i trusted you were different from the rest.
i believed the words as they flowed from your mouth
when you told me that you would always be here
that you cared
that you loved me.
i trusted you were different when you said you dont express things through actions so i had to believe what you said.
maybe i was intrigued by the newness of it all
the constant wonder
the thought of you watching me in the corner of your eye instead of your full gaze on me.
i longed for your total attention
just for a minute
but you told me you were different.
i trusted you were different
but actions triumph over words
and thats when i knew we needed to end.
Aug 27, 2018
Aug 27, 2018 at 12:00 AM UTC
they never wonder about her mind
the racing thoughts
the never-ending fear
the rapid emotions
they pursue what they see through the eye
the visual
but her mind cannot be seen
only imagined
if you could see her mind
you'd see a swirling tornado
never ending
picking up random **** as it wanders
making it a part of itsown
but they never wonder about her mind when they see the visual
when they see the content girl
the fake smile on her face
her hair flowing in brown waves
her nails painted a soft yellow
and they are satisfied with the visual
if only they could see her mind.
Jun 27, 2018
Jun 27, 2018 at 2:50 AM UTC
"you can not cry"
"crying shows weakness, you are not weak"
"push away the feelings you don't want them"
"what is that weight you're holding"
i feel the tears building
my throat clogging
my tense hands trembling with fear
but not the fear of being seen as weak.
i could give a **** about that.
the fear of feelings,
letting them flow,
saying goodbye.
Jun 27, 2018
Jun 27, 2018 at 2:37 AM UTC
i see life going
i see a clock ticking
the sand flowing through the hourglass and piling up at the bottom
i see it all.
i am there
there through all the laughs
all the cries
all the adventures
i am there through it all.
i see it all happening
i am there through it all happening
yet i can not feel anything that is happening
Jun 27, 2018
Jun 27, 2018 at 2:33 AM UTC
i never meant to say goodbye
it was intended to be a see you later
i needed time
and so i left.
but then i came back
and you were gone
i held on as you changed
your morals, your interests, your hopes, your fears.
and i then realized i had said goodbye.
Jun 27, 2018
Jun 27, 2018 at 2:30 AM UTC
We are the ones who are hard to understand
We'll be the last ones in the movie theatre
because the ending scene made us cry
We'll stop to smell the roses
because they deserve to be appreciated
We are the ones who will take the time
to learn what keeps you up at night
We are the ones who will imagine
an entire future of adventures
with the people who show us love
We are the ones who will love you more
than we love ourselves
We will give you our strongest parts
in hopes that we can make things better
We desire to see you become the best you
to make sure that you always feel our love
We crave affection and appreciation
We give a piece of ourselves away every day
sometimes to people who don't deserve it
Our love is easy to take advantage of
and sometimes we don't get back
the love that we give away
When we hurt, we crumble and fall apart
We constantly have to put ourselves back together
We are more fragile than we like to give off
We carry our emotions on our sleeves
Our flaws have the ability to consume us
We aren't afraid to give you the world
but we are afraid to feel unloved
We want you to see what we see
We want you to understand where we're coming from
We are good people with good intentions
We are stronger than we believe
Not everyone can feel the way we feel
We feel too much, too often
We are not hard to love
We are something not everyone knows how to love
But you need to remember that
your worth does not change just because
no one is there to appreciate you, to remind you
You are not any less lovable
You are the most lovable person in the world
You are a light that the world needs
Your kindness is not your weakness
You do not need to change for anyone's acceptance
You do not need to stop giving love
just because you don't get any back
Your heart is the best thing about you
And one day when you least expect it
someone will notice you from across the room
and know exactly how to love you
They will think all of these things are beautiful
They will deserve the love you can give
They will fill the empty space in your heart
But for now, don't stop feeling
We are the ones who feel everything so deeply
We are the ones who can't give up because
We are the ones who will teach the world
how to love
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 11:40 PM UTC
We're almost touching.
we were walking side by side,
you're talking about cabs in your hometown.
I can feel the gravity of your hand, calling my fingers
whispering "it's alright."
We're touching but not quite.
you held my shoulder to protect me from the passing cars.
and for the first time in a long while, I felt so fragile.
In this world where I find it hard even to breathe,
you believed me.
I almost said it.
All I need is one ounce of strength to tell you every single thing that I have ever felt about you.
I want to find home in your collarbones.
Would you be kind enough to let a stranger in?
I want to seep in your being because I'm cold.
The world is harsh and my cracks are aching.
Almost.
Apr 19, 2018
Apr 19, 2018 at 3:25 AM UTC
i love you
i love my hands in yours
i love cuddling up to you and listening to your heart beat
i love the trust i have that you will always be there
i want for us to be forever
i want us to be okay
i want us to be the one in a million
high school sweethearts that make it
oh so bad
but i am scared
scared this life will take us two separate ways
scared you will find someone better
scared i will **** up and you'll run away
loving you is scary
loving is scary
i am scared to love
we grew up being taught that we will find true love
but what if it is you
and we never make it
because i am scared to love?
Apr 12, 2018
Apr 12, 2018 at 8:21 PM UTC
thank you for being there for me when no one else was
you remained strong when all else failed
you continue to be a part of me even when i reject you
thank you for remaining one
never breaking
being resilient
you give me hope that i can remain one to myself
you never rely on others
i'm sorry i don't give you credit
i'm sorry i become disappointed with you when you are trying your best
you allow me to push you past your limits
you tell me when i take on too much both mentally and physically
i appreciate all you have become and all you will achieve
i appreciate you for putting up with my bad decisions
i know i hurt you
i know i look down upon you
i know i don't give you the credit you deserve
but thank you
for showing me strength
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 11:17 PM UTC
the scariest thing is
looking into your heart
instead of your head
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 11:06 PM UTC