I remember the evening
that we sat clinging
to paper cups
of coffee gone cold
over secrets spilled and memories told
two bodies cursed
with hearts grown old
behind your eyes
I found new worlds
A winding road stretched out for miles
to a small cafe at the end of the isle
Sweet pastries filled the mouths
of those who sat beside us
and stayed for a while.
How the hours went by,
people just passing through
The descending sun ending
a forever with you.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 8:01 PM UTC
love and alcohol are practically the same thing.
you take it, and take it, and take it,
until all of the sudden,
you cant take anymore.
some people can take more than others,
some people push over their limit,
and those eventually end up hurt.
there's different flavors,
different strengths,
and sometimes different effects.
the initial feeling is good,
but at the end they both become a depressant.
they both leave you,
at 2 am
sobbing on your bathroom floor,
begging someone to come back.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 12:44 AM UTC
you said you wanted me
thats was the first lie
you said you wanted to be with me
that was the second lie
you said i was the one you wanted
that was the third lie
you said that she meant nothing
that was the fourth lie
and fifth,
you said that you loved me.
and i dont know how i believed it all.
Nov 25, 2018
Nov 25, 2018 at 3:07 PM UTC
the first time
we met
you kissed me
and i pulled away
so you turned to her
and got your way
the first time
we met
you kissed me
and i pulled away
now i find myself wondering
if kissing you would've made you stay.
Nov 25, 2018
Nov 25, 2018 at 2:56 PM UTC
the reality is
i fall too hard
too fast.
i care too much
for the ones who care too little.
i love too much
and it makes me blind.
im naive
when theres someone i want.
i'll do whatever you ask
and i'll give you whatever you want.
i'll always want your attention
and i'll always try to make you happy.
im emotional
im dramatic
i'll tell you when i think something is wrong.
it will take a while to get me to trust me
but once i do
i will give you everything i have.
i'll love you until you break me
and then i'll love you again.
this is it.
this
is who i am.
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 9:48 PM UTC
my love is shown through caring.
you may think thats normal,
its the same as everyone else.
but no.
I care far more than anyone you will ever meet.
I care so much that I scared you away.
there is no harm in caring.
I actually wanted you for you.
I actually wanted to give you all the love I had in my heart,
but that scared you.
the closer I attempted to get,
the farther you ran.
and that is the reason
I've learned not to care.
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 9:40 PM UTC
I cant trust you.
I knew it from the beginning
I cant trust you.
I dont know you
but yet
I still love you.
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 9:36 PM UTC
everyday
you ask me
"are you okay?"
and everyday
i answer with the same
"im fine"
and you believe it.
you ask me if im okay
as if you didnt break me
you ask me if im okay
as if you had stayed
you ask me if im okay
as if it matters even the slightest to you.
no
im not okay
will i tell you?
no
so for now until then
i am okay
and i dont love you.
Nov 13, 2018
Nov 13, 2018 at 9:31 PM UTC
I've come to a realization
that love is merely a concept.
an immitation of emotions inside our minds.
we dont know love.
its an idea that we attempt to make a distinct reality of.
its an interpretation.
everyone makes their own definition.
i dont know love.
love is a trick of the mind.
its a mixture of chemicals that spark when you look at me.
its a saddening representation of happiness that nobody can explain
you dont know love.
and you certainly dont feel it for me.
Nov 13, 2018
Nov 13, 2018 at 9:19 PM UTC