Seeing truth in fake eyes
Honesty in real lies
Hope where there should be none, expectations surrealized
Trust given, trust broken, trust lost
Emotional numbness, an overall frost
Betrayed by the heart so naive and new
A product of society, meant to be tossed
Once a player in the game
Beaten at it and put to shame
Aware, yet seduced by your siren-like charm
Wild, but tender and wanting to be tamed
Chasing pretty thoughts
I'm just chasing pretty thoughts.
Thoughts planted not by my hand
For reasons I don't understand
Encouraging an intimate feel
Then going back on everything planned
Mind ****** body in the same condition
Foolishly following an apparition
Faint whispers and caresses, the only fool left wishin'
Allegedly smart but lacking intuition
You should have known they said
Should have seen that coming
Should have ignored the energies that were humming
Should have muted the heartbeat that was drumming
But I didn't.
Instead I chose to fall
Knowing I'd never have it all
Hoping you'd feel something for me no matter how small
I was wrong.
Jul 8, 2016
Jul 8, 2016 at 11:20 PM UTC
Let's pretend
For however fleeting of a moment
That you really do care
In a fantasy, we could exist together
That you're more than just a body devoid of feeling
Not just living, but loving as we were meant to do
That your words held depth
Only in my head
You're mine.
Oct 25, 2014
Oct 25, 2014 at 12:57 PM UTC
Come with me
Leave this world
As our feet near the doorway
And the floor starts to drop
We board the ship.
Lay your head back
Close your eyes
As we separate from the anchors holding us in this realm.
Feel nothing
See everything
As the universe tells its tale.
Breathe in
Breathe out
As faces wave and colors envelope us.
Just be.
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 8:05 PM UTC
Ridicule me. Degrade me. Lie to me.
Don’t be nice
It’ll take much more than that
To crack this heart of ice
Sweet somethings slip in one ear
And out the other
I could listen
But why bother?
It’s not real
And I’ll open my eyes
And you’ll be gone
Like the hope I once had for love
Fragile feelings found deep
Laying dormant as they sleep
Refusing to acknowledge the loneliness I keep
Let’s just go to bed
I’ll lay wrapped in your arms
And feel miserable
And ignore the happiness
Lurking in my head.
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 8:04 PM UTC
Concealed under my shell
No one sees me
I am safe
Not from you.
Your curious mind
With some extra time
And suddenly I'm exposed.
My markings a novel you peruse
Do you comprehend?
Well, how could you.
I'll get to work
My shell will be unbreakable
But I no longer exist beneath it.
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 8:02 PM UTC
I want it to last
But it won't
The patterns of our pasts
Trump my hope
History repeating
Broken hearts continue beating
Just barely, with caution
Always threatening retreating
It's not a matter of how, it's when
To break the bond and cause our end
It's inevitable my lover friend
Nothing we can do
But to let it go and move on, then
However, at this time,
I can't make up my mind
I imagine you as mine
You can't commit
That's not a crime
Buying this dime to forget about you is
Smoking you out of my system when all I want is your kiss
Avoiding being the one to get dissed
I'd rather forget than dwell
One day you will be missed.
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 12:27 PM UTC
I just want to put into words how you make me feel.
But if I were to do that,
You wouldn't be able to read it.
Mangled, maimed, torn, confused
yet
Happy, loved, appreciated, sane.
Too mixed, too unsure to explain
How a person originally nothing to me can slither into my life and become its focus; I can't understand.
Am I not stronger than that?
Am I not smarter than that?
Have I learned nothing?
The countless times three words were used to trap me have made me aversive to hearing them.
When you say them, are they any more real than these others?
They can't be, everything is only temporary in the end
And I'm expected to trust you?
To believe in you?
To understand that what we are is timeless though we are nothing?
No matter how often I attempt to force myself into callousing my most vital organs to your charm, nothing works.
I can't fight you.
So you need to drop me.
It shouldn't be hard for you,
I'm only a temporary pleasure like everything else.
Jun 19, 2014
Jun 19, 2014 at 12:42 AM UTC
I'm happy you call me
And then you start a fight
******** and whining, and insulting
I'm angered
It's 3 AM
Yelling in my house
Your bipolar mood swings
Make me want to shoot you in the face
"I love you"
**** you"*
"If you were smart you wouldn't be with me"
Shut up
**SHUT THE **** UP**
May 18, 2014
May 18, 2014 at 4:44 AM UTC
I wish I was the one holding all the cards
Wish I could make him feel this way
Queasy
Uneasy
Wanna know what happens next.
It's not fair he has this effect
Able to reflect
Any feelings I send his way
His signals are mixed
He's fixed
into this idea that nothing is ever real
I know he's wrong
His feelings are strong
*"Monogamy isn't possible
The sad truth of life
husband and wife*
is a myth."
May 16, 2014
May 16, 2014 at 6:18 PM UTC
Home, sweet home they say,
but not me.
What's so sweet about home?
A curfew?
A naggy parent?
An annoying sibling?
Chores?
No thanks.
If I were Dorothy,
my heels would click me to the Bahamas.
Or PCB.
May 12, 2014
May 12, 2014 at 11:07 AM UTC