it was nice of you to
say you loved me but
it would have been
nicer if you meant it
it was kind of you to
tell me you cared but
it would have been
kinder if you had been
there when i needed you
it was sweet of you to
say i was yours but
it would have been sweeter
if you had kept me
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 3:03 AM UTC
You told me you wouldn't be happy.
Those words are engraved in my memory...
They were unnecessary
And cold
And harsh.
And they changed me.
I don't see the world in the same way.
I'm deeper in this never-ending abyss...
Deeper than I've been before.
Words are powerful.
They carry a weight greater than anything else.
They are hard to forget.
And they can be harder to remember correctly.
Your words hurt.
Like a bullet straight to the heart.
I keep finding it harder to breathe
Every day...
And it's your fault.
I keep telling us both that it's not,
But there's no other explanation.
You created those words.
The words that tore me apart.
And no words can fix me.
I'm a broken mess.
Your words turned me into this.
I am cold, and alone, and empty.
I still love you,
But I blame you for everything.
And that's what continues to hurt the most.
Not so much the words,
But the weight they carry...
And how the person who expressed them,
Was the only one I could trust.
Apr 14, 2015
Apr 14, 2015 at 2:55 AM UTC
I'm laying in bed a month after we broke up,
And I'm staring at the ceiling thinking about every time I kissed you.
And ****** I wish I would've kissed you longer.
I wish I wouldve held you tighter.
I wish I would've done a lot of things.
I'm just glad it happened in the first place.
But **** some nights just get me,
Holy **** do I miss you.
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 4:13 AM UTC
I shouldn't miss you
I shouldn't want to pick up the phone and call you
So why does my heart ache
Why do I dwell
I shouldn't miss you
You hurt me almost beyond repair
So why do I miss you
And your gentle touch
And the way you said my name
I shouldn't miss you
Or how you said "I love you" with little hearts
Because in the end you didn't mean it
It was all ********
Yet, I still miss you
Why do I miss you
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 4:12 AM UTC
You left me alone in these nights
Struggling with my thoughts with fright
Remembering good times and moonlights
Lightening our night till we see the sunlight
And before saying goodnight and goodbyes
You would tell me with a sweet delight
I will never leave you I swear to all gods
But you left me and I started to write
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 4:10 AM UTC
A free verse poem by me!
Some nights I can't sleep,
My mind is consumed,
With the thought of how,
Much easier it would be,
If you were my side.
For you,
The one who put me in this state,
Is not here,
By my side,
Though I wish you were.
For you,
Are the cause,
Of my sleepless nights,
My restless nights,
My dreamless nights.
I am lying here,
Awake in my bed,
The covers pulled up to my chin,
Curled into,
A ball.
Lying here,
Wanting,
Waiting,
Wishing,
Needing.
You.
Mar 21, 2015
Mar 21, 2015 at 3:52 AM UTC
these days
i don't miss you
because
here after
you are not mine,
for me to miss you.....
you are lost forever
from my eyes,
from my heart,
and finally
from my life too........
Mar 20, 2015
Mar 20, 2015 at 3:28 AM UTC
When I was 12
I would sit and listen to
love songs and smile
and sing along,
and feel bad when people lost it.
I never understood,
how could someone be so sad?
"They are just a person"
I would think.
Now I know,
sitting up on late nights
looking at old photos
with tears streaming down my face.
Clutching my chest
wishing you were here.
Everyday is like a fight
to see how long it'll take
till you pop on my mind
and crush my soul.
Looking at the sky and knowing
somewhere you are there
and alone.
Now I know
and I hate it.
Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 3:06 AM UTC