i cannot put into words what you have done for me but i will try
i was lost in the numbness of nothingness
the silence around it all was getting way too loud
and i hadn’t felt the excitement of another for way too long
you’ve been around for a while
in the back of my mind as a matter of fact.
it may have taken a while to get you to notice me
but i was willing to take the time, because you felt different
and as far as ‘felt’
it’s too early to tell but you make me feel
and it’s not just a spurt of feel, its a feel thats real
i almost gave up in all honesty
i didn’t want to put myself out there again
to then just be torn limb from limb, again
but you felt, right
you’re quiet… to others
but to me you’re you
and i can’t get enough of you
your voice is distinct-
your voice is yours, it levels me and i could listen to it all day
your eyes are deep-
your eyes are specific, they look at me not through me
your walk is confident-
your walk is purposeful, you don’t wander
your presence is home, its way too early but at the same time idc
your essence is irrational, idk why you’re here at this time
but i can’t second guess it cause nothing has ever felt so right
i look at you and i am in wonderment
your beauty is indescribable
and your being makes your beauty seem intolerable
you make me want to become a better me
you make me reevaluate my purpose
you make me pay attention
i cannot put into words what you have done for me but i will try
i was lost in the numbness of nothingness
the silence around it all was getting way too loud
and i hadn’t felt the excitement of another for way too long
idk why God has placed you in my life
but i hope that you are here to stay
no one has affected me the way you do
i have been so afraid of it all
to stay put
to move
to be happy
to love
to give myself up
but you make me anxious to do all of those things
you make me want to be happy
you make me want to try
you make me want to take risks
you make me want to move
but most importantly-
you make me want to
Sep 30, 2018
Sep 30, 2018 at 4:01 AM UTC
I’m starting to think there is no girl out there for me
Weeks and months and years I have been able to see
But they’ve all passed me by
With disappointment after disappointment
God will there ever be any one heaven-sent?
Everytime I think I’ve found her I’ve been gravely mistaken
A dream that was all too true as I awakened
To learn that they’ve found another
Or they simply got bored and figured their was nothing left to uncover
But in all of their defense, I myself have not been perfect
For I have missed the mark, not pulled the trigger, and wasted time
And now it has all caught up with me thus I write this rhyme
For people have moved on from me even in my times of need
So I just keep on walking into the unseen
Hoping that one day God will send her to me
But although there are many fish in the sea
I’m starting to think there is no girl out there for me
Mar 25, 2018
Mar 25, 2018 at 6:11 PM UTC
I want nothing to do with you
As all you do is play games with my heart
I want nothing to do with you
As you play with the broken pieces as if it was art
I want nothing to do with you
Because you lead others on
I want nothing to do with you
Because you become someone else after dawn
I want nothing to do with you
Because you allowed another in
Oh how I wanted to end it right then
I want nothing to do with you
For I'm not the only one anymore
I want nothing to do with you
Because I feel so washed up here at shore
But through all that
Through everything you've put me through
I want everything to do with you
And for that I do not know if I'm strong, or if I'm the weakest man alive
But the heart wants what the heart wants, even if it lead's itself to die
Dec 3, 2016
Dec 3, 2016 at 4:54 AM UTC
The old dim lighted staircase was our setting
Shoulder to shoulder we sat
A glance at my watch read 3:55 AM
To some that would be considered late, but when I was with her I had no sense of the word “late”
She made time stand still
Only knowing her for about a couple weeks she had already become my best friend
Coming to that conclusion was not difficult
Knowing that nobody has ever made me feel as good about myself as she did,
I knew she was one in a million
Conversation carried and I found myself face to face with her, standing up now
Talking turned to whispering
And whispering to silence
I could feel her breathe ever so slightly on my lips
Her nose met mine
Even if I wanted to move I couldn’t
Temporary paralysis too over my body
As I stared into her eyes and she stared into mine I didn’t know what to do
A million things began running through my mind
Most prevalent was “Is this right?”
Our eyes wondered from our lips back to our eyes
Standing there for what seemed like an eternity
She finally moved
Forward
As her lips met mine I lost myself
Being able to feel nothing and everything at the same time
As I was about to pull away she pulled in closer
Locking her lips in mine
The feeling was utterly indescribable
Fireworks wouldn’t do the feeling in my body any justice
As two puzzle pieces fit perfectly together, so did her lips on mine
She backed up and we stared into each others eyes once again and I noticed the slightest smirk on the corner of her mouth
Grabbing her by her hips I pulled her in for another
And it was just as breathtaking as the first one
Only knowing her for about a couple weeks she had already become my best friend
Coming to that conclusion was not difficult
Knowing that nobody has ever made me feel as good about myself as she did, I knew she was one in a million
But I also knew,
That in some supernatural way,
This was right
She was right
We were right
Jul 12, 2016
Jul 12, 2016 at 12:34 AM UTC
One day out of over three hundred sixty-five...
It is that way because on one day we leap
Over any inhibition that we had in mind,
Like the emotions suppressed and thoughts redacted.
We say and do things that make us think after,
“Wow, is that how I really acted?"
Do the words, “I love you," lose meaning
If they were never said explicitly before?
No, but once you do say the phrase,
Mean it, because love is a more
Than a two way street.
It should not be physical action
That makes a someone like a slab of meat
To be sought after, then devoured.
Think about it, as you share your heart with someone;
Think about it, this very hour.
Love is in the air they say,
But please do not let it be
For only one day.
Feb 18, 2016
Feb 18, 2016 at 1:02 AM UTC
No one ever has it all together
But some feel the need more than others
Count me as the sum of all my pains and failures
That would be a mistake
Through God, I'm picking up broken pieces
Throwing them away
And starting over
Nov 19, 2015
Nov 19, 2015 at 3:31 AM UTC
It's extremely dangerous to get so close to someone.
You don't know what to expect or what's gonna come out of it.
You start spending more and more time with them until you feel weird if you're not with them.
They make you laugh, they make you smile, they make you wonder how you lived so long without them.
But then things seem to change.
They know so much about you- or at least think they do- that they stop trying to learn more.
They stop trying to be more involved in your life.
They just settle for where you guys are at now.
And it ***** for the person that wishes the other would give more effort.
It ***** because it's not how it used to be.
No more laughing at everything, no more catching yourselves smiling at eachother.
Everything seems so routine and dull.
No life
No excitement
No more feeling.
Just a settle for how things are now.
Oct 5, 2015
Oct 5, 2015 at 5:11 PM UTC
I think it means something when you crave to speak to someone when the world is silent, When the stars are bright & there isn't much to do.
I think it means something that you own my thoughts, that to hug you feels like holding my dreams, that I wake up to many notifications & I just hope one of them is from you.
I think it means something that I can see how special you are, that I can see your unparalleled beauty exudes much deeper than just physical attraction.
I think it means something that I can see what you have to offer & what you deserve. Stars sing about angels like you, poets they write about you at 5am & you deserve to be loved overwhelmingly beyond levels of satisfaction.
Sep 20, 2015
Sep 20, 2015 at 8:58 PM UTC
"Can't fly unless you let yourself fall"
Meaning God's blessings can't get to you if you imprison yourself behind a regretful wall
If you want to a see a view, a peak, you have to be willing to run uphill & stumble sometimes.
I'm inspired every time me and you speak, & even though I can't tell what will, I know no one can get to you if you hide behind those rubbled love lines.
Aug 13, 2015
Aug 13, 2015 at 3:39 PM UTC