What do I do,
While sitting next to you,
And my eyes slowly trace your lips.
How do I speak,
For this week after week,
When you stay outside my grips
How do you see,
Stupid little old me,
clumsily covering my feelings for you.
Because when I see your smile,
And my mind runs a mile,
I'm just not sure what to do.
Im not the one you want,
I dont think you mean to taunt,
It just hurts that you arent with me..
Apr 1, 2020
Apr 1, 2020 at 11:41 PM UTC
Depression is a *****
She leaves you in a stitch,
Wondering why you're sad and why you're stuck down in a ditch
**** I meant a rut,
Gheez is she a ****
Looking in the mirror got me feeling like a mut,
I couldn't see it clearer,
I hope she loves me dearer,
Such an intoxicating smell, this addictions why I fear her.
Mar 16, 2020
Mar 16, 2020 at 9:12 PM UTC
I'm sorry I missed my chance,
It was all too fresh,
The only thing fresh nows regret,
It's a shame we had to change stance.
I got burnt twice,
Both I chose,
To be with
And be without.
I'm waiting for a change,
When it comes back round,
Maybe it never will.
I've dealt with it all before,
But it's still so raw.
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 4:57 PM UTC
How do I start,
What words do I use?
Can I say love?
But what does that mean,
Trust beyond doubt,
Something I never knew about,
Until it came to you.
Is this all one big crush?
But I don't judge you superficially,
Your beautiful but that's not all,
But maybe it's why I wanted you initially.
I have no words for you,
You aren't perfect,
And no matter how much you say,
You aren't always correct.
But you're always on my mind,
Because the right words I can't find.
You're my conundrum.
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 10:01 AM UTC
I've fallen from grace,
I'm not in the right head space,
Too long I've been falling apart,
Don't even know where to start,
I can only tell you part by part.
Let's start with this,
I can't stand being sober,
I wish I could start it over,
It's not something I'd miss,
The sweet moments of bliss.
The most confusing year of my life just passed,
I drowned the downers with uppers,
And when it was on the up I was the downer.
Just another reason to forget.
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 11:24 AM UTC
There's so much pain,
In all of us.
I'll give you a gift,
I'll get rid of some of it,
Starting with me.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 5:56 PM UTC
I guess I missed it,
The only chance I had.
Now I'm stuck in a pit.
I hope you and him live happily,
But our memories I'll always keep.
I keep waking up wanting to go back to sleep,
The dreams are no better,
Your on my mind always
But life passes quicker this way.
I've been searching for anything to fill this hole in my chest,
Now's the time to move on to the next,
But i can't.
Depressions my mistress now,
I go to her when no ones there,
Her arms wrapped around me,
Tight.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 5:37 PM UTC
With a single look,
You took my breath away
But it didn't work,
I'm still breathing
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 5:01 PM UTC
Nothing helps,
I want to die.
Maybe it's time for goodbye.
Jun 14, 2018
Jun 14, 2018 at 7:31 AM UTC
She's the best. She deserves better than this ******** So let her go.
Life doesn't work like that,
And I don't work like that.
She's my angel, that will never change.
It's a thing you never witnessed,
You're independent, it's all you knew.
After all, it's all you've seen,
Could we have worked? Always.
And if you ever decided you wanted it again,
I'll want it too.
In fact. I want you to.
I'm crying my eyes out,
And it's worse that I know why
But I don't have anyone to dry my eyes.
Jun 10, 2018
Jun 10, 2018 at 1:19 PM UTC