Is the world-shaking, or is it just me?
Sweaty palms,
Shortage of breaths.
Unease.
“Oh no, I feel like throwing up.”
I wish the world could pause right now,
Even if it would only last for a few seconds.
Few seconds is what I craved.
I canceled the plans with my girlfriends.
I canceled the staycation that was booked one and a half months ago.
I canceled the language class I was supposed to attend.
Parts of me was actually excited.
Until the thoughts started forming in my head,
Leaving me stuck.
I cried.
My friends asked me, “Are you okay? What’s wrong?”
I’m thankful that she asked. However,
I wished those words would give me comfort.
I wished I could say something to answer those questions.
I wished I could put my emotions into words.
My friends said, “It’s okay. You will be fine.”
Will I?
Will I ever be okay?
It was as if I’m learning to breathe,
But the fact that I’m underwater.
Jun 14, 2021
Jun 14, 2021 at 10:00 PM UTC
Sometimes, life gets too loud.
It makes me feel like an empty soul;
filled by pools of people and drowned by waves of noises.
Walking back and forth, without knowing the right direction.
My own voice seems to be muffled along the way;
Just like a broken record, its vote couldn't be heard clearly.
Sometimes, life gets too loud.
I choose the mute option.
Perhaps, I just craving for a moment of silence.
Oct 10, 2020
Oct 10, 2020 at 9:03 PM UTC
I learned
to plant the seeds
of happiness.
There are flowers
blooming
where the scars
used to be.
R.M.
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 10:15 PM UTC
It’s been way too long
since I sit in the silence
with the morning sky.
Mellow blues,
with streaks of pink.
Fluffy clouds,
Rosy hue.
Every painted sky is indeed
a canvas of Your grace.
This endless canvas reminds me
of Your endless love,
eternal promises of Yours.
Every single time when I look up,
It reminds me how many times I failed you.
And yet, you hold my hands,
call my name,
And say, “Come home.”
Jul 4, 2020
Jul 4, 2020 at 7:50 PM UTC
When I started loving you,
I thought I figured out what love is.
I thought we would co-write our love story,
documenting our love adventures in every chapter.
Walking down the aisle is the written finale.
Happily ever after would be the epilogue.
But things changed ever since you left.
I was desperately seeking for signs to
stop thinking of you.
But somehow everything reminds me of you.
Couldn't stop scrolling my phone,
Couldn't help but to think
the phone call,
the text messages,
would it be you?
Jul 2, 2020
Jul 2, 2020 at 11:31 PM UTC
When I started loving you,
I thought I figure out what love is.
The first date we had.
The white dress I wore.
The necklace you bought.
With the initial of yours.
When I started loving you,
I thought I figure out what love is.
But not until you left,
ripping the fabrics of my life,
leaving me at our favourite place,
leaving me alone,
With you no longer by my side.
To be continued...
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 8:14 AM UTC
She cared more than anyone
so she hurt more than anyone
like a knife in the heart
she bled for everyone
and when she needed someone
no one was there
because unlike her
no one cared
Jun 27, 2020
Jun 27, 2020 at 8:56 PM UTC
You saw me smile
I hid my pain
You heard me laugh
The tears you never saw
You held me tight
You never knew i wanted to run
You watched me sleep
You never saw the nightmares
You heard me sing
The anger you never felt
You thought i was happy
How wrong you were
You never knew
Jun 27, 2020
Jun 27, 2020 at 10:19 AM UTC
So, my words,
Could not reach your heart,
Maybe then,
My silence would
Jun 27, 2020
Jun 27, 2020 at 6:44 AM UTC
"Words doesn't hurt."
They said.
"Come on, be tough."
They said.
"I care about you."
They said.
"I love you, always."
They said.
I fall for what
they said.
I got hurt and bruises from what
they said.
After all,
everything that they said
are nothing,
but empty promises and lies.
Jun 27, 2020
Jun 27, 2020 at 12:53 AM UTC