illegalcopy - Hello Poetry

I woke up this morning, Not being able to do anything, Theres nothing i can do except ... ... ... ... die each day. This wasnt the way i wanted to be, Not a life i wanted see, Bug other people had plans for me .. .. .. and i live and die each day .. .. .. .. .. .. I wonder to myself, Why no help arrived ? ..... It feels like the plan was to see me die, A long time ago .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. this has been a long, long, road .. .. .. .. and i live and die each day. Help never came, Help never will, Not in this place, This place of eternal hell, And i live and die each day .. .. .. .. .. .. what will come of this ? I think to myself, With Years of struggles ahead. .. .. .. .. .. Ill be dead and gone, No one will mourn my dearh .. .. .. .. .. .. I cannot rest, Yet, I live and die each day. .. .. .. .. .. One day theyll see, And if there's a God, An eternity of regret, Should be to fall on them, Wicked men, Wicked men. .. .. .. and i live and die each day. Justice is coming faster than before, And all these doors that closed on me .. .. .. .. .. .. .. will open again, You wait and see, This place will remember me, And through the haze of my yesterday's, Ill find a better place, A place of recovery, A better place to .. .. simply be .. .. .. .. and ill live and die each day. .. .. .. .. .. there's no apathy or love left for me, But the world will see, The world will see. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. I live and die each day.

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Jul 17, 2025

Jul 17, 2025 at 3:27 PM UTC

illegalcopy

Woke

I woke up this morning, Not being able to do anything, Theres nothing i can do except ... ... ... ... die each day. This wasnt the way i wanted to be, Not a life i wanted see, Bug other people had plans for me .. .. .. and i live and die each day .. .. .. .. .. .. I wonder to myself, Why no help arrived ? ..... It feels like the plan was to see me die, A long time ago .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. this has been a long, long, road .. .. .. .. and i live and die each day. Help never came, Help never will, Not in this place, This place of eternal hell, And i live and die each day .. .. .. .. .. .. what will come of this ? I think to myself, With Years of struggles ahead. .. .. .. .. .. Ill be dead and gone, No one will mourn my dearh .. .. .. .. .. .. I cannot rest, Yet, I live and die each day. .. .. .. .. .. One day theyll see, And if there's a God, An eternity of regret, Should be to fall on them, Wicked men, Wicked men. .. .. .. and i live and die each day. Justice is coming faster than before, And all these doors that closed on me .. .. .. .. .. .. .. will open again, You wait and see, This place will remember me, And through the haze of my yesterday's, Ill find a better place, A place of recovery, A better place to .. .. simply be .. .. .. .. and ill live and die each day. .. .. .. .. .. there's no apathy or love left for me, But the world will see, The world will see. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. I live and die each day.

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Any easy feeling falls over me, As the realities of the next few months, years perhaps, Culminate, So ive relaxed . .. .. .. .. solitary, Can be hard, But .. it what it is, And I guess Im .. .. .. Lucky .. .. I dont owe anyone a thing, Except my family, Banks, Credit facilities ... ... But that's all it is, Eventually ... I'll be able to leave, Find a safe place for family .. or .. just .. me ? .. .. .. Death doesn't phase me, And i would have been more than happy to D.I.E.. .. .. .. .. but I realised, It shouldn't be me, .. .. I shouldn't pay, For others choices made, And they made a choice, A long time ago, To force me to show ... ... .. .. the possibilities .. .. .. .. for humans like me, If they live in a place that .. .. .. doesn't need destructive tendencies.. .. .. .. .. .. this place doesn't exit for me, .. .. .. sometimes .. I wish it did .. .. .. .. but I doubt it ever will, .. .. .. .. I cant do more than take pills, And be at the whim of evil people .. .. .. that will never let me heal .. .. or be more than .. .. .. .. on government payment, All because their time spent, Was to make sure the reality .. .. .. .. .. .. was to destroy everything good in me. .. .. .. . .

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Jul 13, 2025

Jul 13, 2025 at 12:09 AM UTC

illegalcopy

E

Any easy feeling falls over me, As the realities of the next few months, years perhaps, Culminate, So ive relaxed . .. .. .. .. solitary, Can be hard, But .. it what it is, And I guess Im .. .. .. Lucky .. .. I dont owe anyone a thing, Except my family, Banks, Credit facilities ... ... But that's all it is, Eventually ... I'll be able to leave, Find a safe place for family .. or .. just .. me ? .. .. .. Death doesn't phase me, And i would have been more than happy to D.I.E.. .. .. .. .. but I realised, It shouldn't be me, .. .. I shouldn't pay, For others choices made, And they made a choice, A long time ago, To force me to show ... ... .. .. the possibilities .. .. .. .. for humans like me, If they live in a place that .. .. .. doesn't need destructive tendencies.. .. .. .. .. .. this place doesn't exit for me, .. .. .. sometimes .. I wish it did .. .. .. .. but I doubt it ever will, .. .. .. .. I cant do more than take pills, And be at the whim of evil people .. .. .. that will never let me heal .. .. or be more than .. .. .. .. on government payment, All because their time spent, Was to make sure the reality .. .. .. .. .. .. was to destroy everything good in me. .. .. .. . .

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New days on the horizon, The time when nothing, Took control, Was it just a passing phase? Sublime, Memories unfold, I took the wrong turn I fear, Where my life, Steers from here, Surrounded by an atmosphere, Inherently grey, The guess ain't mine, Entwined epitaphs, To a beginning and an end. My friends, I cried much too long, And sang those songs of sorrow, New Seeds are planted now, But don't forget to water, I wonder where my daughter is today? Pushing back on in from the frey I found, With life upside down, Gets harder every day, The frey can have a mighty hold, And not let go, But here I stand. Lamented, Now a new man.

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Jul 29, 2019

Jul 29, 2019 at 12:49 AM UTC

illegalcopy

New

New days on the horizon, The time when nothing, Took control, Was it just a passing phase? Sublime, Memories unfold, I took the wrong turn I fear, Where my life, Steers from here, Surrounded by an atmosphere, Inherently grey, The guess ain't mine, Entwined epitaphs, To a beginning and an end. My friends, I cried much too long, And sang those songs of sorrow, New Seeds are planted now, But don't forget to water, I wonder where my daughter is today? Pushing back on in from the frey I found, With life upside down, Gets harder every day, The frey can have a mighty hold, And not let go, But here I stand. Lamented, Now a new man.

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On the pavement, I was waiting, For that moment, To arrive, The day I die, Its all over, I found moreover, Why. It was the sever, From my children, That kept me spinning, Straight down, Was In that moment, Speaking to them, That I Realised. Can it mend now? Time will tell how, If the fracture, Will ever mend, In the beginning, At the birth I, Never thought it, Would ever end. I realise now I must keep going, Days of sorrow, Fall behind, I found the reason, To keep going, I found the reason, Of my life. Bitter hatred, Tore them from me, Bitter hatred, Held me down, It was for nothing, Yet for someone, My connection to them, Had to end. I realised after I was talking, I went to walking of my fears, Bitter tears that I had cried, All fell on deaf ears.

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Jan 7, 2019

Jan 7, 2019 at 7:39 AM UTC

illegalcopy

Sever

On the pavement, I was waiting, For that moment, To arrive, The day I die, Its all over, I found moreover, Why. It was the sever, From my children, That kept me spinning, Straight down, Was In that moment, Speaking to them, That I Realised. Can it mend now? Time will tell how, If the fracture, Will ever mend, In the beginning, At the birth I, Never thought it, Would ever end. I realise now I must keep going, Days of sorrow, Fall behind, I found the reason, To keep going, I found the reason, Of my life. Bitter hatred, Tore them from me, Bitter hatred, Held me down, It was for nothing, Yet for someone, My connection to them, Had to end. I realised after I was talking, I went to walking of my fears, Bitter tears that I had cried, All fell on deaf ears.

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With tremendous Vigour, I plan for winter, The longest in my life. Fate folded on me, Shut me from the light. I wake each morning, To begin a new day's fight, Try I must, Try I might. Suicide does cross my mind, I find some days are tough, Needled with a poison, That crushes all my ****** They try to **** me, Keep me down, Spreading lies and, Casting frowns. My life as is, A total let down, Fighting me they must. Trapped in darkness, My throat they cut. I pleaded why, They have to try, To destroy that's all of me, They don't mind, It is their job, The government does hate me.

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Jan 1, 2019

Jan 1, 2019 at 7:21 AM UTC

illegalcopy

Plunged

With tremendous Vigour, I plan for winter, The longest in my life. Fate folded on me, Shut me from the light. I wake each morning, To begin a new day's fight, Try I must, Try I might. Suicide does cross my mind, I find some days are tough, Needled with a poison, That crushes all my ****** They try to **** me, Keep me down, Spreading lies and, Casting frowns. My life as is, A total let down, Fighting me they must. Trapped in darkness, My throat they cut. I pleaded why, They have to try, To destroy that's all of me, They don't mind, It is their job, The government does hate me.

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Things fall apart, Past can catch up on you, The world is crewl and cold, Betrayal under toe, Relentless days, Living in the frey, Waiting to long to play, Loosing all my sanity, Sunsets over rooftops, Insanity overflow. Drunk on old fashioned, Days of clinks and chasers, To an end, Cold coffee and long walks, To talk to strangers, Umongst the dangers of this bitter world. I'm in the corner, Waiting for the answer, Laying on the ropes, Each time I talk I choke, Give me the rope, A noose to hang, End life with a bang, The shenanigans all but faltered, Forgotten left to writhe, Through the bitter lies, And crying eyes, Light shines through. I want to let you know, I did it all for you.

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Dec 30, 2018

Dec 30, 2018 at 2:53 AM UTC

illegalcopy

All

Things fall apart, Past can catch up on you, The world is crewl and cold, Betrayal under toe, Relentless days, Living in the frey, Waiting to long to play, Loosing all my sanity, Sunsets over rooftops, Insanity overflow. Drunk on old fashioned, Days of clinks and chasers, To an end, Cold coffee and long walks, To talk to strangers, Umongst the dangers of this bitter world. I'm in the corner, Waiting for the answer, Laying on the ropes, Each time I talk I choke, Give me the rope, A noose to hang, End life with a bang, The shenanigans all but faltered, Forgotten left to writhe, Through the bitter lies, And crying eyes, Light shines through. I want to let you know, I did it all for you.

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The morning roll around again, I wake and pick up my pen, A shoddow lingers, Remember how it began, How many days, To pick up my pen. Countless hours, Wading deep, I prayed the Lord, My soul to keep, Each morning waking, Is sometimes hard, Working towards that light, I think each morning, When I wake, How long can I keep the fight. Living with depression, Is a struggle through my days, The doctors come to fight me, Take what's left, And on their way. Its something more than sadness, It holds and it consumes, No one here to save me, I feel I won't be living soon. It has its hands around me, Pulling me right down, Most days I think that I should swim, I end up drowned

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Dec 29, 2018

Dec 29, 2018 at 5:33 PM UTC

illegalcopy

Mornings

The morning roll around again, I wake and pick up my pen, A shoddow lingers, Remember how it began, How many days, To pick up my pen. Countless hours, Wading deep, I prayed the Lord, My soul to keep, Each morning waking, Is sometimes hard, Working towards that light, I think each morning, When I wake, How long can I keep the fight. Living with depression, Is a struggle through my days, The doctors come to fight me, Take what's left, And on their way. Its something more than sadness, It holds and it consumes, No one here to save me, I feel I won't be living soon. It has its hands around me, Pulling me right down, Most days I think that I should swim, I end up drowned

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Bells ring in as, I wake them, Fate has, No meaning, Seething, Writhing, Tossing, Turning, They will burn and, Die. I asked .. "why"? " Because we can", Came the reply. "There must be a way," I thought to myself, .. ..... .. ..... .. There's nothing, No, Not at all. They came to destroy, That Is .. .. .. All. That's .. .. .. All they know, What to do, Decades past, But I knew. They .. .. .. wanted to, That's the answer, No substitute, For the disaster, They didn't my life .. .. .. After All. They wanted my death, So they could applaud. .. So they could applaud. .. Everything is gone .. And I have to accept my fate. Not a single friend, The world .. .. So full, of hate. .. .. So full of hate .. .. Control, Was their .. .. . Option, Control, The only plan Great pride, In knowing. I had .. no where. I've never known, Evil this tenacious, Before. I realised, That .. .. .. The pain in my brain, Came .. .. .. .. .. back. It came back .. .. .. .. I don't know why, Death, Was to be my fate, But no more tears are left. . The strength .. .. .. .. .. To end my life .. .. .. ... Is all I need. I fought my best, But this .. .. Is the destiny, Cast down on me. .. I asked Pavati, What did she need ? For me to die, Most, Definitely. Definitely. A Definition of war vs peace. I chose the later, But the former, Was the world's need. From me, Taken .. .. Every piece of life. Just so that they could say, "It was us", "We made him die". The hard work that went into it, I never knew it, There was so much systematic, ******** But in the end, I'll take their souls with me. .. Turns out, The cause of evil, Really simply put, . Is Greed

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Jul 25, 2018

Jul 25, 2018 at 4:25 PM UTC

illegalcopy

My Cost.

Bells ring in as, I wake them, Fate has, No meaning, Seething, Writhing, Tossing, Turning, They will burn and, Die. I asked .. "why"? " Because we can", Came the reply. "There must be a way," I thought to myself, .. ..... .. ..... .. There's nothing, No, Not at all. They came to destroy, That Is .. .. .. All. That's .. .. .. All they know, What to do, Decades past, But I knew. They .. .. .. wanted to, That's the answer, No substitute, For the disaster, They didn't my life .. .. .. After All. They wanted my death, So they could applaud. .. So they could applaud. .. Everything is gone .. And I have to accept my fate. Not a single friend, The world .. .. So full, of hate. .. .. So full of hate .. .. Control, Was their .. .. . Option, Control, The only plan Great pride, In knowing. I had .. no where. I've never known, Evil this tenacious, Before. I realised, That .. .. .. The pain in my brain, Came .. .. .. .. .. back. It came back .. .. .. .. I don't know why, Death, Was to be my fate, But no more tears are left. . The strength .. .. .. .. .. To end my life .. .. .. ... Is all I need. I fought my best, But this .. .. Is the destiny, Cast down on me. .. I asked Pavati, What did she need ? For me to die, Most, Definitely. Definitely. A Definition of war vs peace. I chose the later, But the former, Was the world's need. From me, Taken .. .. Every piece of life. Just so that they could say, "It was us", "We made him die". The hard work that went into it, I never knew it, There was so much systematic, ******** But in the end, I'll take their souls with me. .. Turns out, The cause of evil, Really simply put, . Is Greed

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Positioned in prime position, I remenice of, A day when, I could just ... Get on with it. Simply a dream. But I'm inspired To keep on fighting. Till I'm Reminiscent, of ..... Better thingx. Like ... ... ... ... ... Anything other then the last nightmares I lived with. ... ... ... ... ... Crimson Tidex Cross my mind, But my life is timeless, One day ... ... ... ... ... far from now, I'll get my chance to start. But ... ... ... Before that happenx, I have to tear some worldx ... ... ... ... ... ... ... Apart.

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Oct 19, 2017

Oct 19, 2017 at 8:39 AM UTC

illegalcopy

Positioned

Positioned in prime position, I remenice of, A day when, I could just ... Get on with it. Simply a dream. But I'm inspired To keep on fighting. Till I'm Reminiscent, of ..... Better thingx. Like ... ... ... ... ... Anything other then the last nightmares I lived with. ... ... ... ... ... Crimson Tidex Cross my mind, But my life is timeless, One day ... ... ... ... ... far from now, I'll get my chance to start. But ... ... ... Before that happenx, I have to tear some worldx ... ... ... ... ... ... ... Apart.

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I really did care man, You know, I have to blow it, Time and again, I get hit all at once man. And itx Frustrating......... Therex too many stonex that were thrown, And they all need to be r3turned, If they haven't already man, I wish I had a helping hand. One that wasn't there To steal and condemn, A real hand. Just once man ...........

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Aug 21, 2017

Aug 21, 2017 at 6:06 AM UTC

illegalcopy

Cared

I really did care man, You know, I have to blow it, Time and again, I get hit all at once man. And itx Frustrating......... Therex too many stonex that were thrown, And they all need to be r3turned, If they haven't already man, I wish I had a helping hand. One that wasn't there To steal and condemn, A real hand. Just once man ...........

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