Why do you give people your all and watch them slowly leave you with nothing? he asked.
Because i've been told that you give and you get but i don't believe that's the case anymore she replied.
She's misguided and she trusts easily
someone needs to make her feel worthy of herself
and remind her that she's beautiful too
someone has to make the despaired look on her face fade
bring back the warmth of her smile and make her eyes sparkle again
but at the same time someone needs to tell her that the only person who can do that is her, she has to learn to lift herself up and believe that not everyone is the same
Jan 17, 2017
Jan 17, 2017 at 7:17 AM UTC
i'm feeling too numb. i miss the adrenaline rush, i miss the laughter, i miss the feeling of automatically smiling to anything that's related to you. but i don't miss you. i'm just reminiscing and thinking that what if i never feel that again? what if i never find anyone to share those moments with? what if i'm just one of those people who's not meant for anyone else? am i overreacting? will the loneliness and over-thinking eat me up? i'm feeling numb inside and the despair is starting to show in my face. i don't have the energy to fake emotions, or meet anyone new. i'm afraid. i'm numb. i'm lost. i'm in need of happiness. i need to be go back to the way i was. it was temporary happiness but i'd wish to have it all over again. one of the best days of my life were with you and i don't know if i should thank you for them or hate you for not being the person i thought you were.
Nov 27, 2016
Nov 27, 2016 at 1:45 PM UTC
You can say you forgot about it as much as you want to. You can pretend like you don't care for as long as you want to. But scrolling through your gallery you find a picture you forgot to delete, here you're reminded again. A week later you open up your drawer and find a letter, you read it regardless the amount of times you've read it and maybe you've memorized what's written on it. You are looking through your Instagram, you see their username and you can't help but open up the profile to see what's been going on. Because how many times you say you forgot or you don't care anymore. Your actions prove otherwise and it's okay. Because it's normal to still care. You once cared so much for so long how could you stop all of a sudden? Especially with reminders everywhere you go.
Oct 16, 2016
Oct 16, 2016 at 3:23 PM UTC
She found it strange how you can go from telling someone every detail about your day and you even memorize each others daily routines, each others favorite songs. You memorize their scent, you start to slowly use the same vocabulary. You might even recognize their voice between many other people's voices. Sometimes you know a person too well to the point where you can know what they're going to say before they do. From going through all of that to not saying one word. You could've known all of that and memorized every detail about them. But life hits you by surprise and you find out despite everything you thought you knew, you really didn't know the person. You've been fooled. This person you thought you knew the most wasn't the one you had in mind. This wasn't the person you loved, this person wasn't different like everyone else. This wasn't the person who you thought was faithful and loyal. This wasn't the person you figured you'd last with. This wasn't the person that you thought was amazing and showed off to all your friends. This was a person who had lied to you, made a fool out of you, broke you and never even apoligized for it. So, yes she found it strange how you go from seeing a person as your soulmate to a cold hearted stranger.
Sep 17, 2016
Sep 17, 2016 at 4:36 PM UTC
She was the girl with a kind heart that was always being taken advantage of.
She believed in being loyal to people.
She was the girl that kept drowning for people who wouldn't get in the water for her.
She never understood how people could have so much darkness in them.
She’d break on the inside everytime she would get hurt but wouldn’t show it.
Until one day she realized that not everyone has the same heart as her.
She woke up one day and thought to herself that she wouldn’t allow anything to break her again because she’s stronger now.
She used to be easily shaken by words like the wind shakes branches but her roots are now deeply set in the ground and nothing can shake her.
She used to be a star and now she is slowly becoming fire proof.
She used to wear her heart on her sleeve and now she puts her mind over those feels.
She was glass and now she’s concrete.
Sep 17, 2016
Sep 17, 2016 at 4:05 PM UTC
He's the person I've loved in a way that I haven't loved anyone else, he's the person I call when I'm about to cry, he's the person I call when I'm happy. He knows me more than I know myself and I've memorized every single detail about him. I'm too attached. Way too attached to let go now but it's a matter of trust and loyalty. No matter what I end up thinking about him, nothing's ever too distracting enough to make me stop thinking about him. I'm lost and confused and doubting the idea of us still being together. He completes but somehow there's something missing. Love's a ****** up feeling and I'd rather be numb right now than feel everything at once. I want to open up to my friends without sounding like a weak and helpless person and my friends tell me things I don't want to hear. I used to say I was strong enough and I know my worth but **** when it comes to love everyone's weak and helpless. and one thing's for sure there are no happy endings in this messed up world.
Feb 4, 2016
Feb 4, 2016 at 4:16 PM UTC
I've always connected my soul to materialistic things that can not hurt me back. I felt like as long as it doesn't feel..I'll be safer, see how afraid of emotion I was? I built fences to conserve my heart from any danger and distress. I saw how people would talk about love and desire like they are the most wonderful yet difficult things to go through in life.. I never truly believed and understood until I attached my soul to you. I never truly believed until you unleashed the most conserved ***** in my body.. my heart. Your voice slowly climbed up my lungs and knocked on my hearts door, Your voice was so calming my heart had to open all its gates for you. I admire your energy and I admire your presence, live as long as you want in my heart, It;s your home and most certainly made for you.
Dec 21, 2015
Dec 21, 2015 at 6:21 PM UTC
You think from what she's witnessed she'd be afraid to fall inlove
or that she might hesitate to give someone her all
but she's the type of girl that would give until she has nothing left
that's another one of her bad habits that she wants to quit but it's too late
she's too inlove, too attached & she believes in destiny
she believes that if someone wanders away and comes back to them then its meant to be
she believes in soulmates
and she believed that she found hers.
Dec 20, 2015
Dec 20, 2015 at 6:02 PM UTC
she radiates of mystery but i have her figured out
her hands told me everything
they told me how she’s the way she is because the world wasn’t kind to her
her shoulders told me that they’re getting tired of carrying the weight of her past around
her lungs told me how they’re growing weaker and weaker every time she tries to exhale her stress out of her system
her bones told me they’ve become brittle from trying to hold her pieces together
her mind told me that it keeps getting darker in there, it’s begging me to save it
her eyes scold me for getting too close and trying to look into them, telling me to look away before i become another thing they have to watch her destroy
her legs are begging for forgiveness for all the times they made her walk away when all she wanted to do was stay
her heart doesn’t make sense anymore, i’ve been trying to understand it
her soul is the quietest of all, merely existing but not living, caring but not loving, just short of having the strength of taking her where she needs to be
i hear all of her speak to all of me in ways i’ve never imagined and every part of me is begging her to let me in to reassure hers
i’ll tell her hands that i’ll be kind to her from now on, i’ll give her all the love she deserved but didn’t get
i’ll tell her lungs to hang in there, i’ll take her stress from her and i’ll make it my own
i’ll tell her bones that i’ll hold her pieces together for her, they need a break anyway
i’ll tell her mind that i’ll be her light if she lets me, please let me
i’ll look into her eyes and tell them i’m not afraid of her destruction
i’ll tell her legs that i’ll forgive them for her, i’ll forgive her on behalf of everyone, i’ll have faith in her in behalf of everyone
i’ll tell her heart to take a break, it’s been through enough
and her soul, i’ll give it a reason to want to come alive again
to want to love again
i’ll be her strength when all she wants to do is be weak
i’ll hold her together when all she wants to do is fall apart
i’ll make the mess in her head clear up enough for her to feel the way she used to again
i’ll help her fall for every part of her, the exact same way i did
Dec 6, 2015
Dec 6, 2015 at 4:31 PM UTC
Your voice calmed every urging vein in me today, tuesday 17th of November. Baby I dont think I love you anymore. I think its the matter of need in my life, in the matter of you in every single picture that I've been doing in my life. I dont even know what good I did in my life to have someone like you. Your morphine voice cured every pain within me.
Nov 22, 2015
Nov 22, 2015 at 1:34 AM UTC