Attracted by your warmth
Slithering through crowds of people like blades of grass
My words are venomous, my teeth are fangs
My love will coil around you heart and leave you feeling blue
Hungrily, I set my trap
Weaving my lies like silk
Patiently, I wait for you
The unsuspecting moth in my web
Swaddled in the warmth of my love
The tenderness of my kiss will leave you paralyzed
As I slowly devour you
Pleading for your help
Because life is pooling around me
And the heaviness of my claws will weigh me down, making me drown
Knowing what I was, you still carried me
With my stinger in your back
and your eyes filled with regret
I'll whisper to you softly, sweetly,
"It's in my nature"
I'm a predator
Cold, calculating, and craving control
So excuse me when I consume you
Leaving behind nothing but a carcass
Even as it corrodes me in the process
Because self destruction,
"It's in my nature."
Jan 14, 2016
Jan 14, 2016 at 1:47 PM UTC
I feel so used
But my complaints fall on deaf ears,
Which are only attuned to the sound of her voice.
A voice that haunts your nightmares,
And sings in your daydreams.
A voice that I tried to drown out with my own lullabies and sadden cries,
But i wouldn't couldn't can't be enough,
To be your only one.
My thoughts are laced with thoughts of you,
And it's slowly killing my senses.
So when you're eyes search for her in crowds of faces
My eyes go blind with love,
My ears turn deaf to reason,
And self preservation becomes a foreign concept.
Only my lungs seem to understand the toxicity.
My vices constrict my chest and breathing becomes impossible.
Vision slowly fading to black
And you're still the only thing on my mind.
What hope do I have
To be your only one?
I feel so used.
Oct 23, 2015
Oct 23, 2015 at 7:21 PM UTC
Its not you
Its me
That was cliche
Don't you agree?
It hurts me more
that I caused you pain
by rejecting everything you do
You've got nothing to gain
I don't like you
Not the way you do
So walk away
What I say is true
I don't want to upset you
You have to understand
This is better than false hope
I know this isn't what you have planned
I am not the one for you
We are not meant to be
Don't make this difficult
Just stop fighting for me
Stop trying to convince me
I don't feel the same way
Just let me go
We aren't close friends anyway
Please stop
You're hurting yourself more
Its all wishful thinking
I'm not the person you should adore
I'm sorry
That's all I can say
I'm sorry
That it has to end this way
Oct 22, 2015
Oct 22, 2015 at 2:02 PM UTC
There was a prickling in my fingers
A telltale sign of tears in my eyes
My hands fell limp to my side after you brushed them away
Because "just friends" means you can't hold hands
And that's what I said I wanted right?
To keep things simple and straightforward
But the hollowness in my fingers
That craved to touch you and hold you and love you
Persisted
So we sat beside each other
The smoke you breathed filling my lungs with each inhale
Each exhale exuding the loneliness building up inside my bones
The brilliant sky dimmed from crimson to charcoal grey
And I started to think I was better off alone until the thought of being alone shattered my heart
But I wasn't the only one with glass in their chest
I wasn't the only one who wanted to be touched and cherished and loved
You wanted me to piece the shards together again
You reached for my hand in the dark
And told me to pretend the "I love yous" were real for the night
I did
And I knew then it'd ruin me
And I was okay with that
Just so long as I could have that moment of love
I could live with cutting my fingers on the splinters of your heart
Oct 22, 2015
Oct 22, 2015 at 1:57 PM UTC