My heart screams at me
It's reverberating the words
'She's perfect', let her know
But my mind, my mind clouds
The words that come from
My heart.
My mind is telling me,
'If you do, there's no going back',
So I let my mind
Silence the thoughts that my heart
has created.
I let my mind
Silence the ***** that keeps me alive.
I ask myself daily now
'Will I ever be more than a struggle
Between heart vs mind? Will I ever
Be able to choose my heart like
A dog chooses to fetch a stick
Without any actual commands?'
If I were to let my heart choose,
It would say ' Go tell her you
really really think she's beautiful',
so I go and do that but what
I'm really trying to say is
'I don't think any part of me
Can enjoy life as much as it
Has without your company'.
Apr 14, 2016
Apr 14, 2016 at 5:18 PM UTC
Dont worry,
Dont cry.
Dont keep making this so hard on yourself,
And keep wondering why you want to try.
You illuminating blinding light.
Watch out for how these sharp teeth bite.
The way they rip and fill you with fright.
Dont worry,
Dont cry.
Dont mourn when its soon to be my time.
Keep wondering why you want to try.
Your survival will be justified,
And im not even afraid to die.
I am a replacable soul,
So lets just dance to this rock & roll.
Dont worry,
Dont cry.
I love you.
Goodnight.
Apr 14, 2016
Apr 14, 2016 at 5:15 PM UTC
Everyone is so obsessed with
trying to find Sanity
While I'm just keeping to myself,
praying not to ever be.
The Sanity that you all want and yearn for and desire
Is nothing more than living in a world engulfed in Fire
Apr 8, 2016
Apr 8, 2016 at 6:00 PM UTC
Words float like petals
Of a wilted rose struggling
To remain alive.
Apr 8, 2016
Apr 8, 2016 at 5:33 PM UTC
The only palette of red
amidst the spectrum of grey
laying beneath the green bed
you beauty won't decay
I love you in blue
I love you in white
I love you in every hue
but most of all I love you, when you're just right
No matter how many thorns
No matter how long the time you grow
you will always be adorned
by the radiance you show
By the time you wilt
by the time you decay
all the guilt
comes to stay
But still I thank thee
for showing me
the true meaning of radiance
in every color variance
Apr 8, 2016
Apr 8, 2016 at 5:25 PM UTC
Connection is fading fast.
Good thing i'm good at acceptance.
I'm accepting this guy is not the last.
Remember when we made that entrance?
Memories of old emotions would come back i'm sure.
I'm accepting this guy is not what you want anymore.
Still working on patience.
Isn't that the fault of it all?
Remember when we watched each other fall?
I'm accepting that this isn't what you want at all.
Remember when we wanted to fight to become the people we wanted to be?
What are we now, and please tell me what you see...
Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 8:55 PM UTC
You cant say you're a nice empathetic Person.
Serving trauma for pity manipulation.
A wolf in sheep clothing
A stain of self loathing.
I guess a body in the dirt
justifies your feelings being hurt.
Old words contradict sincere sympathy.
The image you take is disguised tragedy.
One thing for sure, you have passion.
Causing me to change my morals.
Rushing plans with no buckle to fasten.
Putting hope ahead of any goals.
Now i'm the one that's so terrible .
Should've known for being attacked.
The care i showed must have been unbearable.
Get real. You denied my help just in fact.
Getting away with so many lies whisper
"Ego, your brilliant in my eyes."
When inside its shame full cries
Of the potential your heart implies .
Though my word value
Is apparently immune to you.
The important thing is
It ideal timing for irrational decisions
It's seemingly the last look of what i say.
By the way repeated problems portray
A blind ego that conveys
the solution is always the same.
Be careful in that sake,
Because in a way...
I'm excited of such compelling fate.
Jan 22, 2016
Jan 22, 2016 at 8:49 PM UTC