It’s like you’re stuck in a locked room and everything is burning except you
Jan 5, 2023
Jan 5, 2023 at 1:22 PM UTC
my life turns to escaping harmful reality
running from judgmental and disgusting society
yet im just spinning arround myself hopelessly
Aug 6, 2020
Aug 6, 2020 at 3:30 PM UTC
This is nothing but another depressed soul
Typing away all that I know
See I've been months clean
But there is things unseen
A smile that is fake
A laugh they can't take
Beneath it all something I couldn't take
Jun 16, 2018
Jun 16, 2018 at 5:59 PM UTC
being dead inside is a paradox.
a contradiction. polar opposites.
you feel nothing at all, but at the same time you're feeling something.
there are no intense emotions yet, feeling so dead inside is an intense emotion in itself.
you're comforted by the fact that you won't feel any bad emotions but
at the same time, you're dissatisfied because you won't feel any good emotions either.
being dead inside is great when your lover leaves you, when your friend dies, when everything comes crumbling down at once ... because you won't feel it as much.
being dead inside is terrible when your lover tries to kiss you, when your friend invites you on a vacation, when everything starts coming together ... because you won't feel it as much either.
Jun 16, 2018
Jun 16, 2018 at 5:53 PM UTC
Depression isn't when you know
That everything around you
Is going wrong
and you feel sad,
Depression is when you know
That everything around you
Is going right
And you still feel you sad.
Jun 16, 2018
Jun 16, 2018 at 5:49 PM UTC
At one moment, your depression is telling you that you don't care what happens. Then the next moment, your anxiety is screaming and clawing at you to do something. Having depression and anxiety is a constant war inside of yourself. Though, there are no winners.
Jun 16, 2018
Jun 16, 2018 at 5:46 PM UTC