They say a mother’s love is the best love,
But what’s the best love when she doesn’t show you love?
Because when you make a mistake she doesn’t want a thing to do with you.
That’s when you seek love in other things,
Drugs, alcohol, boys, people that don’t want you.
You slowly change into a person that you know she won’t like,
You start lying to her and to yourself
Because no matter what, you are still that little kindergartner
swinging on the swing set with a juice pouch in her hands
Pony tails in hair while you giggle about something silly.
But now when you giggle, you are too high to know what you giggling about.
Instead of having a juice pouch in your hands, you have shot of *****
You start smiling less and start crying more
You aren’t the person you were meant to be,
You are the person you promised you’d never be…
May 31, 2017
May 31, 2017 at 7:12 PM UTC
His kisses are my drugs
He is my dealer
The last time I had my drug was two weeks ago
And I’m addicted
I need it
I can’t think straight without it
How am I supposed to get my drug without my dealer?
He says he doesn’t know if he wants me
But I need him
He keeps me sane
He gives me a high that no one else can
His kisses are my drug
And I’m about to go through major withdrawal without it
without him
~J.O
Aug 2, 2016
Aug 2, 2016 at 2:20 PM UTC
You are like a bad case of the flu
but sadly I do not want to get rid of you
~J.O
Aug 2, 2016
Aug 2, 2016 at 12:41 PM UTC
I wrote your name on my heart
With a blade that was oh so shape
Bleeding with each letter I carve
My heart is hungry for you, it’s about to starve
Please don’t think I have forgotten about you
You are never off my mind
I wish I still had your heart
And I want you to know you will always have mine
~J.O.
Jul 31, 2016
Jul 31, 2016 at 4:18 PM UTC
Hate.
Love.
Both with two syllables
Both with such strong means
“I love you” “I hate you”
They can both be said by the same person
Which one hurts more?
When they say “I love you” how can you believe it?
When they say “I hate you” how can you not believe it?
Both of these four letter words can break people
Four letters.
Two vowels
Two consonants.
Love.
Hate.
~J.O
Jul 31, 2016
Jul 31, 2016 at 3:57 PM UTC
There is always gonna be that one person
they break your heart, make you cry, make you hurt
but you know that underneath all the pain,
there is the love, the happy memories, the I love yous
he could drop your heart
and break it into a thousand pieces,
but you would still pick up all the pieces
and put them back in his hands.
The guy that showed you what love is.
The guy that showed you what heart break is.
The guy that you will love forever.
Your first love
~J.O
Jul 29, 2016
Jul 29, 2016 at 12:34 PM UTC
It Hurts
It hurts knowing
it will never be the same
having to see you
with someone else
acting like it doesn't cause me pain
seeing you laughing
having a good time
while i wonder
why i can't call you mine
while my eyes are filled with tears
and i can only see blurry
i take a deep breath
and tell myself not to worry
because deep down i know what's true
i am still deeply in love with you
~J.O
Jul 28, 2016
Jul 28, 2016 at 10:04 PM UTC
Forgive me for liking you too much,
and I’ll forgive you for not liking me enough.
Forgive me for the loud racing heartbeats of my heart,
and I’ll forgive you for not hearing it.
Forgive me for finding you amazing,
and I’ll forgive you for never noticing me.
Forgive me for wanting to be with you more than anything,
and I’ll forgive you for avoiding me.
Forgive me for being so pathetic,
and I’ll forgive you for taking advantage of it.
Forgive me for not being able to let go of you,
and I’ll forgive you for never holding on to me.
Jul 15, 2016
Jul 15, 2016 at 7:33 AM UTC