I thought that I would be able to talk
I would just sit in silence wondering
wondering how I can talk to you
how I would be able to tell you
how beautiful you are
how amazing I think you are
and how much I think about you
since the day we met
I could not forget how I would pass by
just to see your gorgeous face
to just stare at you for no reason what so ever
I had to get to know you
I had to push myself into your life
I like you
and I have no control over it
I had many chances to take you
and show you how i feel
but I was a scared
I would look at the past and think
I'm no way good for you
you can do so much better then me
I'm nothing
you probably aren't even thinking of me
and so the doubt builds and builds
and I close off
till the thought of you frightens me
and even now as I realize
that not only do I like you
but I think that I'm in love.
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 10:48 PM UTC
you come to us with a bright idea
it comes and goes
but on one knows
that you are really mean
with a shiny light
blinding all in sight
you have the might to change our life
to **** us all
to let us die
you many not know this
for you are your own
floating in space
distant from our race
but
we hold you so close
for our lives
they need your rays
the sprouting life
there you are guiding us all.
Nov 22, 2013
Nov 22, 2013 at 11:29 PM UTC
I have sat here
questioning this and that
lost in my thoughts
figured i had figured it out
when i was really out of control
trying to place pieces
in places that don't fit
now i sit here trying to comprehend
all these thought that ran trough my head
what a wonder this is
i have nothing
completely lost everything
and now where i am be
lost in this moment
lost in these dreams
lost in a cycle that will eventually end
fought for a extra turn
lost another night
won a battle
where the meanings are lost
have i moved on
or am i still circling around
to see if i still have a chance
losing the war
i fight for nothing
not even my sanity
when i am only battling myself
who can win
who do i wish to win
jump!
jump!
jump!
man i hope i can fly.
Jul 6, 2013
Jul 6, 2013 at 5:44 PM UTC
With all i have done
i just wanted to move on
forget my passed
move to a better tomorrow
i felt i could do this a be fine
now as i sit here these memory's
have stuck me with such brute force
the strong connection that i once had
still trying to hold on
it pulls me back into my wicked dreams
my haunted memory's of you and i
a vivid imagine
of what you use to be
and how i became me
i move forward each and everyday
but with these feet
i lose two or three steps
turning around and looking back
it is a curse i must face now
and it will follow me forever
there is no escaping what i have done
who i have hurt
and the person i am
a monster was born
created to protect me
and creature designed to set me free
a monster i created.
Jun 13, 2013
Jun 13, 2013 at 8:45 PM UTC
I sit wondering
What I have I just done
I think to myself
Why does this not hurt
Then I start to think about everyone
Who will remember
And who will not notice
But no one comes to mind
I look at the floor and see a puddle of blood
Still questioning why this does not hurt
I see the door open strangers standing
Looking at me as if I am dead
I head towards them
Yo find out who they may be
As I get near I realize they are crying
I ponder wondering why
I turn around
What i have just done
My body sitting there lifeless
I look back at the two
I see nothing
I turn back to my body
I see nothing
I am alone now
On a path that leads to a bright light
flickering on and off
I then say to myself
"So this is the After Life"
And then I start walking
Dec 19, 2012
Dec 19, 2012 at 11:38 PM UTC
Today was going to be the day
I was going to see if you would take my heart
and give me yours
I was ready to open a door to a world
that would be you and me
a world to the future
were we could live and be happy
i was ready to give you my all
i was ready to become a man
i was ready to take a chance
but i wasn't ready to die
as the conversation went on
i felt and saw
this would not end as well as i hope
i saw what might happened but continued on
i want to see if we would right
you see
with the words moving on
and as the side began to form
i felt our bond start to break
i saw our chains begin to rust and fad away
i know now that we were not meant to be
with a simple word
that will surely last
we are both ignorant
and we are both right
one views higher then the others
and ones love higher then the words
there it was
the chains break
our bond explodes
there it was
you and i
fighting each other
and as i lie
my hopes they fade
i just want you and i
but that's clearly a dream
because it was today
today it became
that you and me
as we truly see
that we are not meant to be.
Nov 7, 2012
Nov 7, 2012 at 2:34 AM UTC
Morning comes
we are fine
noon arises
we are drained
the night approaches
we are dead
to find the world in all its beauty
look no further then a dying flower
to see this life with all its glory
go to woods and watch it decay
for the taste of salvation
all that one must do
is feast on ones soul
I came to you as a man
I leave tonight as a creature
you may hear my cry only once
and you may see my eyes
a thousand times
but my features you will never know
because for the ones who know
there words will never leave
tick-tock
my rhythmic clock
for this is no watch
it is me watching you
as you prance on by
with such glee
and no fright
but as you do
I must warn you
there is no clock for me
only a thickening flock
of dark clouds
that follow as I stalk
Nov 6, 2012
Nov 6, 2012 at 2:11 AM UTC
I have come this far
I have made the decisions on this path
I am not perfect
but yet I am as perfect as I will ever be
these road lead no where
they seem to guide me in circles
the trees I pass are ones I've seen
and the bricks i walk upon all seem the same shade
I am not sure where this will lead me
but I know I cant stop here
a broken heart is guiding me
to my one true steer
I wish to stop
I want to quit
but these voices in my head keep at me
a lot of them talking
random murmurs of do it and don'ts
there are those who speak in secret riddles
laughing at my pain
there are those who speak it clear
suicide the only way
I know not what i am
but oh I know so clear
I'm fake
I am a man who hides be hide a child
who helps me through this pain
a child more brave then I
he is my past
and he is true at heart
he hasn't seen the world yet
and so open to whats next
so I hold him up so high
so he wont see beneath these clouds
the world I have created for him
a terrible wreathed place
please forgive me child of mine
this isn't the future you will see.
Nov 5, 2012
Nov 5, 2012 at 3:02 AM UTC
Looking at me
Always putting me down
Not know what I am
Always laughing with you
Not knowing of your lust
Blinded by the secrets you trust
You are what you hate
And there you are hating me!
Your enemy is you
And you keep fighting
Not fighting your life
Just your subconscious soul
Laughing at me
The reason unknown
But the message is there
You like what you see
But so afraid to act
The way you are amazed
Is the way you are a strange
Afraid of the truth but the fact so clear
The truth?
This person is you
And you love nothing more
The tear between friends and foes
Breaks the code
When in reality
The code was never complete to begin with
The same are strong
But opposites unite even better
Feeding off the unknown
And sharing their love
I am a Freak
And you are perfect
We're not meant to be
Those eyes so pure
Nothing stopping your sight
Blinded by none
And always making fun
Gentle is the code
And Harmony Fixed that
These eyes were always mine
I just found them too late
I am a Freak
And you are perfect
we're not meant to be
But whose eyes are we meant to be in?
Oct 19, 2012
Oct 19, 2012 at 9:31 PM UTC
Oh you think I care
What about now?
Nothing will change, I am what i am
Battling my self now battling you
Why are you trying to figure it out
Move On!
Because all your doing is fighting
And all I’m doing is walking
Stop this right now!
Stop putting me (down)
in these random categories that you’ve made for me
Let me see, let me choose, let me be myself
Because I don’t belong and I never will
Apologize?
These feelings are mine
And that’s what I choose
I am what I am and that’s the fact
So if that’s Monster you see
So believe it!
Because all I see is a Hero in me
Back off and look through
You see it? No! Oh well.
You will never understand but that’s ok
Just let me live and stop trying to bring me back
Because all I can say to you is
Words and Forgiveness won’t fix a thing
And do they truly reach that deep?
You live for this idea you have of me
But you forget truly see me
So Forget me and Forget the world
Because nothing truly matters
When you’re looking through those eyes of yours
Oct 19, 2012
Oct 19, 2012 at 9:27 PM UTC