with hate.
Judgement day belongs to god so know where u belong,
Karma is a little **** where did It all go wrong..
Dec 8, 2018
Dec 8, 2018 at 7:39 AM UTC
you got your ticket home today,
but not al deeds will go your way.
our time away has woke me up,
crack the bubbly wheres the cup.
your presents no longer haunts my walls,
i grew some giant hairy *****
you see you underestimate this girl of power,
your company just turns sour.
i mean when i say godbye,
leave it now this lust must die.
May 19, 2017
May 19, 2017 at 11:59 PM UTC
I wish I wish upon a star,
always wondering where you are!
look I know the pain is all too much,
just pray one day I feel your touch.
your in my dreams and on my mind,
the hate and hurt are not so kind.
but you fear me yes I know you do,
u hate me love me wish I knew.
I do know this my heart belongs to one man I know,
just smile sit back and enjoy the show.
sleepless nights and crying eyes,
love like ours just never dies!
poems are life as I know best,
brains on overtime why cant I rest?
I love u so much it makes me weak,
im well aware im oddly a freak!
May 19, 2017
May 19, 2017 at 11:55 PM UTC
go away break my rusted chains,
driving in the board way lane messed up in all lanes.
what about the doctors with pills that they supply,
just some sort of movie full of scars you lie!
scream ***** its just a way out of your dream,
your awake in this world but its not what you must seem.
poor your beer speak real soft its about to get unreal,
ouch I must of wrote a sickening poem tonight,
bout time the soul of mine got one thing just right.
meow meow put the cat down you ******* mental case,
he likes you in the highest heels and the whitest purest lace.
May 19, 2017
May 19, 2017 at 11:45 PM UTC
sit stand lay your mother ******* cure,
such an diamond on an island a girl so god dam pure.
look at me don't close your eyes,
shady secrets I like her colourful lies.
I cant relax with the bullets so loud,
madness I endure a chocolate coloured cloud.
ouch I feel the pain I feel the fire beneath my skin,
pass the smoke you silly ***** the master she shall win.
shot goes Larry I hear when I sleep,
just another ****** up town an island she cant keep.
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 4:50 AM UTC
she dreams in colours and floats on clouds,
hold her hand she freaks out in the biggest crowds.
don't walk away tonight its a full moon,
she relaxes so well with her favourite kind of tune.
I'm sorry I hurt you over and over again,
its just I cant trust any kind of men.
she speaks baby hold my hand my hearts a little hurt,
how does an angel feel like absolute dirt.
focus now baby girl your doing so well,
fears boys in blue waiting on that door bell.
I think ill get drunk today,
all the memories ill drown away.
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 2:58 AM UTC
your a mixed up puzzle that I should of never played,
my love wasn't enough now look at the mess you made.
you think I'm silly but sorry babe I'm clever but destroyed,
clap clap I'm lost for words but mostly ******* annoyed.
tell me how was us ever a game?
god dam boy you have no shame.
what's going on in that beautiful mind?
I'm tragically hopeless and sadly going blind.
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 2:50 AM UTC