i wrote you
a letter every day
letters to tell you
just how i feel
written in neat, curved
writing i told you
just how sweet
i thought you were
how you made my heart
glow
letters in which i wrote
with various colors of ink
pouring out my whole being
to you
i wrote you
a letter every day.
i wrote you letters in which
i told you how you made me
bloom.
eventually
i found myself
pressing harder on
the paper
than i had before.
creating tears in them
similar in shape
and size
as the ones
inside of me.
i began to send
letters
with creases
and bumps
and stains
splattered with tears
pouring
from my eyes
as i wrote
the anger
bubbling within me.
my last letter
addressed to you
contained
no words
but was blank.
because
i had none that
could reach
as far
and deep
into the cracks
of my
heart
to describe
just
what you
had left
of me.
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 11:18 PM UTC
i hope you're well
i know i left you when you fell
from perfection high up in the sky
to shoving your fingers down your throat and making scars on your wrists after you cry
it's not like i didn't give you a chance
but you were unfazeable in your trance
untouchable from help
i'm sorry i left
but things were bad for too long
i thought that what you were doing was okay
but you never mentioned the repercussions left to pay
soon it was me too
crying and dying never knowing what i had gotten myself into
but unlike you i kept it locked inside
so i'm sorry i left when you cried
i had my secrets to hide
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 10:55 PM UTC
there's some things you should know about me
i don't want to fall too hard
for fear that my heart will be scarred
i can't tell you everything that's going on in my life
for fear you will use my issues to stab me in the back like a knife
i wont be able to open up to you
for fear that knowing the real me with make you not want to stay true
but i will love you with everything i have
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 10:35 PM UTC
i just want to see you happy,
even if it doesn't
include me.
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 10:16 PM UTC
He was imperfect
He was young
She loved him
She was crazy
She wasn’t so pretty
He loved her
He had doubts
He had challenges
She loved him
She was naïve
She was carefree
He loved her
He was smart
He was cute
She loved him
She got brains
She had talent
He loved her
He lied
He cheated
She loved him
He became rude
He was difficult
She loved him
He was scared
He was reckless
She cared
He was arrogant
He was insensitive
She was hurt
He ignored her
He hurt her more
She became different
He cheated more
He cheated carelessly
She ignored him
He became scarce
He cut off ties
She survived
He was addicted
He was pitiful
She had empathy
He fell
She brought him up
He got sick
She nursed him to health
She slipped
He didn’t catch her
He got into trouble
She turned her back on him
He wanted her back
She didn’t
It was too late
She felt nothing for him
She was,
A diamond he got
She was,
A diamond he lost
Oct 17, 2018
Oct 17, 2018 at 10:15 PM UTC