jazleigh-walker
American
I love to write. I've been writing for years but I still consider myself an ametuer. I just want my writing to touch someone in some way, whether it be because they felt the same, it helped or encouraged them in some way or they just really loved the message. If you are one of those people I would love to hear what you have to say. Constructive criticism is definitely welcome. Enjoy!
I feel trapped but if I break free then I'm only running
Away from the issue just avoiding and hiding
Is it better to run and hide or stay locked in a cage
How do I escape when the cage is my brain
Oh how I hate being stuck between a rock and a hard place
More questions than answers is what I'm left with always
So frustrated with me
Though we are the only ones who can solve the mystery
By we I mean me myself and I
Steady searching for the courage to come into the light
The light I can can only seem to dream about
I know what it will take but still I scream and shout
About ******** because I'm so full of it
Full of all this fear and doubt
No amount of self help or advice seems to work it out
Only tears escape as they drip down
Caught in the crevices of my perpetual frown
Smile! They say it's so becoming of you
How can I smile with your ugly mug in my view
So sue me I'm mean and bitter cuz I'm tired of being sweet
All that seems to get me is under everybody's feet
Feelings ain't all they cracked up to be
Maybe it really is better to only live for me
Aug 23, 2016
Aug 23, 2016 at 1:14 AM UTC
She sits in ashes
Too entranced with green gases
Puffin plentiful clouds down through the chimney of her nose
Up in the clouds, the ground too far down below
To notice the trail of ashes left, as she tries to pass it
But wait
Oh
There's no place for it to go
So she blows more O's
Up and up she goes
Till she's blown off her ***
Enjoying the ride as her mind bends back
Time
It rewinds past her present loneliness
Finding the blurred memory of sweet forehead kisses
Back when her wishes actually did come true
Before reality had her falling so hard, she lost a shoe
It was never found
The prince never tried to
So now green cinders ash down on combat boots
May 8, 2016
May 8, 2016 at 9:04 PM UTC
I didn't fall blindly
I was minding my own business actually
I just wanted to admire the view
Then the earth crumpled beneath my feet
There was nothing I could do
It was a long way down so I had time
I was able to take it all in with peace
I could clearly see I would never be in his story
Or maybe I would have one line while he was most of mine
They say i could do much better which I do believe
Yet gravity gives no ***** about my feelings
I see him peeking over the edge
He breathes a sigh of relief, he knows he is blessed...
Feb 15, 2016
Feb 15, 2016 at 6:06 PM UTC
I pray you please forgive my perpetual sin
It seems the world has lured me in once again
Enfolded in the societal fallacy of fomophobia
The fear of missing out has me drifting further from utopia
Reaching for the shores of perfect peace as I sink in a sea of temptation
I've been kicking, swimming against the waves only to end further from salvation
The struggle is real or so we perceive it to be
Yet I seek to grasp hold of a whole new mentality
One in which we comprehend that the light eludes because we refuse to look up
Stuck because the more we fight the more the waters become rough
I pray you enlighten us to give it up to you when we've had enough
I pray our eyes stay fixed on your light so we may rise above the troubles, kept afloat by your grace and love
Jan 16, 2016
Jan 16, 2016 at 4:20 AM UTC
I've discovered a plug to fill the hole
A refill for the parts of my heart you stole
A mirage in the darkness but it's someplace to go
No longer lost in searching for feelings you'll never show
Evolution has enlightened me to infinite possibilites
Unfortunately you seem content with such childish mentality
In reality we're probably just on different levels of insanity
Yet these dreams seem to have me on a whole new frequency
So I've tied up my love and cast it to the waves
Forever was never meant to be our fate
I'll cherish what it was and wasn't forever and always
My dreams have beamed you into my past as I stride toward better days
Dec 23, 2015
Dec 23, 2015 at 11:56 PM UTC
I want to sing every love song to you
Somehow they all seem to convey the truth
Such sweet soliloquies never to be said by me
I'll expose what is real through thin veils of melody
The more real the more will to run in fear
Never ready to accept that change is near
Shut down mode triggered by what you feel
Yet I bet such smooth sounds will melt down that steel
Sealed away as it should be, as most treasures are
I'll forever contend to win the chance to hold your heart
Dec 23, 2015
Dec 23, 2015 at 11:49 PM UTC
A shout in the void, a light in a dark place
More elusive than time, more vast than space
Deeper than the thousands of leagues, past the ocean floor
Taller than the steps that lead to heaven's door
Extraordinary I shall be in any shape or form
From the pages of time shall my name never be torn
Wether that be in the hearts of millions or just one
I will be something great before it's all said and done
Before my name is called and my earthly light burns out
I must be something, do something, know something that stands out
It could be the secrets of the universe or to know the embrace of true love
I seek all that lay beyond the imagined, past what you could ever think of
To have my breath taken away, stolen by all that is great
To have a lifetimes of such moments is a fate I'll forever chase
Dec 23, 2015
Dec 23, 2015 at 11:43 PM UTC
Twisted sheets, mind on stutter
Unable to sort through this midnight clutter
Put it away for tomorrow
But what to do with my gnawing sorrow?
I circle soft blue on color book pages
Hoping the repetition eventually assuages
The raw edged reality of lonely dark hours
Filling the void with Crayola flowers
Sep 13, 2015
Sep 13, 2015 at 10:17 PM UTC
I look up to rolling clouds so depressing and dark
I look out this window that sets us apart
Away from a world I wish to be in
Instead I'm trapped here with you again
I'm trapped in these walls of this house with you
I need to be outside so I can break through
Away from your disappointment anger and fear
So much negativity makes my vision unclear
Now I can't see my bright future, just your angry eyes
Nowhere to hide in this home that can't be mine
Caged in from the world under all this pressure and hurt
You should be the one to make it better not worse
Nothing I do will ever please you I see
So I must depart so that I can live for me
Jul 2, 2015
Jul 2, 2015 at 10:03 PM UTC
I've lived in the world long enough to know
That my belief in God is the best way to go
I would much rather worship a supernatural symbol of love than anything this world has to offer
My alternative is people or money or drugs all of which lead to disaster
Whatever thing you cling to is the very thing that will break you
Loving God is letting go and knowing you will make it through
Though no deed of my own for I am not the Divine
Yet to be apart of such royalty means I must shine
You may say I'm a fool for believing in something I cannot see
I would much rather be a fool for God than anything in this reality
So sue me for believing in goodness and happily ever after and thrones and kings
I pray for those who chose to have nothing in which to believe
For to be fooled by such finite things is the real tragedy
Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 11:52 PM UTC