How can I escape you
When everything I see reminds me
What am I supposed to do
I know I can’t put it all behind me
I want to say it, but I can't go through
So I guess I'm now resigning
And now I know that what I thought was true
I’m cursed to how God designed me
I wanna cry
But I’ll say I’m fine
It’s all a lie
I really can’t run away this time
I hate me more than you ever could
You know that well
You say you aren’t doing too good
But I’m ******* swell
Don’t wanna do it but I know I should
And it hurts like hell
I don't belong in this neighbourhood\
Under this bell
I wanna cry
But I’ll say I’m fine
It’s all a lie
I really can’t run away this time
May 22, 2018
May 22, 2018 at 10:50 PM UTC
I’ve woken up
No longer under your spell
Sobered up
And realised I’m in Hell
You played me hard
But you did it well
You built me up
But in the end I fell
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
The truth was blurred but now it’s clear
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
My scars are now my souvenirs
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
I’ve lost it all and now I have no fear
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
Now I see that the end is near
Now you’re gone
And I can heal
You were too good
To be real
My heart was always
yours to steal
But you burned it up
And I can’t feel
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
The truth was blurred but now it’s clear
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
My scars are now my souvenirs
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
I’ve lost it all and now I have no fear
Eins, zwei, drei, vier,
Now I see that the end is near
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:55 PM UTC
Bring me up to Number Five
Remind me that I’m still alive
Right now I’m really not feeling too hot
‘Cause 1, 2, 3, and 4 is all that I’ve got
One, One, It can still be done
Two, Two, I ******* hate you
Three, Three, come back to me
Four, Four, life is a chore
Five, Five, I’ll never see Five
No matter how ************* hard I try
So bring me up to Number Five
Remind me that I’m still alive
Right now I’m really not feeling too hot
‘Cause 1, 2, 3, and 4 is all that I’ve got
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:53 PM UTC
What’s the point in perfection
If it comes easily?
Happiness wouldn’t feel so good
If we didn't know misery.
Forget about the past
It doesn’t matter what’s been done.
But hold on to your sadness.
It’s pointless to try to run. Harness and embrace the pain;
Make an ounce a ton.
Because if life wasn’t so hard,
It wouldn’t be so fun.
The good might not outweigh the bad,
But it all reciprocates.
You might as well accept your hand
‘Cause you can never change your fate.
Forget about the past
It doesn’t matter what’s been done.
But hold on to your sadness.
It’s pointless to try to run. Harness and embrace the pain;
Make an ounce a ton.
Because if life wasn’t so hard,
It wouldn’t be so fun.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:53 PM UTC
The glass is fogged
And I can’t see
You’re on the outside
Guiding me
You tell me to turn
Where there is no road
Now I’m in a hole
Where a river once flowed
Now I see the bones
At the bottom of this gorge
And a forgotten ring
Which from blood was forged
I see the mistake
The window is clear
So I’ll grit my teeth
And have no fear
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:51 PM UTC
Go forth and cry
Only then can you heal
Desire can only bring pain
I’ve felt my fair share of hardship
Still, I have my doubts
Don’t run away from pain
Especially when it becomes unbearable
As long as you can feel, you can heal
Dreams come and go, but nightmares always remain
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:50 PM UTC
It’s times like this
When I’m alone and scared
That I wonder if
You ever cared.
All this time
I’d hoped it was so
But I can see now
That the answer was no.
I feel like a fool;
I played right into your game.
But I’d do it all again
And I’ll never feel the same.
I thought that you loved me
But in the end I was wrong.
Who would have known
That forever doesn’t last so long.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:49 PM UTC
When did everything go so right?
I used to want you dearly
Now I’m glad you’re gone.
I thought you were the one
Now I know I was wrong.
I was dependent;
Addicted to you.
Your love was a lie
But now I know the truth.
I analyzed the past
But there was no use.
Now all I need to know is…
When did everything go so right?
You had me wrapped around your finger
I never had a chance.
I never had control;
My heart was always in your hands.
You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me
Even though you were my mistake.
I’ve learned my lesson now, and so
You were one I’m glad I had to make.
I only wish, for me to learn,
My heart didn’t have to break.
When did everything go so right?
I used to want you dearly
Now I’m glad you’re gone.
I thought you were the one
Now I know I was wrong.
Dec 13, 2017
Dec 13, 2017 at 12:44 PM UTC
I’ve been really sad lately
And I just want to let it out.
But that can never happen for me
‘Cause I’ve got nothing to cry about.
I want to hold you in my arms
And feel your warmth against me.
But you could never understand.
It’s just something that you can’t see.
Without you, there’s no me.
Without you there’s no us.
But whenever I hold you
My love is in surplus.
I know I’m asking for too much.
And I know I don’t deserve it.
But I’ve got an unexplainable hole in my heart.
And you’re the only puzzle piece that fits.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 6:37 AM UTC
Bottles on bottles
Stacked up in my closet.
Call it self destructive
But I do it because I want it.
No, scratch that,
I do it because need it.
I’m beyond being helped
My sadness is deep seeded.
I'm too far gone
It's too late to help me.
Compared to this life
How bad could Hell be?
If it’s anything like this
Then I’m ready for it.
Take my car to a cliff,
drop a fifth and floor it.
I don't need any of this,
It’s meaningless to me.
When it comes to pain
I've seen all there is to see.
When it comes to happiness
I've never had none.
If I'm considered a human
Then I’m a sad one.
Nov 11, 2017
Nov 11, 2017 at 6:18 AM UTC