Some people want closeness until closeness requires clarity.
I learned that in the quiet hours,
when the room felt too still
and her laughter still clung to the air like perfume.
Closeness was soft at first —
warm hands, shared breath,
the kind of nearness that makes the world feel smaller
in a good way.
But clarity…
clarity is a mirror,
and not everyone survives the reflection.
I watched her flinch at her own transparency,
like the truth was a light too bright for her eyes.
Some people want intimacy until intimacy requires accountability.
That’s when the colors started draining.
The warmth cooled.
The conversations thinned out like fog at sunrise.
I felt her slipping —
not loudly, not suddenly,
but in the subtle ways people retreat
when they realize they can’t hide behind the version of themselves
they wanted you to believe in.
Intimacy became a door she kept half‑open,
half‑closed,
waiting for me to guess which way she wanted it.
And I got tired of guessing.
Some people want you… until they realize you can actually see them.
That’s when everything went silent.
When her eyes stopped meeting mine.
When her voice lost its warmth.
When the space between us grew sharp enough to cut.
Being seen is terrifying for those who’ve spent years
building walls out of charm, humor, and half‑truths.
And when she realized I saw past all of it —
past the mask, past the fear, past the performance —
she vanished.
Left me holding the echo of something that almost was.
Left me staring at the outline of a connection
that couldn’t survive its own honesty.
And in that emptiness,
I felt myself dim —
not shattered,
but withdrawn,
like a light turning itself down
to protect what’s left of the filament.
I didn’t lose her.
I just finally saw her clearly.
And clarity has a way of breaking things
that were never built to last.
May 10
May 10, 2026 at 1:01 AM UTC
As a kid,
We always use to play
Games
Tag, hide & seek
And red light green light
Years went on
To show that
Childhood memories
Turn in to adulthood ignorance
Tag becomes domestic violence
Hide & seek results in child support
For all the parents who leave their families
Red light green light becomes drunk driving
All resulting in a midlife crisis
Mar 20
Mar 20, 2026 at 10:11 PM UTC
Is the only craving
i need
take me under
your wings
maybe we can be free
for you a dream
is a dream
but for me
its just us
...
in sweet sweet harmony
Aug 4, 2020
Aug 4, 2020 at 3:16 AM UTC
You left him broken
Left in the unknown
Found a new guy
He’s All alone
May 20, 2018
May 20, 2018 at 5:39 PM UTC
she was only ten years old
when he made the video tape
the film shows a horrid crime unfold
that little girl was *****
(the story that remains untold
a past she can never escape
available for an easy download
fuel for a pervert's sake)
they have their way with her over and over
********* eyes watch with bad intent
she is a victim again and again
every time that file is sent
she is ***** by other men
Mar 28, 2018
Mar 28, 2018 at 9:32 AM UTC
I can feel the gravity
savage sadness grabbing me
like a stabbing agony
panicking heartbeat rapidly
like a drastic atrophy
the tapestry of travesty
applicable calamity
catastrophe is my canopy
the faculty of tragedy
with no strategy for amnesty
the laxity of sanity
I can feel the gravity
Mar 28, 2018
Mar 28, 2018 at 9:30 AM UTC
Hurts seeing you go so fast
But we learn from our mistakes
Thank you for your time
Now I'm lost in the forgotten
And stuck with the broken
Apr 2, 2017
Apr 2, 2017 at 9:37 AM UTC
It's been a while since we've last spoke
Hows it been for you? Knowing that you're no longer on my mind
Three years of loving, turned into a three year mistake being that you slept with, my once best friend
Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 9:40 AM UTC
I miss the subtle kisses
you gave for my birthday wishes
and those nice joyful giggles
you did as you wiggled
i miss breathing in your hair
and holding you with care
slowly slipping into bed
with no care in the world
we slept
in sheer
bliss
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 9:42 PM UTC
It's like my whole life just got destroyed
Even worst than the day she left
Or when the towers collapsed
Only thing is the world isn't there
To mourn the person I knew best
A veteran, a saviour
My grandfather
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 8:56 PM UTC