Perhaps I really know myself too well
When the pain kicks in each night
And it's too much to bear
I run back to spill my messy thoughts
In words
In deep sighs
In prayers
Hoping I'll wake up one day
Not feeling the ache of yesterday
Tonight I shall tell a tale
Of a young lady who was loved
And who fell in love
But decided to end it all
She was once bewildered of tomorrow
Scared of what the future may have to offer
Until one day
Her barricaded heart was slightly opened
By a man whom she considered as her "present"
He was madly in love with her
And she couldn't be bothered by the evening breeze
For his words kept her warm
She loved him dearly as well
But the string that binds them turned into a rope
A rope made of complicated knots
That each misunderstanding caused pain to the other
Now these ropes turned into cold chains
She can no longer see what he wanted her to see
And he could no longer hear what she wanted him to hear
For this very purpose
Everything fell apart
He said to her to leave him alone
And she finally left
When you're madly in love you see,
You lose sense of everything around you
The moment he begged her to come back
Tears fell like the rain in June
She knew she still loves him
Up to this day
But things weren't right anymore
The shackles were too much for her to handle
Moments that were taken for granted
She missed those times
When she was devoted to him
But for now,
She decided to love herself
Jan 16, 2021
Jan 16, 2021 at 10:56 AM UTC
Studying
Cramming
Amidst the scattered papers,
Softly crying
Mood suddenly changing
Remembering
Pausing for a moment
Pencils dropping
Slowly
B r e a t h i n g
Sentiments immediately hitting
Of the days where life used to be simple
Gentle
On how you danced the earth upon your young feet
Not giving a care about tomorrow
The rain falling
Cicadas singing
Oh how you've long for that feeling
Of that fuzzy sensation
Gust of wind, hugging
Yet inside is a tiny heart, bravely beating
It was heartwarming
Hopes and dreams suddenly rushing
Of how you've always wanted to walk along the stars
And conquer the roaring seas
On how you've always wondered
What will you be
Years from now
You stood up, quietly gazing
On a sight which seemed to be out of reach
The mirror was calling
The reflection was changing
A youthful being stared back at you
Grinning
Smiling
Eyes sparkling
Undoubtedly admiring
Yet worrying
Of what you've become
As you close your eyes, realizing
Looking for the fire left inside you
Still scorching
Reassuring
Of that person you've been years ago
That you will continue to fight
And be proud of what you'll ever be
Sep 20, 2018
Sep 20, 2018 at 10:17 AM UTC
It was past 11
The clock ticks in the night
A rather sad movie plays on the background
Yet for some reason
My eyes were on something else
I had the chance to hear your voice
"I'm too lazy to type. Call me."
You were hesitant
I was anxious
For a moment the distance didn't matter
Our voices softly echoing in our ears
Even just for a second
We let our worlds play by our own little rules
Quivering
The mood was still unsettling
Yet I gave you the assurance
The assurance which I wasn't sure of as well
Things took a turn
Uncertainty turned into bravery
As you've learned that I was in for the same
Same feeling you've wanted
Short-lived
Ephemeral as it may seemed
We were two sides of a coin, you see
My views were far-fetched
Yours stopped halfway
Of what you've yearned which was deemed temporary
Temporary company
Temporary feelings
Temporary memories
I replied
"Why not give it a go?"
"Really? Are you sure?"
"Yes. That sounds like fun"
Fun
Joy
A moment of spark
Which was bound to die sooner or later
I've always been into commitments
There's always something
About the fidelity
The blinding devotion
Of the faith and trust
That'll mark my ashes forever
Yet here you are
A guarantee in your chuckle
That you'll end up living all alone
One day
Some day
So you just wanted to have a good time
Enjoy while it lasts
We were two sides of a coin, right?
But I saw a path halfway
A path leading to you
It was a garden
Full of roses trying to hide their thorns
This is perhaps
Where we shall meet
As we're about to leave each other's arms before we knew it
You've always yearned of what's deemed temporary, you see
So even just for a moment
a second if you may allow
Even if those feelings weren't genuine enough
Let us fill the air with the scent of love
that would probably stay on your shirt
And will make you smile as you try to look back one day
This was a foolish idea
We both know
As we nervously laugh at how we agreed upon this game
Silently looking for an excuse to run away as the night deeply sighs
I was unsure about everything else
But darling
I wouldn't agree if my feelings weren't true
For I've loved you
Good night
Sep 18, 2018
Sep 18, 2018 at 9:26 AM UTC
"i love you"
"i miss you"
"you're mine"
"I'll never leave you"
"We'll stay strong"
"How are you? "
"I miss you so bad"
"A future with you is my ideal future"
"Anything wrong? "
"I'm always here"
"I'll be by your side"
"You're my most favorite person"
"Having you for more years to come"
"I love you so much"
"I miss you so much"
"Please take care"
"I'll wait for you"
"I love you"
"I'm sorry"
"I don't know what to say"
"I'm not in the mood"
"Talk to you later"
"Wait"
"I'll be honest"
"We'll never work out"
"I want to go back"
"I can't have you"
"Leave me alone"
"Let's break up"
Jan 13, 2018
Jan 13, 2018 at 2:26 AM UTC
Down
down
off
we
go
we're about to
miss
the
great
BIG
S H O W
But
oh
let not
a single
W O R D
spill
o u t
for against
ignorance in numbers
is what this show's
all
about
listen
closely
lend them your ear
feed them
with
attention
but don't keep them
n e a r
just smile
let's enjoy this
S H O W
and down to the next
generation
off
we
go
Apr 9, 2017
Apr 9, 2017 at 9:35 PM UTC
This is a prayer
for the Children of Aleppo
Whose tragedy was concealed before the eyes of the giants
Whose tears never had a chance to fall down to the ground
My Lord, my Almighty One
Keep these children
Welcome them back to Your arms
Let them feel loved again
Help them subside the pain they felt
Fill their newly-furnished rooms
With songs and laughter
Let them forget the scent of gunpowder and bombs
Teach them how to smile once more
Bring back the glimmer in their eyes
And as for those who still breathe to survive
Conceal them with Your love and immense protection
Let them know that beneath the ends of the earth
There would always be a sunrise
A new day
Where they could draw their stories
And dance their dreams
With those eyes
staring into blank distance
Bewildered,
Unaware of what will happen next
Let them hear my voice
A small voice of cheering them up
For this is all I could do for now
How foolish am I
Lavishly sitting on a comfortable bed
Under a secured roof
Writing a poem for those who gained my sympathy
But You know
There's more to that
Let them reach this
I want to tell them
How much they could change this world
Hang on tight
Believe me
Each and everyone of you
are tougher than any fighter this history could ever tell.
Dec 16, 2016
Dec 16, 2016 at 9:07 AM UTC
Hey, have you heard of a town
A small town that resides at the last boundaries of the earth
A town where all rumors speak of truth
A town who have made the last birth
I once knew a town where people look different
Various races, diverse bloodlines running through the land
But when that time comes, when the clock ticks at 7 in the evening
Ah, yes! Look into their faces, they are just one of a kind, standing hand in hand
They said that town crumbles slowly day by day
That the edge of the earth seem to swallow them down deep into the abyss
What lies out there has been vogue yet familiar
And when someone falls down, the town will be filled of words, songs to reminisce
You will never know you're in that town once you're in there
I've heard that once you step in, you shall resemble a lost child
Who has walked for ages just to find his way home
Until he finally settles in, the nostalgic scent, so tender and mild
How was it possible? Memories that have been altered?
Or don't you think, the way you're in, is nothing but a shadow covering the truth?
That once you decided to look for the town at the edge of the earth
You'll finally feel like a large tree reversing its life after finding its deepest root
Nevertheless, all these sayings, one thing bothers me
That in that town, the moon was so enormous that it dominates the skies at night
And every time, little by little, it seems to be moving closer to the town
Hiding beneath is a smile as it illuminates the whole place in sheer delight
Nov 17, 2016
Nov 17, 2016 at 11:31 AM UTC
I remember the first time i've heard
Of Fireflies over the radio
Under the night where there were no stars to see
I knelt down and stared for minutes
Minutes full of dreamy thoughts
Until I've listened to Vanilla Twilight
On how melodrama strangled me
I've began creating a playlist
Of all his songs running in my head
On how Gold made me feel special
And Alligator Sky gave a spark in my eyes
Wolf Bite touched my lips with its peculiar fingertips
Shooting Star never meant to say goodbye
He reminded me that Dreams will never turn to Dust
Glimmered my sight with the fairy dust of Beautiful Times
Rainbow Veins carried me all over the clouds
That being Up all Night can never be this heart-wrecking
He revealed the true colors of Dimentia
Painted a smile and hinted that Angels were everywhere
And told me that it's always a Good Time
That He'll look forward to See me Again
His songs made me build a ladder
With all the books and all my dreams
With all my hopes and all my memories
To overcome a wall called Reality
And see a whole new world on the other side.
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 4:23 AM UTC
You will never understand how a droplet of attention you've given weighs so much on that moment when I was nothing but a parched desert
Sep 19, 2016
Sep 19, 2016 at 9:21 AM UTC