I watched you grow while I'm waiting to stand on my own
I'm still waiting, and sinking
The rain blocks air from my throat
Time goes regardless of if I'm growing heartless
You left me undone
I'm waiting for someone to pick the pieces up
All I can do is push them under a rug
You're soring, but I'm barely crawling
I want to let go and slip away
I know there's no place for me
And I don't want to know how you've been
But I'll still ask
I won't wait forever for this transition to pass
Any longer I'll let go and sink
My undeserving body will lose the air I stole
When the bubbles stop I'll finally give back to the world
Oct 9, 2015
Oct 9, 2015 at 9:10 PM UTC
Tightning these loose ends will never be snug all around
Something will always slip through my grasp
As I'm picking up the pieces you'll still sleep sound
I'll always find a way to change but I'll never transform into who I want to be
Things will go fine for a while and it seems I'll never cease to smile
When things are going well I always seem to find a way to make it hell
Does anyone try as hard as me to make sure they have personality?
Find me where I don't want to be found
Talk to me when I'm lost without words
Hear me where I don't think I'll be heard
Live as though I never existed at all
Jun 6, 2015
Jun 6, 2015 at 11:01 PM UTC
What I'm forced into is cold
I don't belong
I can never fathom what I'm told
How can I be on my own?
No condolences, just good byes
No direction, no hope
Everyone can see the torment in my eyes
Cast astray to change that'll stay the same
I'm walking into a room full of cliffs blind
This noose fits my neck better than I'll ever fit in
The past no longer matters the future is what I want to leave behind
How can I be on my own?
I possess fear of the unknown
Feb 19, 2015
Feb 19, 2015 at 3:37 PM UTC
I'm suffocating in a old classroom because I have a chalkboard covered with equations of me trying to figure out
*Who the
****
You're talking
To
Like that*
Weak I was but I'm strong know
Mind and body and my fist have an itch that can only be soothed by burying them in your face
*****
This heart that never intends harm is calling for
ARMS
Feb 14, 2015
Feb 14, 2015 at 6:28 PM UTC
I yell to be heard
No more will I be invisible
I'm not scared
I will rise above the rest
The base in my voice boils the blood in my chest
As I lay exhausted from my efforts to be appreciated
I hear them speak as though I've never spoke at all
I saw them walk through me like I was a ghost
If I'm a ghost why can't I walk through walls
Pain is my only escape that listens to me most
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 9:20 PM UTC
She's so perfect for me even though the circumstances aren't perfect... She has no idea how much she's worth and it's an honor to help show her...
Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 7:42 AM UTC
I never thought I could feel this again
To have a blue sky even when it rains
I know that I should calm down
My oh my the seasons have changed
Autumn passed and yet another winter has left me deranged
Is it love or is it just a breath of fresh air?
Never before have I met someone so rare
Should I fall in or should I step back?
Any distance is too far from my arms
I'm glad that we both leave each other so charmed
Her lips can flip all my frowns
Her voice makes me float and leaves my soul earthbound
I know that I need to calm down
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 6:54 PM UTC
Trying is just another thing to keep me down
Smiling is just stretching my engraved frown
I saw the world around me up to a standard
I'm below it with the environment making me stranded
They say I have potential
I don't think I can leave my mind's shell
Long ago I exposed myself to the truth
They don't see that I'm just wasted youth
Hope comes with a cost
The hopeless who made a future for themselves because among those who are eternally lost
They think I have it all together
They're confused when my mind is somewhere else
Handicapped by the world I've been forced into
They don't see what I have to see every day
I'm not worse off
Why couldn't someone less fortunate switch lives with me
I'm never going to be anything
I just waste air and resources on earth
I'm wasted youth
Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 8:02 PM UTC
Scream into my ear every word I wanted to hear
From you
Your brown eyes make me want to hide
Looking into them make me want to cry
Why must the odds make it impossible for you to be mine?
Every image of us I need to leave behind
In my arms is where you belong in the imagined reality in my mind
Alone I've always been, loneliness is the only future that can be seen
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC
Visions of perfection always corrupt my head
The dreams I have where hope is fulfilled is dead
My wrist are marked with every unanswered prayer I've ever said
The luggage I carry are under my eyes
A minute I lay awake in bed for every lie
I'm too strong to broken
I'm too worn down to be repaired
Victim I'll never be
Those pearly gates aren't meant for me
I'd rather walk lifeless for eternity
Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 4:02 PM UTC