
I love getting butterflies
The first time our lips touched
It felt like everything changed
My mind exploded with excitement
I was fascinated with it
But when I kissed him
It wasn’t the same
It was touch but not butterflies
No build up just a kiss
It wasn’t us anymore
It was a strange and a stranger
I couldn’t recognise who I was
If my lips were on the mouth
Of someone that didn’t give me that joy
It felt like a betrayal
Even though you decided
Our lips could never touch again
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 2:09 PM UTC
Humans weren’t made for casual
We’re made for connection
Intimacy ,
Is never casual
Love ,
Is never casual
Stop using people for a dopamine hit
Dec 30, 2025
Dec 30, 2025 at 2:03 PM UTC
My dog is dead
It sounds disrespectful to word it like that
A family member passed away
A part of my heart
Left when she did
2 family members
Gone in a year
The house is quite
So quite
You could hear a pin drop
It’s not the same
It never will be
Jan 6, 2025
Jan 6, 2025 at 7:24 PM UTC
I secretly want a big family
One that gathers at the dinner table
Each night
Night caps
Children I can truly know
A partner I can life my life with
The way we want to
Birthdays parties
Friends and family celebrating
Not becaue we have to
Because we want to celebrate each other
Celebrate the love in each of us
Jan 3, 2025
Jan 3, 2025 at 11:24 AM UTC
I see her there, the lady you will make
a mother out of. Oh, look at her youth,
she is a child herself, a girl forsooth,
with comely features lust will one day take.
Oh sweet child, hear my voice and do not wake,
you'll say. Inside you slithers God's sharp tooth,
his precious boy who'll die for sin and truth:
And then you'll watch him burn upon a stake.
She stirs now, with demons clad in white
or angels in the frost. My darling girl,
I'll shield you of the things they'll do with this:
A robe of heaven's blue, to catch starlight
and frame your face; let loose your swarthy curl
and let me wake you with a sacred kiss.
Jan 3, 2025
Jan 3, 2025 at 11:22 AM UTC
One day my best friend sent me her poems,
And one poem hit far too close to home,
Heartbreak Girl.
In it she talked about a commercial,
A commercial where a man quits smoking,
And being separated from the addiction
Turns him into a mess.
She writes:
"It was on
Heartbreak Girl,
The days when I couldn't eat for missing her.
When every moment was made of fear
That I would see something that would tear me open and make me miss her
Make me re-realize that she was over
(And so was I.)
(The me I loved, whose ghost I still look at in the mirror behind me.)
(The me I never got to say goodbye to before she died.) "
These words, became a cautionary tale...
I know, in a matter of weeks, I will be the Heartbreak Girl.
I will be a mess.
I will not be easy to put back together.
My wounds will all be opened, stinging as I feel the wind blow against them.
And it's gonna hurt like hell.
But there will be a difference between me and the Heartbreak Girl:
I know it's coming.
I watch as the sand falls through the hour glass,
And with every grain of sand, my heart breaks a little bit more.
I try to keep it together.
I try not to look at the hourglass,
But there it sits, in plain sight.
Unavoidable.
It's coming, any day now.
And it will break.
But since I know it's coming,
I use the Heartbreak Girl's story to remind me
That at least I have a chance to say goodbye
To him
But more importantly to me
The me I was when I told him my dreams were coming true...
When I told him I was leaving...
And he picked me up, spun me around, and kissed me...
Because he was struck by a moment of genuine euphoria…
For me.
In that moment, I had everything I had ever wanted.
I was the me I always wanted to be.
I have a chance to say goodbye to her.
And I want to do it right.
That girl is everything I ever wanted to be.
And I'm terrified to leave her behind.
Because I really love her.
But I know it's only a matter of time until I have to.
And I'll be ****** if I don't give her a proper goodbye.
I worked too hard and too long not to give her the goodbye she deserves.
When it's time to say goodbye, I will go to that spot.
I will stand there,
And I will let her go,
She can't stay forever,
Because if she could, she wouldn't be such an enigma,
I would eventually take her for granted,
And I never want to do that.
Because she's perfect.
At least to me.
Once I let her go,
I will make way for the new girl,
Who I'm excited to meet,
And who I'm excited to become,
Even though, a part of her will be broken,
Eventually the wounds will somewhat heal.
Somewhat.
She will be amazing,
And most of what I've always wanted her to be,
Except for the missing piece of her heart...
Because when I say goodbye to the girl I am now,
I will also leave a piece of my heart in that spot.
And it will forever stay in that spot.
In a place that I know he will be.
In the place that he needs to be.
To become the man HE always wants to be,
And to the man I genuinely want him to become.
Even if it is without me: The Heartbreak Girl.
Who I will have to become in order for him to be who he wants to be.
It's a sacrifice I'm willing to make.
For him.
After the funeral, eventually I will have a reason to smile.
Because I have sacrificed so much.
So that we can become the people we always wanted.
Even if we don't have each other.
Even if I am
The Heartbreak Girl.
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 9:19 PM UTC
Turning to the moon for guidance
Knowing she’ll guide me all night long
Finding comfort
In knowing I’m safe w her
Walking along
These deep dark streets
Chills domino across my bare arms
Looking up to see
Her almighty glow
My eyes target onto the moon
Following the aura
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 9:15 PM UTC
I’m at better person
Then I was when you met me
I have confidence
And love for myself
I’m more self aware and loving
When you left
I thought the world was over
That I’ll never love again
But now I see that’s incorrect
I have a new perspective of love
The boundaries on love
And what it means to actually love
I have evolved
A new mentality
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 9:12 PM UTC
I love the static after a vinyl had finished
I love how she spins on a slant
And moves like the ocean
How it plays and asks nothing in return
Although I will never be able to wrap my head around how indents create sound
I will love her with my whole heart
Until she it too exhausted to play
And even then I will cherish
The love she gave me
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 9:09 PM UTC
You feel for the bad me
The one that smoked , skipped school
Gave up on her dreams
Gave up on herself
It may just be a coincidence
But why leave when I wanna be better ?
Why not stay to see
What I can become
We can become ?
Nov 23, 2024
Nov 23, 2024 at 1:21 PM UTC