I worked from sun up
Blew past midday
Day to day the routine stays the same
Nights spent alone
Wasting away
Working to a goal that seems far away
But I will not stop
Will not give way
Those sleepless nights
Make my dreams attainable
One day
Jul 5, 2021
Jul 5, 2021 at 1:54 PM UTC
as I sit here my mind is in a haze
I scribble my notes on paper
but the words
they fade away
I toss it in the trash but wont remember writing it either way
I feel like I'm losing my sense of reality but
I'm still conscious of myself
the time spent in this space
moments I indulged seem further back than yesterday
thinking again, I hardly remember now
even the thoughts I wished to write on this page seem more distant
am I trapped in a loop?
will time move?
can I even move?
the door is presented before me
an escape from a dark place
am I do open it?
prepared for what lies ahead?
grab my hand and lets see if there is a way
Jun 28, 2021
Jun 28, 2021 at 2:32 PM UTC
its 2 am
far from high noon
unlit roads from which I see the full moon
time slows as the music plays
the inky darkness of night fades away
cracks of royal blue streak across the sky
from the cliffs I sit and say goodbye
welcome the new day with the dawns light in your eyes
Jun 26, 2021
Jun 26, 2021 at 9:40 PM UTC
The journey is far from over
Its merely begun
Far in the horizon
Further than the rising sun
Happiness was temporary since the pain had only just begun
But I will keep walking
Until my job is done
Oct 2, 2020
Oct 2, 2020 at 1:07 PM UTC
What kind of fool falls in love with you
Knowing you don't love me as I love you
The type that lives in his dreams which surprisingly all about you
What kind of fool sees only you in his eyes
But once open all he can see is the goodbye
Its the fool who went into the fray loving you as you moved away
What kind of fool loved so hard that you now he sees you in the dark
Reaching his hand towards your face then the mist fades away
To this day still only loves you knowing you wont think of him anyway
Dec 12, 2019
Dec 12, 2019 at 10:48 PM UTC
Whats inside I'll never let out
The sting of remembrance remains
Opened up once so now never again
Whats inside is no longer for view
So that the new people can't play with it too
Whats inside is nothing short of the soul
The sounds of my beating hearts remains
What remains is torn
Broken and worn
Black and blue so now I'll tell you too
I'll never open up again
Dec 10, 2019
Dec 10, 2019 at 9:35 PM UTC
You see the slump in my shoulders
the way I carry myself
the burdens of boulders
that threaten my health.
When you ask what's wrong
I pull up my guard
don't want your pity or sad song
won't tell you why life's hard.
So if you want to know
I'll bottle it inside
wrap up all remains in a black bow
and tell you I'm fine.
Dec 10, 2019
Dec 10, 2019 at 9:31 PM UTC
Leaning back in my chair
The chilly breeze in the air
Window open and the elements rush in
Showing me the change within
I lean forward looking at time
Continues forward, never rewinds
I sit back down and drift into space
Where only me and my memories remain
Dec 9, 2019
Dec 9, 2019 at 9:22 PM UTC
I can’t see you anymore
Not blind, no eyes closed
I can’t see you anymore
Retreated to shadows under the sunset glow
I won’t see you anymore
Taken from my grasp
I won’t feel you anymore
Your warm embrace that didn’t last
Nov 8, 2019
Nov 8, 2019 at 12:56 AM UTC
I do not think of you with love
No, you are the deadly sin
I think about you and when we touched
Not when we laughed
Lust not love.
To feel your hands dig into my back
Was better than any kiss you ever gave me.
Sep 13, 2019
Sep 13, 2019 at 9:22 PM UTC