This abundant love I offer to myself,
most do not understand,
But I stand ready all the time
to love my being regardless of flaws
For no one else is better than I with matters of my heart
Let alone to fix that which is broken from deep within
No matter what case maybe, I'll always be able to suture it back to stability
Admirer of love tranquility
Survival of the most patient in love
Balance restored
Jun 4, 2016
Jun 4, 2016 at 10:14 AM UTC
I find it implausible that someone could hurt a person whom they claim they love. Perhaps we underestimate the depth of love. So no! I don't believe in the theory that "It is those who love us that tend to hurt us the most". And it breaks my heart that you believe that's how love is. When life hurts, love will remedy. That's the theory you should live by, now let that sink in.
May 25, 2016
May 25, 2016 at 9:34 AM UTC
Sometimes in winter...when it's warm indoors,
I open the window a little bit to let air in.
I love that tingling feeling of cold air on my skin,
For some reason it awakens me
A little reminder that I can still feel.
Is that weird?
May 14, 2016
May 14, 2016 at 3:17 AM UTC
Look, you and I are clearly on different pages. You treat me like garbage, to you am just a parcel that gets you laid once in a while. I don't get anything in return from you; no emotion, no connection, no appreciation and not even an ****** I become mute when am with you, you take away my voice and it's because you always say I disrespect you each time I try to stand my ground or say something. That is oppression and I cannot live like that. It's been almost 2 years and we still in the same position, there is no "flow" to go along with. I am exhausted of trying to make something out of this because it's evident you want nothing more and I don't want to push you. I deserve better treatment than what you are giving me, I deserve happiness, I deserve someone who appreciates me and mostly I deserve someone who is at least making an effort. I think you need to figure out what you want in a woman besides *** and I can't stick around while you do that. "I sincerely hope that your soul finds peace. You broke me but it was only because you were broken. I will heal because I know I need to but I worry that you'll never realize that you are in need of healing". I am sorry for expecting more than you could offer. I am genuinely sorry for wanting to be your woman. I am sorry for liking you more than you could handle
May 6, 2016
May 6, 2016 at 9:31 AM UTC
Do good deeds umpteen times, observe as they go unheeded
Do a bad deed once and listen to the fuss like bees on nectar
In either case put out your hands, catch the falling pieces of your broken heart
Gather all crumbles from your shuttered kindness
Piece them together and soldier on
Understand that this is life, you can never really satisfy anyone
But know God is watching
May 3, 2016
May 3, 2016 at 5:21 PM UTC
I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity
I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing
I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here
If you give me half a chance
I'll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect's the spirit world
And thinks with his heart
I am ready for love
If you'll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can
I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind
Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love
I am ready
Apr 10, 2016
Apr 10, 2016 at 4:11 PM UTC
You treat me like crap, even with the most simplest and little things you ought to be doing you still fail to do your best towards me. I have been nothing but good and patient with you. I never understood what we were doing hence I always asked and yet I never got an answer except all I got was "take things slow". You only call when you "need" me,and you get angry when I don't let you hit it which means that I am nothing more than a ***** call. I can't blame you thou, I blame myself for thinking that I could be more than that. Truth is I want more, I deserve more, I deserve better. And clearly you cannot give me that, I can't even say you have tried. Life is too short to be taking things slow and only being contacted whenever convenient for you. So, whatever relationship we had or whatever we were up to...I am through with it. I want to loved, cared for and mostly taken care of. Life is way too short to be around someone who doesn't feel the same about you. This is goodbye
Mar 22, 2016
Mar 22, 2016 at 6:52 PM UTC
Hesitating to answer the question "would you ever go back" is as bad as being unsure about what you currently possess
Mar 20, 2016
Mar 20, 2016 at 2:34 PM UTC
For the sake of our own sanity we convince ourselves that everything happens for a reason although we may not know that reason. In all truth and honesty things happen because they happen. **** knows why.
Mar 19, 2016
Mar 19, 2016 at 9:48 AM UTC
LOBOLA
Let me drift you away from the idea that lobola is buying your wife. No! It isn't. As black families, we believe that parents raise kids and once the kids have grown and are independent they get to now take care of their parents. Now! We know that once you get married, that might change because now you will be having your own family to take care of. We know that as men, that never really changes...you still get to take care of your parents and a family of your own hence there is no lobola for men. Now as women, we acknowledge that you are going to get married and go live by your in-laws or some place else and traditionally it is believed that you are never to come back home since you have been "taken". Understandably so because you are now part of a certain family and have broken the cord from yours. Fast forward to lobola therefore as a man who is taking away a woman from a family which she was taking care of, you ought to leave them with something so that they may continue living or surviving since you are taking away their "bread winner". Back in the days lobola was paid by cows, because with livestock you are rich and can survive for many years. The idea of lobola started being an issue and misunderstanding when it converted to hard cash. Which shouldn't have because it is still the same concept...with a certain amount of money you should be able to take care of your family and survive. How lobola got misinterpreted as buying your wife is not well understood however it could be presumed that it is because of the attributes that contributes to the price tagging. Your behaviour, achievements, ability to reproduce etc are what contributes to the billing. Which honestly shouldn't be an issue because parents know that with the achievements that you have you were going to take care of them well...very well. With the manners that you have...you will respect your husband and be obedient towards him. You will bear kids for your husband and gave a big family. Everyone is happy. All in all to able to understand the concept of lobola you have to understand culture and tradition but you are going to say "times have changed" and you are now modernised.
Mar 19, 2016
Mar 19, 2016 at 5:18 AM UTC