I won't be that girl
The one who visits you when you want her to
Fantasies about you
Dreams about you
Wants you
Wants your attention, love
The one who lets you use her for your every desire
Strips her naked down to her soul
And then devours it
Or pretends you didn't realize you did
I won't be the girl you hurt
The one you say you want but are too busy for
The afterthought at one a.m. When you're lonely
I want to be her but I won't
Feb 28, 2013
Feb 28, 2013 at 9:00 AM UTC
You have black eyes
You have ugly features
An evil streak
That's oh so seductive
There's a scar on your soul
That you don't know about
It's as clear as day to anyone
Who passes by your way
Your mean, silly and stupid
What a combination
You don't understand anything from any perspective but your own
Which makes you stubborn
You have nothing going for you but your arrogance
What more can I say
You're beautifully ugly in the worst way
Feb 9, 2013
Feb 9, 2013 at 7:49 PM UTC
I miss him like
A lock misses its key
A key misses its chain
A chain misses its charm
A charm misses its good luck
Good luck misses its horseshoe
A horseshoe misses its hoof
A hoof misses pounding the ground
The ground misses rain
Rain misses falling
Falling misses its love
Love misses its heart
A heart misses its beat
A beat missing from a song
A song missing its audience
The audience missing its star
A star missing their freedom
Freedom missing me
Because you took yourself away
Jan 26, 2013
Jan 26, 2013 at 7:59 PM UTC
I ran across the street following you
you said it was safe
no danger
well you were wrong
This was four days ago
you bought ice cream
as a treat
well you were wrong
I wonder
how it's going
who you're sharing your cookies with
if they are good
or just good enough
But as I keep walking, a tree that grew legs
away from the ocean
glancing back
confidently
I know you're gone
something will remain,
in a face, a place, a name, an eye
and i'll remember always, what wasn't meant to be
Beauty is fleeting
Pictures are painted
Emotions tangled
Potential Unacknowledged
Regrets Rampant
Sorrow Ignored
But still, you needed me and I needed you
Jan 26, 2013
Jan 26, 2013 at 9:51 AM UTC
you robbed me
of something i didn't even have
and i let you
i believed your lie
lived your dream
it was too good to be true
a dollar and a dream is what we have
what we lived on
i love you
i can see you
you can't hide from me
i miss you
but i can't tell you
can't let you back in
because you're reckless
a bull in a china store
no notion of care
forward movement
no looking back
in the company of fake friends
artificial stimulation
living a lie
i'll still be here
when you come calling
disgusted and ashamed
worn and weary
with open arms
an arm length away from my heart
what's the point?
i love you and i care
I've been there
been in your position
and i'm not living up to my role
but i shouldn't
i'm not a man
i loved your chivalry
while it lasted
you know how to make a girl feel special
going the extra mile
and i let you run away with my heart
and now it's floating somewhere because you let it go
i want to find it
take it back
but then i can't give it back to you
so it will be over
hence, i'm not looking for it
drowning, hanging on
to the fact that you will want me back
but i know it will be too late
so let me go now and take back what's mine
what i didn't have to give you
but gave you anyway
and you let it go
it's mine
it's mine
you didn't deserve it
didn't want it
didn't care
so i take it back
tape it up
and carry on
Jan 12, 2013
Jan 12, 2013 at 7:25 PM UTC
Always never
Eyes wide
Heart narrow
Walls and mazes
Clearly I'm not honest or trusting
But that's not true.
I trust everyone but who I should trust the most
Myself.
Jan 8, 2013
Jan 8, 2013 at 7:44 PM UTC
Looking in your eyes
I see life
I see you
All you are and all you want to be
All your fears hopes and dreams
You have already told me more than you know
I can read you
Like a book
Down to your soul
We are divine
Encompassing all of the world
We posses it all
We are all that there is
All that's ever been known
All that's ever been meant to be
I will listen
I will care
I will hope and dream
Draw you out
Make you shine
Smile
Love
Jan 1, 2013
Jan 1, 2013 at 8:33 PM UTC
Under the bus
Into traffic
Out the window
Into the sky
Into the world
Without a care without a thought
Of how I felt
Of the effect
On a small child
Knowing nothing else
Exposed to nothing else
I get it
Times were tough
But I'm still reeling myself in
I was lost
Hidden on purpose
Living with nothing
In the negative
But living none the less
It took a toll
Suffering beyond my means
Bouncing back
Learning
Adjusting my perspective
Forgiving
Now sharing
Fighting battles worth fighting
Ignoring all else
Time has been wasted
Years lost
Always something gained still
Useful somehow
The pieces will fit I just want to know how now
Jan 1, 2013
Jan 1, 2013 at 8:24 PM UTC
Missing you
We made the decision to change
Work
Try
Renew
And start over
Hopeful
Excited
Scared
Waiting
Unsure
So new we took a downward turn
But who's to say what that means
We made the right choice
Or yet you made the choice
And I'm thankful
You did your part and I did mine
So far so good
I know we're still at the very beginning
If anywhere at all
You remind me of someone
From my past
Who I thought was lost from me forever
But somehow returned in a new package
New box
Shiny and new
I won't make the same mistake twice
I'll lay it all in the line
The best way I can
Truth
Jan 1, 2013
Jan 1, 2013 at 8:16 PM UTC
Life is a big mystery
Love is a mystery
A path to the future?
We never know
We live, always hanging
In the air
In our hearts
Wanting, knowing what we want
But it isn’t always that way
It’s sometimes how it is, how it has to be
To grow
To make mistakes
That can’t be taken back
That won’t be taken back
And we sit and we wonder
For the good, for the bad, for what we fear
But they say the only thing to fear is fear itself
And it seems this is true
But yet I feel I am holding back, being held back, by fear of losing you
I will try to be bold
Try to be brave
Not worry
Not ask why
I’ll love you right, from now until I die
Jan 1, 2013
Jan 1, 2013 at 1:14 PM UTC