"You need this...
Just let your mind relax..."
My body keeps telling me
As I sit here
My eyes drooping
As my mind goes fuzzy
Fighting the urge
To take a snooze
Is no easy task
Because you'll usually lose
But I must do it
The thoughts in my head
Will just become more livid
If I let myself slip unconscious
Because although thoughts flash
Across the mind
When they turn to dreams
It's a continuous stream
But maybe I can doze
For just five minutes?
No I can't
Because it won't end there
I must stay awake
It's the only choice
At least the one that makes
The most sense
But alas, it's no use
It's overpowering yet again
I'll close my eyes, and go to sleep
Just to wake up again
This time maybe
My mind will take flight
And show what I want
Not what I fear.
Nov 23, 2010
Nov 23, 2010 at 5:25 AM UTC
Lying there
day after day
Sun up, sun down
Same old routine
Children poking fingers
Banging on the glass
Pressing their ugly noses
Into the only space you call your own
Thus is the life of a zoo animal
Living in cages and tanks
Detached from the rest of the world
Longing to be free
Often I find myself
In the same scenario
Behind imaginary bars
All by myself
As life goes on
I'm stuck here
Repeating patterns
And longing to be free
But slowly and surely
I am breaking free
From these bars
That have burdened me
Oct 25, 2010
Oct 25, 2010 at 5:13 PM UTC
Friends
Best Friends
Truer than true friends
Forever friends
Or so i thought
But sitting here now
Looking over
What we had
Wondering what the hell happened
I've done so much for you
And what do i get?
The back end of the burner
And the short end of the stick
You just don't get it
Do you?
You don't get why i'm upset
And you probably never will
Truth is
You care more about your new "friends"
Than you do
About the one who's helped you the most
If i ask you anything about one of "them"
You'd know it off the top of your head
But when you mention me
You don't even remember my age
You give off the wrong impression of me
And mock me in front of friends
Don't you think that hurts?
Do you have that little respect of me?
I may as well not be here
Because that is how I feel
That i am just some rag doll
That you just push to the side
But you wanna know something
One day you're gonna be in trouble
And the only one who'll be able to help
Will be me
But you know what?
I won't come to your rescue
Because the friendship we had
Was your loss, not mine
Oct 25, 2010
Oct 25, 2010 at 12:49 PM UTC
She sits there
At the desk
Her head spinning
As it begins
Day in and day out
All she ever feels
Is the feeling
Of being everything
She's underappreciated,
And under rested.
She's overtired,
And overworked
Her friends are the only ones
Who appreciate her
For who she is
Not what she does
They're the reason why
She’s still hanging on
To that rope she's clinging to
That just keeps fraying.
Sometimes she just feels
Like she's nothing at all
Or even worse-
Like the energizer bunny
She keeps going and going
But not on her own terms
There’s always something that needs to get done
And it's up to her to do it
What she wants to do
Keeps getting put on hold-
Things that she needs to do
Take a number and wait in line
She feels empty
Like she's nothing at all
She’s running on autopilot
And it’s running her life
Even sleeping doesn’t help
For the horrid dreams kick in
But I guess when you're on automatic
Nothing seems right
But yet there's hope
That keeps peeking through
This dark soul
That has engulfed me
For as long as I have a heart
That continues to beat
My soul can remain pure
Even if no one can see
Oct 25, 2010
Oct 25, 2010 at 12:36 PM UTC
The sweet sound of silence
Lingers in the air
As the house is emptied
For all but me
A time to relax
And take things easy
Do things at my pace
And not deal with demands
Music starts to fill the silence
As the beat has me moving,
Shaking my stress away
And i am at total peace
Four o clock rolls around
Things get a little stressful
But only barely
As little brother comes home
Reading is his favorite hobby
As is sitting and listening
To his older sister
As she engulfs them into a faraway land
But all the while
A sense of relaxation is present
But when the phone rings
Is when the tension comes knocking again
But give it a while
And the tension simmers
And eventually
It once again goes away
As we go our separate ways
Oct 21, 2010
Oct 21, 2010 at 7:04 PM UTC
The creativity that once
Flowed through the mind
Like the wind through the trees
And the blood through the veins
Has taken a back seat
As the mind is now full
Of things that take priority
In regaining sanity and peace
A war has erupted
And being stuck in the middle
Is proving to be
No easy chore
What qualifies as being more important?
Moving forward for one's self
Or helping others to do so?
All comes down to the state of mind
The conscience is the ultimate answer
For listening holds the key
Whichever path it chooses
Is surely the right answer
Isn't it?
Oct 21, 2010
Oct 21, 2010 at 6:37 PM UTC
The wind rustling the leaves
And the crickets playing a song
brings peace to my ears
it's tranquility soothes my soul
It takes me away
to a faraway place
where the time does not fly
and stress is non existent
a place that is seldom traveled to
for the turmoils of life
make us forget about
finer aspects
so just sit back
and enjoy nature
the sounds and sights
and the way it surrounds you
because the stress will subside
and the peace will overcome
if you just breathe in the air
and let it take control
Sep 8, 2010
Sep 8, 2010 at 8:14 PM UTC
spinning around and around
getting dizzier every step
don't know up from down
it's all just a blur
marshmallow clouds
float in a caramel sky
as lemon drops fall
into a chocolate river
nothing is as it seems
reality drifts away
as fantasy kicks in
perhaps to provide safety
safety from emotions
that whirl around the head
all seem to be morphing
into one big ball of chaos
the chaos leads to
tuning everything out
so thus she creates
her own little world
Jul 13, 2010
Jul 13, 2010 at 6:47 PM UTC
I sit and I watch
As the rain comes falling
Listening to the thunder boom
and the howling winds
And I think about those
Who hate the rain
Who claim that it's a boring day
Because they can't do anything
Well I've got something to say
Maybe a new thought to you
This comes as a shock
But weather has feelings too
The weather gets sad too
Just like humans
That's why it rains
They're tears coming down
A comparison would be
That for it to be sunny all the time
Would mean for us
That we have to be happy all the time
That rarely happens
For humans or weather
We just have to run emotions
Because that keeps us healthy
So next time it rains
Just remember this
Let weather run its course
It's just natural
A rainy day is a time to relax
Take advantage of it
Now if you'll excuse me
I'm going back to my outdoor symphony
May 24, 2010
May 24, 2010 at 9:49 AM UTC
I stare out the window
And watch
As the trees, sky, clouds
Go passing by
And I long so much
To sit
Out underneath the wide,
Never ending sky
To let the white,
Jet puffed marshmallow clouds
Drift over my head
At their own pace
The fresh air
Gently sweeping over the area
Blowing through my hair
Like a wild mustang
When it runs
The pictures I take
Don’t come close
To capturing the real beauty
But it’s better than nothing
As I sit here in the backseat
With my family
And even though I am similar
I am completely different
So for now, I just ride
Thoughts fly free
Inside my head
The open spaces I see
Are just through the window.
May 15, 2010
May 15, 2010 at 6:51 PM UTC