I thought the sun was yellow, sky was clear
Nevermind
I thought you would get me out of here
Nevermind
I thought words were more than black on white
Nevermind
I thought that everything would be alright
Nevermind
I don't know where the time went
You changed, became indifferent
Forever will without warning pass you by
And you never paused to tell me why
You said I was the one you hoped you'd find
Nevermind
I thought the night was black, and clouds were white
Nevermind
I thought you came to turn on the light
Nevermind
I thought you accepted me for who I am
Nevermind
I thought I´d never feel this way again
Nevermind
Jul 21, 2018
Jul 21, 2018 at 6:48 PM UTC
I used to be able to tell you everything
I used to be able to be myself
Now I am struggling to let you in
Now I feel like we´re both someone else
This year has been like a rollercoaster ride
So many lows, so many highs
I've tried to put our differences aside
Just so I wouldn't have to say goodbye
You used to laugh at my jokes
You used to come when I needed you the most
I didn't see the fire through the smoke
You didn't notice I was just a ghost
This time I can´t read your mind
It's been ten seconds, but it seems like an age
It's like painting the rainbow colourblind
How did you end up on a different page?
I used to be able to tell you everything
I used to know you loved me more than words
Now I'm struggling to feel a thing
Still missing us really hurts
26. Februar 2018
Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 5:52 PM UTC
He is a fallen soldier
With his uniform torn, and his heart or his sleeve
He looks twenty years older
With is wounds open, ready to bleed
It was not what he thought it would be
Not just justice and bravery
Now he's gone while he's talking to me
His mind keeps returning to imagines he can't unsee
I am sorry, cause I was no comfort
Even when I held you in my arms
Every morning there is so much effort
To wake up, and give the day a chance
It is not easy to save everyone
Though you believed once that you could
Now look at what you have become
Because you were honest and good
He is a fallen soldier
Who woke up while everyone else fell
He is twenty years older
Carrying them all while carrying himself
Feb 22, 2018
Feb 22, 2018 at 10:54 AM UTC
I´m at a loss for words
I never am
But they fade in front of me
Like they have been written in the sand
You say you´ll write
You say you´ll call
You say everything
And then nothing at all
I´m at a loss for words
Yet I know them my heart
This pen and this paper
Are light years apart
You know I am tired
My hand is aching
I feel each letter
But the pen just keeps breaking
The words used to come alive
Now they are gasping for breath
Sooner or later
There won't be any left
8. Februar 2018
Feb 7, 2018
Feb 7, 2018 at 6:22 PM UTC
Do you love me?
Do you love me on one condition?
Or one hundred?
Do you love me unconditionally?
Do you love me at all?
Jan 3, 2018
Jan 3, 2018 at 7:46 PM UTC
Loss is like a river
You stand in it always
And feel it against your skin
Warm, cold and invisible
Rising and falling
But you can never hold it in your hands
Dec 26, 2017
Dec 26, 2017 at 5:22 PM UTC
Tell me what you see
When you look into my eyes
Do you see who I could be?
Or do you realize
It´s difficult to dream
And make it come to life
Tell me what you see
When you look into my eyes
Tell me what you say
When you listen to the wind
For a moment everything's okay
But there's a terrible storm within
Do you sometimes try
To hold it in your hands
But it's like watching the ocean dry
or keeping the waves upon the sand
Tell me what you feel
When you search your fractured soul
Each memory so real
And impossible to control
Do you follow them
Trying to win the race
Then relive your life again
And see they fall like pieces into place
Tell me what you see
When you look into my eyes
Do you see who you could be?
Or just someone you despise?
Blue can be beautiful
And the young can be wise
The eyes are the window to the soul
And so this poem came to life
5. Desember 2017
Dec 5, 2017
Dec 5, 2017 at 5:38 PM UTC
It´s alright to cry when you are haunted
Of days that you have yet to live
In a room feeling restless and unwanted
Not knowing how much more you can give
It´s alright to cry when you are heartbroken
I can barely keep my thoughts at bay
Can you please stop asking me how I´m coping?
So I can keep my smile in place throughout the day
It´s alright to cry when you are lonely
You pretend to love the faces in the crowd
You should walk over and say «please get to know me»
But for that kind of weakness you're too proud
It´s alright to cry when life fills you with sadness
And no one has the answers you want to hear
But there is a method to the madness
Just don´t give in to your fear
It´s alright to cry when you are haunted
By love and hate and life and loss
In the end you don´t remember where the road led
But the truth is, no one really does
3/5. November 2017
Nov 5, 2017
Nov 5, 2017 at 11:53 AM UTC
Hold on to yourself
Nothing is as it seems
You simply can´t tell
What goes on behind the scenes
Hold on to someone
Who doesn't bring you down
and alone in front of everyone
Looking like a clown
I can't say I understand
No one really does
Let´s live in a dreamland
And break all the laws
Hold on to yourself
Don´t feel pressured to transform
You can't always tell
When your whole soul is gone
2. November 2017
Nov 2, 2017
Nov 2, 2017 at 11:51 AM UTC
Why do you always do this?
Pull out last minute
Say your heart wasn't in it
How do we get through this?
When you won't walk beside me
When your eyes can´t find me
Tell me what to do because it's out of control
You go from a hurricane to nothing at all
If I overstepped then please let me know
And I´ll leave
If you want me to go
Why do you always make jokes?
When I´m bearing my soul
Like it's your limelight I stole
Why do you see fire when there´s no smoke?
Will you help me put it out?
Or will you keep running out?
Tell me what to do because I'm losing my mind
You tell me that you love me, but regret it each time
If I crossed the line, then please let me know
And I´ll leave
If you want me to go
Sep 17, 2017
Sep 17, 2017 at 3:50 PM UTC