It's 1:01
& things aren't that bad
At 12, they were pretty bad,
But now they aren't
At 12, things looked dim,
Lots of hatred, confusion & desperation
But now it's 1:03 & everything's ok
It's 1:04, & I'm not mad anymore
I decided my few friends, are good ones
Too good to be lonely
It's 1:06, & my headaches gone.
The puzzle fits now, I fathom now what I
Didn't then
It's 1:07, & I'm happy we've left it all
Behind, that things
Worked out
It's 1:09, & I just want to say
It'll be ok,
Everything's going just fine now.
For once
-j.l
Jun 20, 2014
Jun 20, 2014 at 9:55 AM UTC
she told me
God is above
but
all I see are the birds
That mock my captivity
Jun 20, 2014
Jun 20, 2014 at 9:35 AM UTC
I ******* despise this place,
All it does is tears me apart.
It's like a ******* prison,
& I just wanna shoot everyone
E v e r y o n e.
School makes me ******* crazy.
I don't want to go to a place where
Everything & anything
Is about a competition within ourselves.
Where we try to be better than the other person.
Oh honey,
You must be ******* with me when you say,
S c h o o l
Will be our most memorable.
Because honestly,
All I feel like doing when I step into this hell hole,
Is to,
Run away.
(J.l)
Apr 8, 2014
Apr 8, 2014 at 12:12 AM UTC
I know it's wrong ,
I know I shouldn't,
But I can't bring myself to say,
No.
You already have someone else,
You don't need me.
Yet you keep coming back,
For more.
You act so nice & sweet
Behind closed doors,
When with me.
But when infront of everyone,
You act like you don't even know me.
You treat me like a
Stranger.
Like I'm invisible,
I will never understand why is it
That the roads always lead me back to you
& I don't know what the **** you're trying to do
To me.
But after all this time,
For me,
It's STILL you.
Just leave her already.
Please.
(J.l)
Apr 8, 2014
Apr 8, 2014 at 12:07 AM UTC
Bury yourself in my arms,
Break the bottle you keep your feelings and thoughts in,
Talk to me, I'll listen
And if you let me,
I promise, I'll take care of you
Please don't fight it
Just close your eyes,
Reach out your hand, &
Let's fall in love.
All over again
(J.l)
Apr 1, 2014
Apr 1, 2014 at 4:54 AM UTC
I can't find the words
To describe how
I feel about you
All I know is a second
Doesn't go by without
You on my mind
But then again
I know we're not meant to be
We cannot be
So why do I allow myself to
Fall for you?
Why do I feel
Complete
When I look into your eyes?
I want you
But I don't (can't) want you
I like you
But I don't (can't) like you
I'm torn in between
My want for you vs
The sanity of myself
I try to fight this feeling
But I just can't
Do you understand what I'm saying?
I can't find the words
To describe how
I feel about you
(J.l)
Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 9:31 AM UTC
I need to accept that
You will never be mine
That
We will never embrace each other
& That
Our lips will never meet
Again
(J.l)
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 7:12 AM UTC
How is it that you
Act so normal around me?
You talk to me, you be my friend
& pretend like nothing
Ever
Happened between
Us
You make it look so easy
Even I want to
F o r g e t
(J.l)
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 7:05 AM UTC
The last words
That I couldn't tell you
are still dangling
on the tip of my tongue
& till now
I won't say a **** thing
Coz I know you don't feel
the same way
& if I did told you,
Our friendship would be ruined
& hell,
I can't
afford
to
lose
you
Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 7:03 AM UTC
I always had a
Gut feeling
That you'd eventually
leave,
& when you did,
I guess that's
Why
It never h u r t
Mar 7, 2014
Mar 7, 2014 at 6:46 AM UTC