kate-22 - Hello Poetry

She was born with the brightest eyes like the first dawn of spring Her soul was a precious gift meant to be kept and held tight by only herself The dawn eyes turned to a summers green leaves She held tight to her soul letting in only goodness and hope The eyes that mirrored the trees began to fall like the leaves in autumn Although she tried to keep her soul for herself she began to give small pieces to those undeserving Those eyes that were once filled with color were frozen like the coldest winters day A soul that once was her most precious gift was lost and soon forgotten

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Jul 8, 2021

Jul 8, 2021 at 3:29 AM UTC

kate-22

She

She was born with the brightest eyes like the first dawn of spring Her soul was a precious gift meant to be kept and held tight by only herself The dawn eyes turned to a summers green leaves She held tight to her soul letting in only goodness and hope The eyes that mirrored the trees began to fall like the leaves in autumn Although she tried to keep her soul for herself she began to give small pieces to those undeserving Those eyes that were once filled with color were frozen like the coldest winters day A soul that once was her most precious gift was lost and soon forgotten

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I know they love my me I just wish it was the same love that your supposed to have I wish they tried I wish they at least pretended to try

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Jul 8, 2021

Jul 8, 2021 at 3:08 AM UTC

kate-22

trying

I know they love my me I just wish it was the same love that your supposed to have I wish they tried I wish they at least pretended to try

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you can't see him but he is always here he spoke when I was home he yelled at me when I was driving he sang to me when I was asleep he made me stay in bed day in and day out so he can hold me I told him to leave but he held me so tight that I could not breathe

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May 30, 2021

May 30, 2021 at 1:53 AM UTC

kate-22

Him

you can't see him but he is always here he spoke when I was home he yelled at me when I was driving he sang to me when I was asleep he made me stay in bed day in and day out so he can hold me I told him to leave but he held me so tight that I could not breathe

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Why cant I just be normal normal brain normal body normal problems normal family normal wants normal needs normal life why do I try so hard to only fall behind

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May 30, 2021

May 30, 2021 at 1:17 AM UTC

kate-22

normal

Why cant I just be normal normal brain normal body normal problems normal family normal wants normal needs normal life why do I try so hard to only fall behind

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No one tells you that the hard part about dying is surviving Coming to terms with your end but its only the beginning of a new end I mourned for life

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May 30, 2021

May 30, 2021 at 1:04 AM UTC

kate-22

death and life

No one tells you that the hard part about dying is surviving Coming to terms with your end but its only the beginning of a new end I mourned for life

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Calories 200 400 600 800 200 400 600 800 Repeat 2,4,6,8 Need to lose weight 2,4,6,8 Fast Still not enough Pill 2,2,2,2 0 Dead

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Apr 4, 2019

Apr 4, 2019 at 1:57 AM UTC

kate-22

Calories

Calories 200 400 600 800 200 400 600 800 Repeat 2,4,6,8 Need to lose weight 2,4,6,8 Fast Still not enough Pill 2,2,2,2 0 Dead

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Water. Low-calorie, no-calorie, sugar-free and…water. I was never like the other girls. The beautiful, tall, and skinny girls I was not perfect Instead I had the words ugly, worthless, fat, and unloved branded on my face The words empty, broken, dumb, and unwanted covering my entire body Skinny was never a word that described me Until I stopped eating Calories 200 400 600 800 I lost 5 pounds, then 10, then 20. Striving to be double digits and not triple. Eating in front of a mirror. Crying over a bathroom scale, Cause i only felt pretty when i was hungry. 200 400 600 800 repeat 2, 4, 6, 8 To me, being perfect was more important of being healthy It was a never ending cycle of "Will I eat today?" I was trapped in the walls of my mind with the door wide open Why didn't I just walk through the door? In my mind I couldn't fit calories 2, 4, 6, 8 need to lose weight 2, 4, 6, 8 I lost all of my friends because instead of going out and enjoying life I stayed home, adding all of the calories I had eaten that day Instead I stayed home in fear of gaining weight from that one slice of pizza keep going through the days 2, 4, 6, 8 My scale became my best friend Watching that number go down was my fun on a Friday night Drinking water on an empty stomach was my feeling of enjoyment But no matter how low that number got it was never enough It was never enough until I had finally collapsed 2, 2, 2, 2 fast Female, 14 years of age, height 5"3, weight 65 pounds I had done it I was so skinny I was dying I was dying because society told me that I wasn't good enough I was dying because society told me that I wasn't pretty nor skinny enough I was dying because I was afraid that one day people would see me The way I saw myself I fight all day and all night this is your own fault My body shows my battlewounds Scars and bones and scratches you did this to yourself I need to eat but you can't It's just food but it's not My minds thin but you're fat This is breaking me I'll fix it for you I'm going too far you're not far enough I need to turn back that's not an option Release me not happening I've gone too far push it a little further My weight became the only thing I cared about I was failing all of my classes becase the only numbers I cared about Were the ones that would appear on my scale telling me how much more I needed to lose until, I had nothing to lose I didn't see a future I had already lost my friends My GPA My family And myself All for what? I lost everything to be like the other perfect girls The beautiful, tall, and skinny girls 0 Pill Dead

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Jan 9, 2019

Jan 9, 2019 at 4:45 PM UTC

kate-22

Ed

Water. Low-calorie, no-calorie, sugar-free and…water. I was never like the other girls. The beautiful, tall, and skinny girls I was not perfect Instead I had the words ugly, worthless, fat, and unloved branded on my face The words empty, broken, dumb, and unwanted covering my entire body Skinny was never a word that described me Until I stopped eating Calories 200 400 600 800 I lost 5 pounds, then 10, then 20. Striving to be double digits and not triple. Eating in front of a mirror. Crying over a bathroom scale, Cause i only felt pretty when i was hungry. 200 400 600 800 repeat 2, 4, 6, 8 To me, being perfect was more important of being healthy It was a never ending cycle of "Will I eat today?" I was trapped in the walls of my mind with the door wide open Why didn't I just walk through the door? In my mind I couldn't fit calories 2, 4, 6, 8 need to lose weight 2, 4, 6, 8 I lost all of my friends because instead of going out and enjoying life I stayed home, adding all of the calories I had eaten that day Instead I stayed home in fear of gaining weight from that one slice of pizza keep going through the days 2, 4, 6, 8 My scale became my best friend Watching that number go down was my fun on a Friday night Drinking water on an empty stomach was my feeling of enjoyment But no matter how low that number got it was never enough It was never enough until I had finally collapsed 2, 2, 2, 2 fast Female, 14 years of age, height 5"3, weight 65 pounds I had done it I was so skinny I was dying I was dying because society told me that I wasn't good enough I was dying because society told me that I wasn't pretty nor skinny enough I was dying because I was afraid that one day people would see me The way I saw myself I fight all day and all night this is your own fault My body shows my battlewounds Scars and bones and scratches you did this to yourself I need to eat but you can't It's just food but it's not My minds thin but you're fat This is breaking me I'll fix it for you I'm going too far you're not far enough I need to turn back that's not an option Release me not happening I've gone too far push it a little further My weight became the only thing I cared about I was failing all of my classes becase the only numbers I cared about Were the ones that would appear on my scale telling me how much more I needed to lose until, I had nothing to lose I didn't see a future I had already lost my friends My GPA My family And myself All for what? I lost everything to be like the other perfect girls The beautiful, tall, and skinny girls 0 Pill Dead

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