Cotton candy clouds
Fill my throat with cement
I want to be the moon
I'd like to be somewhere else
When birds sing into my window
I float in an ocean of sheets
I would drown in them if I could
Alone alone alone
When the day becomes golden
I wish I could love it for myself
I'd hide it from the world
Alone alone alone
When dark streaks of clouds illuminate
And the streets becomes calm
I'd like to be as smooth as the warmness in the breeze
I wish I was the moon
I'd like to be somewhere else
If I could bury me down into the earth
If my toes became roots
My arms, strong branches
My soul would not be still
I would fly into the godly skies
Clouds of yellow, gold and rays of light
And I would compress this all
With my two bare hands
Alone alone alone
Mar 12, 2017
Mar 12, 2017 at 3:50 PM UTC
I am caged
I am weak
When I am with you
And when I miss you
Lonely as ever
Clinging together
I'll kiss you then cry
And you'll ask me why
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 10:41 PM UTC
I felt it the other night when I laid
2:58 and my mind felt awake
I felt eyes around my head
And eyes around my bed
And there was indeed a heavy dark weight
It laid on my back and sat satisfied
And I felt for once empty and hollow inside
And I think it must have been all the heaviness that had settled deep within
That decided to come out but still somehow clung to my skin
Dec 13, 2016
Dec 13, 2016 at 10:41 PM UTC
I remember once
I laid needing for you
Waiting to hear the steps
And I waited
And I had given up
The door squeaked and you peeked your head through
And whispered innocently
"Can I sleep here with you?"
And that was a joy I had never felt in my life
I thought it was a sign, I thought truly it was right
And of course he gives me comfort
He fills my time with bliss
I will love him with every word and every kiss
But I have yet to feel another joy in that way
And I had once dreamt of you in the night and through the day
And so it humbles my heart to say
I often wish we talked
Dec 12, 2016
Dec 12, 2016 at 7:10 PM UTC
I felt it the other night when I laid
2:58 and my mind felt awake
I felt eyes around my head
And eyes around my bed
And there was indeed a heavy dark weight
It laid on my back and sat satisfied
And I felt for once empty and hollow inside
And I think it must have been all the heaviness that had settled deep within
That decided to come out but still somehow clung to my skin
Dec 12, 2016
Dec 12, 2016 at 7:04 PM UTC
The days are dull
Dull and dim
Floating unimpressed with tired bloodshot eyes
The nights can be better
Although they're usually aided
And medicated
And I see ghosts everywhere
People who I knew
Who I have loved and lost
Linger in my atmosphere, very present
But their presence is no longer for me
The Autumn sky was setting
Rubbing its beauty into my face
Whimsical and mystical
Blue and pink and I was gray
And I see people everyday
Stuck in their humanistic ways
One track mind set, living their lives away
And they are fine and I am gray
Dec 12, 2016
Dec 12, 2016 at 7:03 PM UTC
There was a time not long ago
When the air was hot and free
When my world was full
And flurished with simplicity
Tell me where my heart went
It left when the days became shorter
Maybe it is because I shed my skin
Maybe it is because I am older
Had it left with my morals?
Back when I truly believed?
Has *** pills joints and tabs
Made me less or more niave?
Tell me where my heart went
It ran when my eyes began seeing
I let it slip right through my fingers
And I mourn with every fiber in my being
The moon has lost its inspiration
But the nights still keep me up
- And I say to others and myself
Just let me live
I just want to live
Dec 12, 2016
Dec 12, 2016 at 7:02 PM UTC
something strange happens in my head
a worm that digs thought deep
deeper, twisted thoughts that I dread
I live for all of your faces
the ones that only I see
then I imagine all your faces
for a girl other than me
and I want to apologize
for this and for that
my mind is toxic, the worm is sick and
I know you love me
I know it's true
but I want to apologize
for being the one who tied you
Nov 22, 2016
Nov 22, 2016 at 9:11 PM UTC
A feeling of failure fell over her shoulders as the medicine went down. It went away as quickly as it came when all that needed to matter didn't need to matter
right away
Ignorance is bliss for those who don't see, and if they saw
what a dissapointing sight that would be
Unapologetic
As long as no one was around
Pathetic
Let the medicine go down.
A feeling of failure fell over her shoulders as she saw her future like
steps
below her
feet
One by one Your day will come Just follow your dreams
Dreams of success so sweet
"the day will come for me"
Her body like fluff in the chair
Then a familiar comfort of mindless bliss caressed her everything
E a s y
So she didn't need to care
Nov 22, 2016
Nov 22, 2016 at 8:54 PM UTC
You said my eyes were blue pearls
You hated seeing them cry
So often I needed to leave
And you always needed to try
You loved that I was the only one
Who would never leave your side
And I truly thought you'd love me
Wasting time with hazy minds
Nov 5, 2016
Nov 5, 2016 at 6:12 PM UTC