Putting those thoughts aside is equivalent to holding them inside this chrysalis. Trapping them within along with my soul. This hurricane is trapped and it turns out it had only been dormant for the time I thought I was healing. My biggest triumph in this life will be this battle within; an invisible fight that burns like fire.
Jun 27, 2017
Jun 27, 2017 at 11:51 PM UTC
Crying is such a blessing
We underestimate the beauty of the salty rivers streaming down our cheeks
Reminding us that there's still a piece of us that wants to get better
To weep is to release the pain
To stay quiet is to hold inside what should not stay within us
I was once on the cold floor
Looking up from below
A loud silence hovered over me
And I could not weep
There was nothing to come out
it was so deep within my soul;
The blade released what has been stuck
But now I feel everything
Release everything
And now I am sure that I am healing.
These salty rivers my favorite taste
The only release, pain's escape
Jul 5, 2016
Jul 5, 2016 at 10:40 PM UTC
darling I see you in my dreams
I feel you the moment I wake
love I feel you around me
I fall apart
because you're not there anymore
if I were to be back in your arms
it wouldn't be the shelter that used to hold me together
I believe that results in my loss of hope
the beautiful flowers you once grew have been stomped on by other temptations
and I still try to pick the long gone flowers of our disintegrating love
Jul 26, 2015
Jul 26, 2015 at 5:08 AM UTC
we are destroyed by what we love the most
as I lost this love
I was pushed into a pit
I see light as I look up
all around is darkness
in the depths of this lonely shelter
my only hope is for someone to pull me out
someone like him
who wants to fix me
who isn't trying to get something out of me
the rare one who isn't trying to receive my pity
I know there is hope
that someone will truly mend my wounds
for I can see the light above
maybe it will be I
or perhaps someone who I have yet to experience
Jun 22, 2015
Jun 22, 2015 at 1:40 AM UTC
yes, i fear being touched by another person
I will look into their eyes and only see the one I truly love
When I am touched I will feel his gentleness
And when in silence I will hear his soft breaths
When I close my eyes and lean in I will only imagine the way he feels
It is inevitable that I feel this way
I feel his haunting presence in my bloodstream
When i see him I hear a beating drum in my chest
One that is uncontrollable
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 4:20 AM UTC
if this love was true,
it will find its way back to us
because it wasn't us who left each other
It was the love that left us
May 8, 2015
May 8, 2015 at 2:00 AM UTC
you came to me broken
without purpose or a hand to hold
you left me after losing that emptiness ;
fufilled from taking everything out of me and using it to fill your own brokenness.
now I'm left with nothing but a ghost of you and pain that overwhelms me
May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015 at 3:04 PM UTC
if you could see scents
The most beautiful smell would be rain on the asphalt after the first rain in a while
nature always has a way of showing us
that even after long and beautiful days of sunshine
The sky still sheds a tear
there is true beauty in the sky and the way it reflects on the way we feel
some are encouraged by the sun
but others prefer the rain
those who prefer the rain understand that darkness comes within the better days and cannot be avoided
but you can still be the light of the dark; the light shining through the clouds
May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015 at 2:56 PM UTC
In this body you will live,
In this body you will also die.
Wherever your treasure is
There your heart will be,
And also your life
Worship things that help you find yourself
And the things that won't give you regrets
Finding out who we are destined to be is a difficult mystery to unravel
But true adventure comes with life
And with adventure in life, our true colors shine
May 6, 2015
May 6, 2015 at 2:22 AM UTC