An old friend, but now not greeted with a smile;
not this time, not mine.
Depths not seen and never felt.
Tears unspoken, tears of lies, tears that fade.
Broken hearts, broken but never bent.
Presence eternal, unending, ethereal.
An open mind meets a shut off soul
Drowning, Painful, disregarded
held close, shouting leave.
Breaking walls, burning me, hating me!
This feeling is real again,
shouting, hoping, dying,
Alone in life, alone in death.
Please don't take this away;
This feeling of dread, this suicidal thought.
To do something meaningful.
To be remembered.
All things are just fleeting memories
trying to forget, trying to escape.
Always emulating them and their...
Always false and never returning.
Keep holding on, to that.
The destruction of them, of all thought.
Human seems so abstract for all?
Smile, wisdom has taught, make contact with them.
Apr 18, 2015
Apr 18, 2015 at 11:38 AM UTC
Life has not changed?
merely altered are my thoughts.
From darkness of evil -
To shadows of hate.
The past still lingers
The future seems far.
Touch in my fingers,
Leers to the stars...
My mind taunts my heart.
My heart plagues my mind.
Soul the silent scream:
no craft no skill no art!
Where is my lay, my rest, my sleep?
My search never ends, deeper and deep...
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 30, 2014 at 2:49 AM UTC
It cries, it dies, it ***** with me
I think too much, think too little
Does too much, does too little,
Feels less human, feels more like living
Speed it wants where life is too slow,
Black as the darkest night,
White as the softest snow
Calmness it likes,
Disaster it likes more
Hating itself and loving others
Needs their thoughts but yearning its own
Hard as stone
But falter like a new born bird,
In a rain of hell, fire of broken ash
Covered gray...
It does like hearts
It wants heart,
and maybe someday,
I will : feel, be happy, be content an be
Alive.
Aug 30, 2014
Aug 30, 2014 at 2:12 AM UTC
I stare at this visage.
Always perplexed by those eyes.
Staring back at me.
You can"t face this.
My mind, convoluted, confused, lost
Hearing words that are never spoken.
Dry to the tongue
something and beating
Empty words, full, but lost
Change has consumed this
Anger filled in every crevice
Acceptance a fleeting memory
Forever afraid of this bliss
All a stationary thought
Valing the empty mind
Moving in her
Lost what I have nought
What is the reason?
Moving and dreaming
explosive and extensive
I finally destroy you
I finally have a reason.
Aug 29, 2014
Aug 29, 2014 at 5:52 PM UTC
Peering deep into a mirror untrue,
Showing one part me, one part you
Shatter the mirror to change my face
Or at least settle chaos into grace
But if very piece has a place
It wont change the way this face betrays
The human being behind the name
Lead astray by our past that still shouts
A sickness i wish i could live without
A thickness we can both warn others about
One that keeps all the rays of sunlight out
Resembling the bruise that keeps me from you
even a mirror seems incapable of showing the truth
Feels like the entire universe is just a lie too
I sink into twilight in the red afternoon
So Descend the darkened stairways of my heart
If you can break through all the knotted parts,
Manoeuvre not to trip as my heartbeat quickens,
Manage to breathe while my blood slowly thickens
And you'll find it there on the shelf, unsung
Tucked away like all the things we've never done
You kan take it all and i wont spoil your fun
A small sacrifice for the hate we've become
Through which ill remain ever so slightly insane
Seduced and scorned by the laws of fate
to never forget or even for a second escape
The furrowed brow that makes your face
Aug 16, 2014
Aug 16, 2014 at 6:34 AM UTC
I can't say how I feel about you
So much hope, so much doubt,
Logic kills all these feelings.
We cannot
Our feelings.
We are soul mates, in a way.
But still we can't stay.
You and I might feel the same,
but different opinions prevail.
Your path can't connect with mine
But as much as I escape,
I'm cloven with a bind,
I still feel you
Hope you feel me too,
The sacrifice we give
Is the abandonment we live.
Me and you forever,
Me and you for never.
Aug 15, 2014
Aug 15, 2014 at 8:43 PM UTC
Collab with JP
Unshadowed trees offer me no protection
from what I am,
From what I was.
I'm blinded but still trying to see
Meanings in what's painted by the breeze
Tired branches depicting imperfection
Framing Life-drained mildew-stained leaves
Roots still bleeding way too far
Sketching something alive only in memories
In some way the shadows are returning,
I'm feeling the zephyr once again.
These leaves are almost green.
Once they were but now is what's been
I can only recreate by burning
Smelling like a soul that's spent
Only smoke and destruction seen
Gloomy canvas of a life at end
Let me close my eyes
Let me fall away, drifting.
Think all this is almost concluded.
Maybe I'm just deluded?
Let me scribble my last goodbye
And leave as part of this imaging
Where melancholy is favoured
And happiness secluded
Aug 15, 2014
Aug 15, 2014 at 11:17 AM UTC
Poet: Skia Kyria
Editor: Jp
Haunting my dreams,
Chasing my wake,
An answer it seeks.
No matter what it will take.
Leaving my serenity behind
Until it can decide,
Lingers around me all the time
Whispering four little words :
Harshly revealing, crudely unkind.
I am thankful, you see me for my light.
Always beautiful, your insight.
So Careful, not to darken my mind.
Ever faithful, you have nothing to hide.
But what am I?
It questions me again
Screaming like my enemy
Laughing like my best friend.
I am a terrible mass of darkness inside,
With a bit of a conscience and a lie for a life.
A mess ever trying to deny my shadow self,
Nursing it unwillingly, the deeper I delve.
But you.
You see and adore only my shell.
Happy with what you think you can tell.
Unaware that I swallow this sickening hell.
Born from the darkness in which I dwell.
I cannot find the way that leads to the light
Forever lost in the Coldness of night.
I can still tell black from white,
I can still tell wrong from right.
I have fallen too far to be where you are.
and hate myself for it constantly.
Battling to swim, drowning,and guilty,
Shaking as it hungrily consumes me.
Without any conscience
and no lack of confidence
Creating the coincidence
Of which I must bear the Consequence.
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 8:14 AM UTC
You make me feel good about myself
You're always there,
even tough your're not
You make m think
You encourage me to feel.
I miss the old days,
the days when we were still young
the days when you felt what I felt,
when I could feel what you feel.
I can still feel what you feel,
but you can't feel me anymore.
I was so silent for long.
But you're helping me come out of my shell.
Your thoughts will always be,
ever lasting wisdom to me
A dark light,
In this lighted dark.
I have found a cloud.
walking around the ground.
what a beautiful blue.
Almost make me feel like a cloud too.
The sunshine is destroying the cloud.
It comes in, feeling everything through
Leaving what it believes to be true.
After all this that cloud was you.
A part of you connects with me,
I could imagine us to be one.
A part of me will always love you
A part of me will always want you.
Only you,
only you can touch my soul,
Only you.
I miss you,
Sue.
Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 7:22 AM UTC
What strives you.
One thing that takes you.
To live for
To die for
Soft words make you smile.
Silence kills you.
Filled with doubt
Filled with hope
The one that cures you.
The one that harms you.
It feels so good
It fees so bad.
Stop creating this obsession,
Start living this obsession.
Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 6:41 AM UTC