It's been a year now
A lot of time has passed
I have grown and changed
Hoping it will last
The world is so different
My world is so different
He is so different
They are so different
I am figuring out what I want in life
Putting my heart aside
Deciding my destiny
Something which I shall abide
But my mind goes off
Thinking about different boys
"Is he someone special to me"
"I kind of like him"
It is because I like someone I don't want to
He doesn't want me at all
He is not the best person
But he is leaving my life and I don't want to
I'm saddened
Jan 21, 2021
Jan 21, 2021 at 7:16 PM UTC
I was so confused before
Didn't know how I really felt around him
Was confused by my "feelings"
If they were even real
For two days I admitted
"I knew I liked him!"
Two days back and now
Im not so sure
I can't tell how much I like him
Or in what way
What do I want?
What will I get?
How should I feel?
I am still lost
I realize as I begin to write this
Something about him troubles me
And that something I think is clout
I don't know what to do
I like most things about him
But can I make the sacrifice
For the things I don't
I am so lost on how to feel
All I know is, It's him
Feb 6, 2020
Feb 6, 2020 at 6:27 PM UTC
SO stupid, I cannot understand
The relationship may fade but why the friends?
He such a **** and I am saddened because
A new cheater influenced him
SO young and naïve
Hadn't figured out much yet
Though he knew love at 13
"Lost" it then too
He's such a ****
"leave me alone" he yells
how I wish I would but
im afraid he'd wind up in a cell
What a good boy he was
Had the world ruined him?
SO much hope and chance for success
His chances are so ever now dim
The boys and girls around him
Catch his eyes
Now whenever I look at him
All I wanna say is goodbye
Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 9:32 PM UTC
I like being around him
It's really heart-warming
Im being shipped with another one
Which is not what I want
I don't know if I like him
But I hope he likes me
I think that we could have a future
But doesn't he want to?
I'm not sure if I like him cause he's so cool
Or because I want that clout....
Oct 24, 2019
Oct 24, 2019 at 6:40 PM UTC
I took a break
I needed to find myself
And I realized
I got life all wrong
He's not that amazing
Someone more amazing showed me his flaws
We're still best friends and all
But tbh
Were we ever though?
Sep 20, 2019
Sep 20, 2019 at 4:44 PM UTC
My happiness is you
because I see your face right now
And all I can do is smile
Jun 29, 2019
Jun 29, 2019 at 10:42 PM UTC
he's super athletic
and beautiful when he plays
he's sweet
and will make sacrifices for you
im going to be around him for a while
who knows how much we'll talk
he's growing on me
and I don't like that
he's a sweet guy but he's to shallow
I can't be with someone like him
even if i do like him
do i?
i don't want to
i really don't want to
Jun 27, 2019
Jun 27, 2019 at 8:44 PM UTC
Wait a second..
My heart used to beat when he texted me
But now I find him kind of annoying
Wait
He used to be the bright part of my day
Now he's the hard part of my day
Wait
I thought I liked him
But now im confused if I do at all
Is he just a friend?
Wait a second...
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 4:52 PM UTC
Well, the time has ended
I won't see him for a while
Now what?
Do I text him everyday?
Do I wait for his texts?
What do I do?
I'm so confused what to do now
Now what?
May 26, 2019
May 26, 2019 at 4:32 PM UTC
It's been a few days
I feel better now
Or rather different
We are gonna be friends
Unless the world tears us apart
Because it's different there
He says he's happy
But he also cried to me
I don't understand
It's just different now
May 19, 2019
May 19, 2019 at 10:18 PM UTC