hazythoughts
Well, there's a lot that can be said about me... / I'm bisexual, I'm an atheist, I'm HFA, I'm struggling with anxiety and some sort of psychopathic insanity (as shown in one of my poems)... all that good stuff. / Singing (well, music in general) and writing are my ways of escaping, yet staying in, reality when I'm having some huge shitty anxiety attack. / I happen to have a knack for singing and writing... and photography, I guess. / / Wanna talk to me about stuff? Don't hesitate to ask for my Kik or Skype. / / Follow me on Instagram if you want, @assploding_habichuelas
What's happening?
My feeling is keeling
over like a rooster
Losing my sanity
All feeling's vanity.
Where's the knife?
I want to survive.
I don't want to be trapped
in this stage of insecurity
I need to let loose,
like a goose.
Blood's all over the room.
This never-ending feeling
of satisfaction
what is it?
Is this
Life?
Death?
Happiness?
Sadness?
mAdne$s?
I've forgotten how to tell.
Do I need help?
Am i in vain?
In p@in?
I'm laughing.
I can't **** stop.
Is this humor?
Horror?
My third eye
has closed
my actions
are no longer futile
the heads
hanging from the ceiling fan
are you pr0ud of me?
Mom?
Why are you quivering?
Why are you running?
"WHAT DO YOU THINK
YOU'RE DOING?
WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?"
That's what your lips are saying.
Why're you on the floor?
You're still breathing.
Are you sleeping?
C'mon, wake up.
cAN I pLay w!tH yOU, Too?
Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 10:10 AM UTC
It's funny,
How we have
The tendency
To look upon each other
And smother
Our feelings and emotions
Onto a designated
Ragdoll, of sorts
Who, in the aftermath
Desires to dance
To where the end
Will justify
Nothing, even
The lines
Marked throughout her arm
[Which] signify
Body and mind
At a gradual downfall
Demented thoughts
Crashing,
Like a waterfall
During the world's end
It's more than enough
To bring upon
A deluge
Of volatile insanity
That slowly grows
'Till it explodes
And bestows
Only more torture
Until the penultimate
Second, in which
Her dance ends
And she can only
Lie motionless
Breathless
With a crimson line
Marked on her neck
Longer, deeper
Giving birth to
The sadness
Coming from
That realization:
The end
Couldn't possibly justify
The actions she took
Against none other
Than
Herself
Jun 30, 2015
Jun 30, 2015 at 9:27 AM UTC