Sometimes I need to be told that you care
Because in my head are monsters lurking everywhere
Making me doubt
Making me want to scream out.
So just tell me you care,
So that these monsters can flee,
And I could be free.
Mar 2, 2014
Mar 2, 2014 at 11:49 PM UTC
Tell me that wasn't you
Take back all the pain
Stop the tears streaming down my face.
I know that I'm insecure
I doubt
I fail at relationships
I don't know what to say
I don't know what to do
I want to talk to you
But all I feel is that I'm pushing you away
But that's cause I feel you're pushing me away
I want to fight back
I want to scream
I want to shout
I wanna run
Yet want to stand steady as well.
I'm still trying to figure everything out
Still trying not to be an emotional roller coaster
So that I can say what I mean
And not feel like crying.
So that one day
Maybe I can hold my head up high
And see the lies in your eyes.
Only then maybe I'll be fine.
Mar 2, 2014
Mar 2, 2014 at 10:27 PM UTC
I wake up to his good mornings,
And fall asleep to his good nights.
Every time my phone buzzes
I hope it was him,
And every time it was,
I get a smile,
Cuz that's how much I really like him.
He makes me feel sweet,
And he makes me feel special,
So he rocks my world every day.
From sunrise to sunset,
He's always on my mind
And in every dream
He is the apple of my eye.
Dec 21, 2012
Dec 21, 2012 at 1:24 AM UTC
Maybe if the scars weren't so deep,
Maybe I would be able to breathe.
Maybe if there weren't lies behind every truth,
Maybe I could believe.
Maybe if there weren't memories everywhere I turned,
Maybe I could forgive.
Maybe if there wasn't hate behind closed eyes,
Maybe I could love.
Maybe if there wasn't scorn in the whispers behind my back,
Maybe I would feel comfortable in my own skin.
Maybe if it wasn't so dark,
I could see the light of a friend so near.
Maybe if I didn't feel buried,
Then I could learn to swim.
Maybe if there weren't any maybes,
I could let the whole world know my story
But until that day comes,
I'll hide behind my maybes.
Dec 5, 2012
Dec 5, 2012 at 9:08 PM UTC
You see the door is closing,
Not wanting to look in.
You see your heart is pouring out,
All your true colors rushing out.
For once in your life,
The tears are not falling down.
And for once in your life,
You're not afraid to be let down.
You're looking through the glass,
And all you want is more.
Not hindered by faltered of the mind,
You can see clearly now.
Dec 5, 2012
Dec 5, 2012 at 8:57 PM UTC
As I layed dying,
Praying, "Please God help me out."
The memories flashed before my eyes,
All the good,
And all the bad ones.
The good outweighing the bad.
I remember me being there for you,
I remember you opening up,
But now here I am
The blood pouring out,
And my last thoughts are:
How I let you in,
And you tore me apart.
Dec 5, 2012
Dec 5, 2012 at 8:51 PM UTC
If I could take back every idiotic thing I did,
Would I be happy?
Would you be happy?
I don't know what life's all about.
I'm still trying to figure out,
How to walk while trying not to fall.
I have all these emotions running through me,
But what do they really mean?
I'm trying to pick myself up again,
But all I do is keep breaking.
I'm trying to learn how to love,
Without hating.
No matter how many times i say im sorry,
You wont forgive me.
No matter how many times i cry,
You cant make the tears go away.
No matter how many times i try to be good,
You make me evil.
No matter what i do,
It never will be enoguh for me or you.
I'm trying to pick myself up again,
But all I do is keep breaking.
I'm trying to learn how to love,
Without hating.
I'll let you in,
But you'll just tear me apart.
I would do what you say,
But you don't even mean what you say.
You're on your on planet,
And my message can't get to you.
I never wanted to hurt you,
But you left me no choice.
Dec 5, 2012
Dec 5, 2012 at 8:03 PM UTC
Funny how one action can change everything,
A perfect world becomes shattered,
A life becomes filled with tortured memories.
Always in constant wonder,
Whether if anything will come out of the destruction,
The rubble of the mess.
Nothing seems to come to mind,
No hope,
No love,
Just thoughts that tear you apart.
You want to cry out,
You want to run,
You want to shout,
But nothing seems to come out,
Just the emptiness of desolation.
Dec 5, 2012
Dec 5, 2012 at 7:58 PM UTC
Dear owner,
Will you promise to be kind to me,
To give me love,
Take me for walks,
And not forget me?
Do you promise that I am a life commitment,
Not just until I get big,
Or until you have a kid?
Do you promise that I'll be part of the family,
Live in your home,
And not out in the dog house?
Do you promise to show me the kindness that you show your friends,
That you show your partner,
Or the kids you love?
Do you promise that when I do something bad,
You won't throw me out,
Force me to live on the streets?
You may not know this but when you get me,
You may not know my pass,
The lies my previous owners told,
The abuse they put me through,
The scorn they showed me
And the hate.
I wasn't bad,
They just didn't know how to raise me.
They had a kid
And no more time for me they said,
So they threw me out to the street
Forced to wander for food.
I was skinny when I came here,
But these nice people helped me,
So before you adopt me,
Please consider
The time I require
And the love you need to show.
Nov 16, 2012
Nov 16, 2012 at 1:36 PM UTC
When I looked into your brown eyes,
I knew it was love.
I knew I just had to bring you home,
Give you the love you never received,
Because all of the neglect
Abuse your former owners put you through.
When I bent down
And I stuck out my hand,
You were hesitant,
And just for a second
I saw something in your eye
Hope.
Hope that I would love you
And not neglect you
Disobey the stereotype the people have put on you,
That pit bulls are vicious
That you could possibly **** me with one bite,
But there is no chance of love
Without taking a chance.
So I brought you home,
And I worked with you
Showed you love
And in return you loved me.
We would go for runs,
Go for swims,
And not once did you try biting me,
Even when you were suffering
All the pain from when you got old,
So now I say to you,
"Run on
On into the wind
And be the dog you were suppose to be,
Because you will be miss
Every single day I breath."
Nov 16, 2012
Nov 16, 2012 at 1:31 PM UTC