Forgive me... for I know not what I do...
Believe me... for my heart tell the truth...
I've been lost in my mind... unable to escape...
I've been searching for freedom... reliving my mistakes...
Let go of the past... And move on twice as strong...
Have faith in yourself... It won't be too long...
I'll find my way to help... My way to live on...
I'll find my way... before it's gone.
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:56 PM UTC
Her hands shake
Her heart stops
Her breathe ceases
What has she done?
She slides to the floor
Covered in darkness
Cursing the night...
How could this happen?
She watched the blood
...her blood
Fall from her wrist
What's going on?
She begins to cry
She can't believe...
Her mind goes blank
How could she have lost control?
She's surrounded by lies
That she has told herself
She pick's herself up
What can she do?
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:54 PM UTC
She pulls back
Unable to handle her fear
Her body shakes
As she stand her ground
"I won't be bullied"
"I won't be hurt"
Her mind is set
Her heart can't change
She's tired of fighting
...of losing
A single tear
Is her only regret
As it rolls down her cheek
She knows she is weak
But her heart can't change
She's hurt too long
She'd had enough
How could she handle it again?
She won't...
No more lies!
No more pain!
It's his turn.
She's doesn't want to
But she knows she must
Her heart can't change
She can't give up
She can't let him win
He won't...
She's determined to be strong
"Don't let him decide for me"
Her mind says...
"Don't let me change"
She looks in his eyes
And begins to break
"NO!"
Her heart screams...
"It's not too late!"
She stares him down
And begins to speak
Her voice barely trembles
Her heart is firm
He stares silently
As he listens to her words.
She did love him...
But she had hurt too much...
She couldn't stay with him...
Her heart can't change.
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:53 PM UTC
Unable to fully accept this defeat
Afraid to give in
And see the conceit
Written across everyone's face
They knew what would happen
They had foreseen my fate
They saw what had been blind to me
And now to give in
Is not what I need
I played the fool as I poured myself out
I relished in the lies
Without the slightest doubt
But they knew and I was warned
I did not heed their thoughts
I deflected the negativity
It was not what I sought
So its my fault, yes
I unfortunately admit
But it's still hard to give in
And impossible to forget
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:51 PM UTC
I think it's unfair
How you treat me however you like
You arrogance astounds me
Your compassion is lost
My loyalty is a token of my tainted addiction
I look at you and lust
But I cannot submit
I will not hide
Your power will not defeat me
You created my curiosity
That fueled my obsession
I was hooked
But I'll no longer lower myself to you
Your dignified manner -
Your esteemed ego -
Will no longer fool me
This separation is necessary
This isolation is permanent
I cannot continue
So I won't
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:50 PM UTC
Breathless as your lips touch mine
And falling...
I'm too wrapped up in everything
I'm drowning
(In your eyes)
In your touch...
Your gaze stops me and I'm trapped
I can't keep going
And yet I can't back away
I can't stop
You grab my hand
And pull me closer
And I'm falling again
Down into your eyes
Away from reality
I'm trying to run away
Trying to escape
But I'm caught
As you pull me forward
A silence envelopes my mind
And I forget what I should do
And I fall.
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:50 PM UTC
I wish to be emotionless
To just forget I care
I no longer want to feel -
It hurts.
I want to move forward
Why can't I get away?
Can someone just remove -
This pain?
I'm alone inside my head
Escape is just a dream
I cringe as my hopes and dreams -
Spill out.
I try and gather all my courage
But instead I run and hide
Scared of confrontation
My emotions are too high
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:49 PM UTC
I lay myself beside you
In hopes to feel complete
I want to feel whole again
So I use you
But of course it did not work
My emptiness expanded
And my hole grew deeper
You could not fulfill my need
You didn't want to
You used me as I used you
And we're both lost
We're searching for something
That no one can give
I just wish I could find it
- In you.
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:48 PM UTC
Push me
Guide me
Like me
Know me
Want me
Need me
Tell me
Show me
Trust me
Hold me
Hide me
Feel me
Bind me
Find me
Crave me
Have me
Believe me
Protect me
Surround me
Follow me
Control me
Respect me
Fight me
Love me...
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:48 PM UTC
Fire. Passion. Heat.
Betrayal.
Wisdom. Knowledge. Hope.
Failure.
Courage. Loyalty. Faith.
Deceit.
Caring. Strength. Trust.
Lies.
Believe. Support. Love.
Denial.
Sweet. Secure. Innocence.
Gone.
Warmth. Surrounded. Safe.
Anger.
Smooth. Shaking. Excitement.
Ruined.
Soft. Kind. Heart.
Broken.
Sep 18, 2010
Sep 18, 2010 at 10:47 PM UTC