*in the deepest and utmost corner of my heart
the pain is being hidden*
*and on the outside
you will witness
my sweetest smile*
*if only
you will catch a glimpse
behind those eyes
is the loneliness that being kept*
*if only
you will stop and stare for awhile
you will find out
that i am in despair*
*i was wondering
if the saying*
"in the eyes you will see the real feelings of a person"
is true
because why can't you see?
that i am
alone
crying
and
dying
inside?
©IGMS
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 6:56 AM UTC
You don't speak much
but your eyes says it all
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 6:50 AM UTC
Speechless
thoughts inside my head
slowly killing me
creeping me out
memories came rushing
I'm shaking my head
forgetting everything
the pain and suffering
that doesn't end
how long before I realize
this was all but a daydream
you weren't for me
and I wasn't for you
tears came down
then I thought
I won't lose you
I'm shutting my thoughts
-J. L
Oct 30, 2015
Oct 30, 2015 at 1:26 AM UTC
We met in the hallway
like moments fleeting
to catch a glimpse of you
how can I not miss you
your hands I wanna hold tight
and never let go to soon
now I can smell your perfume
your chest I wanted to hug tight
until I cannot breathe
Believe me, I miss you
in every heartbeat and in every second
you're my caffeine, you're my addiction
- J. L
Oct 28, 2015
Oct 28, 2015 at 4:19 AM UTC
*
Heart is blind without the mind to imagine
Yet the Heart is alive and it beats that speaks our soul
Heart does not function alone
But it's the Center of it all.
Our mind unites the five senses*
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*The mind process what it hears
The mind creates what it sees
The mind evaluates what it smells
The mind appraises what it tastes
The mind senses whatever the body touches
The mind is only a machine without its core.*
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*Heart and Mind connect
Because it's the most important to protect
It's a bond that is part of us ever since we were born*
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* It beats our fear
It beats our pain
It beats our sorrow
Our heart is our soul It beats our excitement
Where emotions are stored It beats our pleasure
It beats our passion
It beats our love*
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*It speaks in silence
The mind only speaks what the heart tells
They communicate with a language that is unknown
The mind is neither good nor evil
But the heart is capable of being good or evil
The heart is capable of anything that speaks our nature
Even if your heart is dark as the darkest night
Another heart will give flame to start a light
A flame that will serve as light in your darkest night*
Oct 20, 2015
Oct 20, 2015 at 10:02 PM UTC
I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
Oct 20, 2015
Oct 20, 2015 at 9:29 PM UTC
01:52 am
have you ever asked yourself like why you so lonely?
01:53 am
or empty?
that maybe you give too much of your essence to people and never leave any of you for yourself
01:55 am
i know i do
02:05 am
and like that's maybe why i get so attached to humans
*because in them,
i find myself*
02:07 am
i need to change, because things shouldn't be this way
02:10 am
but it's hard sometimes you know, when most days you don't leave the house because you feel unworthy of the space you take up
02:16 am
so you'd much rather disintegrate into soil because you've become all too familiar with people stepping over you and admiring the outcome of your beauty but never the roots of your pain
02:19 am
i spend so much effort watering people in order for them to grow and hardly get enough sun shine to feed my own soul
02:25 am
because i don't know how to do anything else but care for everyone but myself
Oct 18, 2015
Oct 18, 2015 at 10:48 PM UTC
You have to feel the hurt
cos it's the only way to know
if you can love someone
despite the pain
You have to feel the loss
cos it's the only way to know
if you can be with anyone
despite the desolation
You have to feel the betrayal
cos it's the only way to know
if you can trust someone
despite the lies
You have to feel everything
cos it's the only way to know
if you can continue
despite them
- J. L
Oct 11, 2015
Oct 11, 2015 at 11:02 PM UTC
She saw him
she was speechless
she can't even move
then the world stops
his lips on her forehead
an unexpected moment
so genuine, so real
he hugged her so tight
saying she's only mine
then in that second
he whispered words
her soul and heart forgave
- J. L
Oct 11, 2015
Oct 11, 2015 at 11:00 PM UTC
If only there could have been
some type of an in-between
That could take me for awhile
to a world that I've never seen
It's not that I want to come
It's just I don't want to go
It's not that I want a high
It's just I don't want a low
I don't want myself without
But I don't want myself within
I don't want to commit to good
But I don't want to commit to sin
It's not that I want to win
It's just I don't want to lose
It's not that I want a mystery
It's just I don't want the clues
I don't want to say hello
But I don't want to say goodbye
I don't want myself to live
But I don't want myself to die
If only there could have been
some type of an in-between
That could take me for awhile
to a world that I've never seen
©
Oct 9, 2015
Oct 9, 2015 at 2:03 AM UTC