i’ll be forever stuck with this feeling
always dealing with the pull of your person
but concealing my intentions
never revealing, never creating an intervention
but always imagining, channeling my creativity
my ability to think of ways we could be
together, maybe forever, however
reality sets in. it’ll never work between you and me
there is no guarantee that the two of us will live happily
ever after, whenever we’re together there’s no laughter
no amusement, just awkward silence and shyness
not to mention possible ****** tension,
that could cut the air without any further inspection.
we will never be satisfied with one another,
we’re incompatible or maybe we’re just uncomfortable
with dealing with the emotions present at the moment
but you’ve captured my attention, forming somewhat of a connection
that sadly won’t end well unless we’re in an alternate dimension
Sep 19, 2016
Sep 19, 2016 at 4:19 AM UTC
Single, lonely, independent
You’re always on your own
You say you’re used to it
You say you don’t mind
But we both know you do
So just let me love you
Once, you were young and in love
Had a high school lover affair
You had your heart broken
You never opened up again
You became so blue
And wouldn’t let anyone love you
**** boy, man *****
One night stands became frequent
You gained a reputation
You had women falling at your feet
But you weren’t ready to be true
Or to let anyone love you
A girl came by one day
The first to make you feel anything at all
You fell for her hard
You thought you loved her
But she broke your heart too
And you thought no one would love you
Talking to you became addicting
We began to know each other more
You shared with me your stories
You gave me your trust
But you became uncomfortable with what I knew
It was too much for you - for me to love you
Staying friends was awkward
I still wanted you, and hoped you wanted me too
But I distanced myself
And I gave you your space
I was one of the few
Who ever tried to love you
Jun 14, 2016
Jun 14, 2016 at 2:19 AM UTC
I only know the songs I love the most,
they can tell what life can be like,
not me, not making a living by living it.
I'll never write lines as good as those,
not saying better what's on my mind
or singing like it's worth it a listening.
Seldom other needs can juxtapose,
by any means I can't say much sometime,
but music finds me telling everything
for me, to me, for their soulful notes
whatsoever chord they could strike
the right ones in time will be moving me
magically...
Jun 10, 2016
Jun 10, 2016 at 1:31 AM UTC
This is a window on the world,
Written by a once time girl,
Guidelines for chicks and men,
A new set of commandments,
Take these for what they're meant,
Be yourself, all chicks and dudes,
Let it all go, we learn in life's long school,
Act the way you want to feel,
You can pretend smiles, which are real,
Do it now, procrastinate later,
Ignore distractions, they're to bait ya!
Lighten up, think of funnies,
Do stuff, even if you don't need money,
Be polite, stay in touch, friends old and new,
Be kind, not exploited, all of you,
Less is more of things to do......
New commandments from me to you!
May 21, 2016
May 21, 2016 at 10:26 AM UTC
.
*If I were a poem
I’d ask you to fold me up
and put me in your pocket,
then at the end of the week,
toss me in the wash
with the rest of the clothes
And when you find me later,
smudged and smeared,
ripped and tattered into
little unrecognizable pieces,
don’t worry about it,
I was already like that*
May 20, 2016
May 20, 2016 at 6:03 AM UTC
*Tossed in a Storm
I fell in love with you
It was a simple choice.
Because I did not have a choice.
We do not choose
Who our heart falls in love with.
I am struck by your lightning.
I am Drowned in your Rain.
I am deafened by your thunder.
You are the heart of a hurricane.
And I am tossed
in the eye of your storm.*
May 18, 2016
May 18, 2016 at 3:53 AM UTC
Your presence excites me always
In the hallways
In the classroom
In my bedroom
I never thought it would be you
Closer we grew
Arousing me
I felt so free
I long for you to stay in bed
You’re in my head
Instead of him
I’m not that prim
Apr 26, 2016
Apr 26, 2016 at 3:42 AM UTC
I hate myself for wanting you
You dominate my thoughts
I hate myself for trusting you
You hurt me just like they did
I hate myself for hanging on
Seeming so desperate to have you
I hate myself for loving you
You clearly never deserved me
Apr 20, 2016
Apr 20, 2016 at 8:39 AM UTC
I don’t know
How it started
Where it started
Why I started this
I don’t know
How to talk to you
What to talk about
Why I keep trying
I don’t know
How to end this
When to end this
Why I can’t end this
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 1:18 AM UTC