screams fall from above driving my horrified soul deep
crawling into a crumbled bleeding heap
sewing my eyes shut to **** the crimson rivers
while the world grew out of ghostly shivers
the sinking and stinking stench of our race
we've all fallen from heavenly grace
with sprees of murders given cheers
as the few good quiver behind the salty tears
the great longing of all faded times
bubble out from the cries of our crimes
clutching at dirt to glance at sanity
yet the evil wash in their vanity
as hands now melt into prays of escape
take our souls from this hellish landscape
i cast out all shapes of this mass death
now give me one cleansing breath
Apr 12, 2014
Apr 12, 2014 at 5:24 AM UTC
Anger fills my visions now
Bottled with such a hate
That i plod along somehow
Yet this life's my debate
With scars of pain that hideaway
And lies which hold you at length
So you're ruined words are grey
Now i try to pull together a strength
To carry on with these days
Oh the dark of deep thought
Carry me away like always
With slashes of skin so taut
My failings as a mortal soul
Surely i belong to the world below
My heart rarely ever whole
Now this body melts like falling snow
I feel the traps close shut
And these nails hammered tight
Struggle my body does not to bleed form that cut
Begging for the rise of deadly delight
Apr 10, 2014
Apr 10, 2014 at 7:08 AM UTC
When times of solace and hardship strike I fall into you
My cells depend upon your destroying glue
The motions of sharpened steel
I hope most will never begin to heal
Breaking down as my words bleed free
I shall not make it another year I decree
Droplets swell upon my cheeks
As I lay motionless for so many weeks
Life becomes so black I know my mind shall fall into an alleyway of crap
Longing for that day my silly neck will snap
Begging for my end I lose all sense of light
And give up my dwindling need to fight
The need to scream all my pains away come
But my broken mind knows the deadly outcome
So bubbling deep in my gut I feel my death
Yet i can't leave the thoughts of this last breath
I give in to my ending thought now
Time to go and I don't care how.
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 9, 2014 at 6:19 PM UTC
The untold truths of my hurting mind burst out as lines on skin
why is the destroying of myself is my one escape
oh how i wish these were just the imaginings of a old has been
however thats not the case here as my minds bend all out of shape
my internal screams long to have freedom of the air waves
the sprints my devastating thoughts are an ever growing force
after all my soul wishes it was just one of the many visible graves
yet these expanding lines of my deadly summanings so no remorse
burning am i and all that runs in my system for the final breath
scraping and digging at my flesh i burst with a vision
i'm at my point of entering the gates of death
oh this is my very final decision
Apr 6, 2014
Apr 6, 2014 at 8:34 PM UTC
A great wave of pain and love sweep my mind
with thoughts of you comes a crushing pain in my hate of all mankind
streams of liquid crimson flow now
with blades scraping the skin as if a field been set to plow
in a rush of joy your face leaps out of view
yet your taste lingers like a crisp morning dew
darker grows my punished lost soul
knowing it shan't be long till i lose self-control
i'd have you back but has enough gone past
all hate that has gone as our love shall be the one to out last
so why can't you face me and talk
why did we have to fight and take that charging walk
Apr 6, 2014
Apr 6, 2014 at 6:10 PM UTC
These longing days of my deadly worries
Smash together as if a hammer bringing me to my knees
So scared of my eyelids drawing closed for fear of death
Makes this tormented soul shiver like i'm about to have the last big gasps of breath
The only restful break from the relentless crashing of waves of hate
Are the strikes of bitter metal bring up a hurtful debate
The dripping of my glowing crimson is peaceful
Brings my dark self to the thought lets make the rope be lethal
My short life told in a format of millions of self painted scars
Yet my last vision in this life is of you in the stars
Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 10:25 PM UTC
The flutter and motion of my been nervous
Do my beating chambers a heavenly service
I have the greatest of hopes and dreams for our possibilities
Together their shall be no ends to our abilities
You hold my every waking thoughts leaving a fixed grin
Longing for you puts my whole body in a spin
Just one second with you feels like a year
Yet you have my heart rushing into a blur
The forever thats us is the greatest of budding stories
A single one of your smiles fills my soul with a loving glory
With you I know all my fears are no more as you'll get me through
All the beauty on the earth reminds me of only you
You make all that is dark about my soul seem no longer complex
You're all i want and need from the mystery that is the female ***
I feel the blossoming of our infinite starting to burn bright
Now I've got you my life shall forever be a delight
Jan 11, 2014
Jan 11, 2014 at 3:44 PM UTC
as them massed letter of yours gather
oh how much i wish they were like before not filled with a hateful lather
the removing of your reminders from the grey wall
brings that freedom to perform acts with release my crimson as if part of winter fall
this self loathing pain in my bleak chamber of dark regret
i know im losing your love as if it was a bet
all because i suffer alone in the bleeding rain
while you have loyal friends who make you feel no pain
yet my dark thoughts turn to the ending play
foreclosing all like a short miserable winters day
Dec 6, 2013
Dec 6, 2013 at 9:05 PM UTC
The words that shape liquid flood from ducts
Yet this lonely just shouts and conducts
That aggressive fear of self imploding hate
Maybe these forming shapes are my fate
My truth of hate and self inflicting harm
Are just scaring my hidden charm
No amount of hours reflecting shall wash them tears
Why do i no longer understand my fears
I beg for it to end and disappear of good
So why is it death is my only likelihood
That taste of my crimson filling my guilt
I wait for someone to have my heart rebuilt
Oct 8, 2013
Oct 8, 2013 at 4:14 PM UTC
I can't help but feel nothing at all,
These feelings and thoughts make skin crawl.
The dread of opening eyelids everyday,
I can't help tell my fears as I pray.
All I feel is numbness till steel strikes,
Splitting me open to self reflecting honesty of dislike.
Flowing crimson brings a rare joy to my soul,
Making this opened body beg to be whole.
It's my hate that grows in this head,
Bringing that longing need to be lost in the world of the dead.
The strands of massed hemp roll around my neck in day dreams,
All that stops is the haunting fear their won't be salty streams.
Oct 3, 2013
Oct 3, 2013 at 6:28 PM UTC