Testing of my patience
and the miscommunication.
I can't change the past
and for that, I'm grateful
because sometimes
we think we know someone
we never truly did.
Sep 2, 2021
Sep 2, 2021 at 9:42 AM UTC
i laid on the bed completely defeated
with tears in my eyes and a handprint that left my skin heated.
i said no, and i meant it.
but you begged, you just couldn't accept it.
after you ****** me and used me at your disposal
you turned away from me and the phone screen lit up your face
so i turned my back on you and cried into stained sheets.
i never looked at my body the same
after you branded my body with your all-too-common name.
Sep 1, 2021
Sep 1, 2021 at 8:45 PM UTC
Gravity couldn’t hold you to me
Staring at the thins walls that separate us
I can’t hear you toss and turn
I was naive to think we had it this time
I embraced all your faults
But you weren’t ready to hold mine
May 23, 2021
May 23, 2021 at 7:49 PM UTC
I was just another name to be added to your bed frame
Just a body meant to warm yours
But your racing heart told a different story
Or at least I thought, I hoped
My sheets have turned cold
While you wrap your body with someone I’ll never know
May 23, 2021
May 23, 2021 at 10:56 AM UTC
i looked around as far as my eyes could reach
i saw blue hues, swaying branches, and beautiful life
is this what life is supposed to look like?
i looked at the birds flying high
and i thought with one more step
or a fall from the loss of traction in my shoes
maybe i could fly too
i looked at the trees shake their green
i closed my eyes, breathing in
there was nothing to be seen
i found peace above the evergreens
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 8:43 PM UTC
I wish I knew it would be the last time you’d be over
I would’ve held you tighter
And I would’ve been sober
I wish I knew how much a heart could turnover
I would’ve gone on with my life
And I would forget all about October
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 7:27 AM UTC
Going to bed before the sun sets
Fifty two card pickup
And we’re all out of bets
I guess we live and we learn
You’re the spirit that haunts my mind
And I hope to forget about you from time to time
May 20, 2021
May 20, 2021 at 9:09 PM UTC
I no longer recognize myself in past photographs
A ghost of my former self forever immortalized
Now I lay in my bed, next to empty bottles
They don’t do much when it comes to company
May 18, 2021
May 18, 2021 at 8:10 PM UTC
He asked to kiss me last night
I wish I could tell you I told him no
But his lips were soft, he knew just what to do
At least enough to make me think about it the next day
I thought about how he moaned under my touch
How his hair felt between my fingers
How he kept asking for more
How it wasn’t in any way you
And how much I missed you in that moment
May 16, 2021
May 16, 2021 at 8:57 PM UTC
Brown bottles filled with hops
It seems to be the only physical evidence left
Eleven sit on my bedside table
Ten you finished, one I couldn't, and one unopened
The smell of you is gone from my clothes
Gone from the blanket I hope kept you warm
I still feel your hand on my thigh
Your deep laugh vibrating against my chest
Your hair between my fingers
For now the only thing I can hold between my hands
Is a beer bottle gone stale
But every time I look down at my cold hands
I remember how warm they felt holding you
May 3, 2021
May 3, 2021 at 7:27 PM UTC