memories
shattered into a thousand pieces
thinking about the past
constantly
memories
of you everywhere
our sayings
our places
now
in the present
have no meaning
pretending
nothing happened and the past is the past
but the memories
always present
i can go there with somebody else but
it's not the same
because the memories
will always
be with you
May 20, 2018
May 20, 2018 at 4:42 PM UTC
nineteen years young
absent all this time
then suddenly
my eyes are open
i've stopped looking
found you at last
all those kisses with randoms on a friday night
seeking validation and some kind of affection
or just attention seeking
looking for some kind of connection
nothing else matters anymore
this is a different kind of love
a love where my heart aches after a few days without you
making me smile
making me cry
making life worthwhile
i am finally safe
Mar 12, 2017
Mar 12, 2017 at 1:51 PM UTC
all these 'friends'
surrounded
by unknown faces
and unknown strangers
feels like you can never
truly know these people
how do you know
their true opinions of you
everything could just be a lie
their smiles
their compliments
all for show
keep on treading down this
slippery slope
all
the
way
to
total
paranoia
Mar 12, 2017
Mar 12, 2017 at 1:27 PM UTC
it's always the bad times
the regrets i think of
when i'm overthinking
and it's 3am
and i feel like the only person on earth
awake and alive
it's never the good things that come back to me
it's just constant to focus on the negativity
the bad
the thing is they are the moments
the unchangeable
the things i regret
if only i had foreseen
what i was going to do
it would we easier to forget
regrets are permanent
until i can learn to overcome
tears
blood
sweat
they're unchangeable
pushed
away and away
i'll never forget
Jun 19, 2016
Jun 19, 2016 at 6:46 PM UTC
she lives a life full of regret
she gets drunk
she only wants to forget
but when she wakes
she remembers all too well
the pain and destruction of the night
each memory comes back
it is painful
the lack of control
'you'll get a reputation'
they all whisper and stare
their eyes bore into her back
she is lost in an endless ocean of regret
she only wanted to forget
but now everything is worse
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 5:23 PM UTC
i am so tired of being alone
i crave love
but noone comes
Jul 24, 2015
Jul 24, 2015 at 4:25 PM UTC
too many insecurities
and too many flaws
they are my minds weakness
but they are what my eyes see
and my brain processes
and amplifies
my flaws are what I make of them
Jul 24, 2015
Jul 24, 2015 at 4:22 PM UTC
if you live in the moment
you must pay for it
being spontaneous
will damage you
stupid decisions
and
stupid actions
wait
don't define me by those
i was just trying to live
my life
in the moment
with no regrets
but the regrets always come after
when life runs you down and reminds you
you can't be so carefree
not in this world
well I'll just do my thing
and you just turn a blind eye
Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 12:46 PM UTC
all those drunken nights
taking their toll
now she is a wreck
her body has been used
it's been abused
she's broken
Jul 16, 2015
Jul 16, 2015 at 12:36 PM UTC