I'm standing on the edge
My toes hanging off the side
The wind blows sweetly
Rustling my hair
And relaxing me
Causing me to lean towards the void
All around me
I hear his voice whispering
"You're beautiful" and
"I'll always be there for you"
I close my eyes
And I can feel his hand in mine
And his arms wrapped around me
Then my head is filled with memories
Of his lips
Pressed against mine
In the softest manner
And then
I'm
Falling
I've fallen in love with him
And it's the most exuberant feeling
The air rushes around me
And makes me lightheaded
It's like I'm flying
And nothing can stop me
All I hear is his voice
Telling me I'm the only one for him
Then...
He
Leaves
I hit the ground
Which seems to materialize underneath me
And for months I lay there
Broken
Hurt
And crying
People try to help me up
But I don't let them
All I can think of
Is him
How could he make me fall for him
When he had no intention
Of catching me
Then you come along
You mend my brokenness
And help me to my feet
And before I know it
I'm on top of the building again
And yet again
The wind blows
Trying to push me off the edge
But this time
I brace myself
I don't want to fall
And get hurt
A second time
I try to back away from the edge
But something stops me
I hear your voice
Calling to me from below
"I will never break your heart
I swear"
Slowly
I move towards the side of the building
I picture the times we've talked for hours
The times you've held me when I cried
The times you stuck by my side
When no one else would
"I'll never hurt you like he did"
You whisper this in my ear
As I drift off to sleep one night
I never remembered until now
And Then
I Fall..
May 4, 2017
May 4, 2017 at 2:40 PM UTC
They say that home is where the heart is.
But what if my heart doesn't feel at home anywhere?
How am I to feel?
When all I feel is empty.
I felt half full once..
But now all I feel is empty.
I want to scream out..
"CAN YOU HEAR ME?"
But what I hear in return is my own echo.
beyond the emptiness.
People get their hearts broke
Their hopes shattered..
Their regrets eat them alive.
To live to be empty.
I was born,raised, half grown.
They tell me that I still have a long road ahead.
I will forever live in my own empty
It's the emptiness that eats you.
To live to be empty.
Do you feel the empty?
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 11:15 AM UTC
The memory of us are so bittersweet.
I thought I could do it but it was time to say goodbye
There wasn’t anything left between us.
I held on to the memories..
I knew wouldn’t work out .
It was ****** from the beginning .
I love you but I hate you..
This the ending of us
The ending of our times together.
I am going to miss those moments of laughter we shared
You have made me cry to much
I have hurt you and you did the same
There was a fire burning thing between us.
We both held on to the edge of the cliff
It will be the ending of my misery
It was meant to be it will be..
I fell in love with you cause you held me so close
You were my security blanket that kept me insane.
There was loving and caring in those memories..
I cheated..you did too.
But two wrongs don’t make a right.
But yet some how you manage to put the blame on me.
So here is to the bittersweet memories of us
Nov 7, 2014
Nov 7, 2014 at 2:53 PM UTC
Welcome to my life.
It's a series of roller coasters
It has its twists and turns
Its ups and downs
Going at a high rate of speed or slowing down to a rate to feel something.
But don't
so it starts again you screaming at the top of your lungs to catch a thrill
So this is why I am welcomed to the land of misfit toys.
Oct 24, 2014
Oct 24, 2014 at 3:56 PM UTC
The tears I shed are no longer meant for you.
For you I have a gift now called Dread.
You ****** me over once .
You did it again...
Now I crash and fall
My Memories of you linger..
Just to be placed with my
Doubts and Your Broken Promises.
You ****** me to many times to tell.
I thought I knew you so well.
So here is where we'll to hell
SEE YOU THERE!
You will dread me..
Cause you finally me the dead me..
Remember when we exchanged those vows?
"Until Death Do Us Part?"
I will see you in this world.
And the world under...
Feb 5, 2014
Feb 5, 2014 at 2:43 PM UTC
No one sits with him,he doesn't fit in
But we feel like we do when we make fun of him
Cause you want to belong,do you go along?
Cause his pain is the price paid for you to belong
It's not like you hate him or want him to die
But maybe he goes home and thinks suicide
Or he comes back to school with a gun at his side
And any kindness from you might have saved his life
Heroes are made when you make a choice
You could be a hero - heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - you might save a life
You could be a hero - you could join the fight
For what's right....
No one talks to her, she feels so alone
She's in too much pain to survive on her own
The hurt she can't handle overflows to a knife
She writes on her arm wants to give up her life
Each day she goes on is a day that she's brave
Fighting the lie that giving up is the way
Each moment of courage her own life she saves
When she throws the pills out a hero is made
Heroes are made when you make a choice
You could be a hero - heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - you might save a life
You could be a hero - you could join the fight
For what's right....
No one talks to him about how he lives
He thinks that the choices he makes are just his
Doesn't know he's a leader with the way he behaves
And others will follow the choices he's made
He lives on the edge, he's old enough to decide
His brother who wants to be him is just nine
He can do what he wants because it's his right
The choices he makes change a nine-year-old's life
You could be a hero - heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - you might save a life
You could be a hero - you could join the fight
For what's right...
Little mikey d was the one in class
Who every day got totally harassed
This went on for years until he decided
That ever again would he shed another tear
So he walked out the door
Grabbed a 4.4 out of his father's dresser drawer
And said I can't take life no more
And like that a life is lost
But this ain't even about that
All of us just sat back
And watched it happen
Thinking it's not my responsibility
To solve a problem that isn't about me
This is our problem
This is just one of the daily scenarios
In which we chose to cause a riot
Instead of doing the right thing
If we make a choice
Be the voice
To those who won't speak up for themselves
How many lives would be saved
Changed, rearranged
Now it's our job
To take a shot
Now don't keep walking by
Now why didn't you try
Cause you don't want to exist
And never be seen
So let's wake up
Change the world..Our time is now!!!!
You could be a hero - (our time is now) heroes do what's right
You could be a hero - (our time is now) you might save a life
You could be a hero - (our time is now) you could join the fight
For what's right, for what's right, for what's right
Sep 11, 2013
Sep 11, 2013 at 10:05 AM UTC
Bottled up inside
Are the words I never said,
The Feelings that I hide,
The lines you never read.
You can see it in my eyes,
Read it on my face:
Trapped inside are lies
Of the past that I can’t replace
With memories that linger
Won’t seem to go away
Why can’t I be happier?
Today’s a brand new day
Yesterdays are over,
Even though the hurting’s not
Nothing lasts forever,
We must cherish what we got
Don’t take love for granted.
For soon it will be gone
All we ever wanted
Of the love you thought you’d won
The hurt I’m feeling now
Won’t disappear overnight.
But someway, somehow,
Everything will turn out all right
No more wishing for the past .
It wasn’t meant to be
It didn’t seem to last ,
So I had to set him free
Apr 10, 2013
Apr 10, 2013 at 9:26 AM UTC
Wasted
Here I am going in
It’s been Nine months on my sobriety
I made a promise to you that I wouldn’t do it
Baby I can’t stand it.
I want to drink.
You told me you loved me.
But you let your Dad in the way.
Just cause he is a deacon in a church.
Doesn’t’ mean he makes your decisions for you.
Do you truly care?
I go to church I am a Baptist just like you and him.
Is cause I grew up in a different environment then you?
But I am the good one. You are the bad.
You and I get as close as we can until they pull us apart.
But you told my best friend that you loved me along with
Another girl.
You hurt me Again how many times am I going to allow you to do that?
Cause I love you …
I want to be wasted
I want to forget you ever existed in my life
Wasted as the burn of whiskey touches my throat
The second shot is to show you how much I love you
But you will never know because I won’t tell you
SO cheers to us
Because you are the best thing I never had
I will be wasted on a love that will never be
Goodbye my love
Feb 20, 2013
Feb 20, 2013 at 12:43 PM UTC
Close enough to start a war
All that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
All that I say, you always say more
I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe
So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Under haunted skies I see you (ooh)
Where love is lost your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down, whoa
I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb I can't breathe
So, I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
Turning tables
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
When the thunder calls for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet
I won't let you close enough to hurt me,
No, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you the heart you think you gave me
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables
To turning tables
Turning tables, yeah
Turning, oh
Feb 12, 2013
Feb 12, 2013 at 9:58 AM UTC