ears
in class
listening
tissue
gas levels
brain
i want to die
let me sleep
i quit
i cant hear you
bye
bye
bye
bye
Feb 11, 2021
Feb 11, 2021 at 8:35 PM UTC
I am nothing
I am no one
Try to hurt me please
Try to ignore me please
I don’t matter
Don’t talk to me please
You don’t want to be my anything.
I am alone
Blame me for your problems
Hate me for your ego
I am nothing
I am no one
I don’t matter
I am always alone
Sep 1, 2019
Sep 1, 2019 at 12:09 AM UTC
Irreconcilable
Negative
Suffering
Ornate
Morbid
Never-ending
Intense
Alone
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019 at 12:06 AM UTC
twenty-three
i feel much older
too much has happened
too many have gone
no one my age
is like me
i should just walk into the woods
once my father dies who will miss me
i’m too different
i’m too damaged
i’m too weird
have you
done half of the things
that shame me
i’ve done them all
i’m sorry
i’m not good enough
you’re sorry i’m not different
i’m afraid
we get married
you start hitting me
i can’t control anything anymore
Aug 22, 2019
Aug 22, 2019 at 11:52 PM UTC
hey
hi
hello
can you hear me
you’re not listening
you’re ruining everything
it’s not a game
i’m not playing
we just built things back up
tear them back down
i don’t know
how long
i can ride this rollercoaster
before i tear myself down
i’m not mad
i’ve been crying
you don’t think
before you scream
shut the **** up.
i’m so tired
a nice warm bullet
could tuck me in
why do i always get this
i should just be alone
shut the **** up.
those words echo
...inside my head
Aug 22, 2019
Aug 22, 2019 at 11:45 PM UTC
where did you go
do you ever visit
i think of you often
i feel guilty often
i miss you
do you miss me
i wish you never got sick
im sorry i couldn’t save you
when you try your best, but you don’t succeed
when you get what you want, but not what you need
when you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
stuck in reverse
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 11:30 PM UTC
ssshhh
it’s a secret
i feel like nothing i think is private
nothing i feel is free from scrutiny
sometimes i fantasize
about this man
he is beautiful, rugged, sensitive
he has these eyes that i feel i tumble into
we don’t need to say much to love each other
i think of his strong arms around me
then, i wake up
this could never be me
no way
and i sad myself to sleep
i wish everything was better
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 1:11 AM UTC
im nothing
SPECIAL
im nothing
NORMAL
im something
UNDESIRABLE
something
STRANGE
something
must be broken...
...inside of me
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 1:04 AM UTC
i’ve been feeling,
like there isn’t a god
i’ve been feeling
like i’d rather be gone
or maybe
no that’s not it
maybe something wild would fix it
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 1:01 AM UTC