The sky amidst
I think of those I miss
Even a day could change
Things we never thought age
I think of us
Sitting on the bus
I will change for us
Why am I holding a dry husk
Of the people I fought for
Some not anymore
Some are ropes
I pull no hopes
I would go back
My mind playbacks
I walk on empty shells
My heart aches as hell
You people are here
But can you hear
My thoughts that linger
Maybe you no longer tingle
The rain still patters
I am in fetters
The sky hangs amiss
I wonder about those I miss
Dec 3, 2020
Dec 3, 2020 at 9:54 AM UTC
I’m so useless
All out of tears
Just wanna lay here
With no one near
I have so much fears
Crippling up in jeers
“Not good enough” is all I hear
My own thoughts I fear
Feb 17, 2020
Feb 17, 2020 at 10:05 AM UTC
I’m afraid I’ve fallen in love
The idea of company sounds great
Family, friends, soulmates
I love the silence
Now some chatter feels good
I’ve changed
I long for company
Sep 10, 2019
Sep 10, 2019 at 4:47 AM UTC
If there was one word
One word, isolated by itself
That I cannot stand above all others
It would have to be "Okay"
I despise "Okay"
"Okay"
Is how your millionth day at work went
"Okay"
Is off-brand raisin bran
"Okay"
Is how you say life is going
When you don't want to admit you spend
Every second of it
Wanting to die
"Okay"
Is packed to the brim with
Hidden implications
Like a treasure chest
Filled with bottles
With little subliminal hatreds
Written on tiny slips of paper
Passively aggressively pushed inside
To discover later
As I pull out a treasure map
And try to decipher
Where I went wrong
"Okay"
Is a one word dismissal
That feels like an essay a thousand pages long
"Okay"
Is a poison dripping with disinterest
When I dared to share with you
Something I thought might make you smile
"Okay"
Is like trying to talk to a wall
While watching the paint on it dry
"Okay"
Takes two seconds to write
Yet I waited days
For that dreaded word
To grace my notifications
"Okay"
Should be used sparingly
As if each time you send it
You **** the receiver just a little bit
"Okay"
Should not be said so often that
I know what you're about to say
Like I saw it in a crystal ball
"Okay"
Is not looking up from your phone
When I tell you about my day
"Okay"
Is not the proper response
To "I love you"
They say that the opposite of love isn't hatred
It's indifference
And I can't think of a response
More indifferent to pouring out
My heart into your hands
Than "Okay"
At least the last thing you said to me
Before we parted ways
Showed that you cared
At least a little bit
"I hate you"
Stung less
Than the thousands of times
Over our countless conversations
You responded
"Okay"
Okay?
Feb 23, 2019
Feb 23, 2019 at 4:13 AM UTC
The hurting tree writhes
See the ivy all around
Its mistakes they bind
You may not see as I do
There is life if you look close
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 12:02 AM UTC
And I want to tell
I just have to yell
That I’m blessed beyond words
Despite fighting with swords
It’s okay now don’t bail (bell)
Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 11:37 AM UTC
If I speak my mind
I unleash my inner thoughts
You must promise not to get angry
If I do not
I cease to be myself
You are content
If I speak up
I unleash the demons that whisper to our thoughts
You must learn to silent yours
If I do not
I cease to understand you
You fail to connect my mind
(now read it bottom-up/replace ‘you’ with ‘I’)
Apr 22, 2018
Apr 22, 2018 at 9:27 AM UTC
I was fire, you were ice
You said you'd never crack
I'd like to think you did
Under the flames o' mine
We thought we'd reached equilibrium
Until things got uncomfortable
Fiery as I, bitter as you
We summon blows
I am fire, you are ice
People say opposites attract
We thought the same
Yet we never saw each other again
Mar 26, 2018
Mar 26, 2018 at 5:16 AM UTC