I used to believe love conquered all.
That’s how I felt when you held me.
Promising to catch me should I fall
But you left me feeling empty.
I was your number one fan.
I couldn’t bear to see you fail.
You let go of my hand
So ready to leave and set sail.
I was crazy for thinking you were mine.
I was nothing more than a pretty lie.
Should seen the blinking sign
But you’ll never see me cry.
There’s one thing you should know.
Once I ran to you.
I believed I had nowhere to go.
Now I run from you.
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 1:43 PM UTC
You left with my heart
Both walked through that door.
I can feel myself falling apart
You ended this war.
We argued about nothing
Causing unnecessary pain.
We should have been loving,
Learning to dance in the rain.
You kept everything inside
And it all fell apart
Even though I tried
I was never able to conquer your heart.
What happened to that feeling?
It’s too late for us to be in love anymore.
Too tired to keep breathing.
We both know forever’s out the **** door.
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 1:42 PM UTC
It’s dark and I’m lost.
Up is down and left is right.
I’m not sure where to turn.
I’m not sure where to go.
I’m drowning in the dark.
You were the light in my life.
I used to look ahead of me.
The light at the end of the tunnel
Leading me to my future.
I didn’t know it was just you
Moving slowly away from me.
The light at the end of the tunnel
Was you saying goodbye until the light was completely gone.
Should I stumble around finding my way out?
Do I scream for help?
Each minute here leads me further into the blackness.
Wandering.
Thinking.
It’s dark and I’m lost.
I Should Have Known
I should have known.
So many things were wrong.
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 1:04 AM UTC
I’m crawling in my sins
Slowly drowning
I’m beginning to welcome death
I can’t hold my head up high
Otherwise you will see the shame
Written all over my face
I used to stand up so tall and proud
I thought I knew right from wrong
Good from bad
But nothing is ever black and white
They blend together
Mixing until you can’t tell where one ends
And the other begins.
I have my regrets
I can’t change what I’ve done
Karma is waiting for me
Waiting patiently
Waiting to steal my happiness
Waiting until I’m too weak.
When the time comes, she will lash out
Marring my skin and soul alike
Bleeding out leaving me completely empty.
I can’t change the cards I have been dealt
I never meant to hurt anyone and I am sorry for the pain I have caused.
I’m so close to taking my last breath
My sins are smothering me
I can’t crawl any further
Karma is right in front of me
Her smile so beautiful
Full of promises
Her eyes tell stories of my ending
Brightening with each struggle of breath
My time is up.
I’m not alone
I embrace what I’ve done
Kissing my sins and regrets
Because when she is done with me
I can start anew and smile once again.
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 12:55 AM UTC
I want to kiss you.
But a deep kiss showing my passion is true.
Don't deny it, you want it too.
Gently biting your lips.
Your neck receives soft nips.
Slowly making my way down your body.
I can feel how wet you are.
Your scent is driving me crazy.
I can't think.
Teasing you is the furthest from my mind now.
I have to taste you,
Lick you,
**** you.
Reminding you, you have always been mine.
Twice in ten minutes I have you screaming.
You whimper out my name.
I kiss my way back up your body.
Your eyes are hazy and dark.
I can't help but smirk.
I've come a long way since you first taught me.
Baby, the master has been mastered.
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 12:50 AM UTC
I wish I could hate you.
No one would blame me if I did.
I’ve turned into an angry shrew.
Screaming your name, looking stupid.
You broke your promise.
Where were you when I needed you the most?
I never did have your confidence
And now your memory is my intimate ghost.
She wanders silently
Teasing,
Taunting,
Whispering sweet words shaking me violently.
She knows her effect on my heart.
She can hear it break every time we talk.
She knows I’m falling apart.
Making it hard to speak,
To breathe.
My knees are buckling.
I can’t move my feet. I can’t walk.
At least she is here
And as long as I’m breathing
She won’t leave me.
My memory of you keeps her close
And I will never be alone.
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 12:47 AM UTC
For the longest time I avoided looking into the mirror
Terrified of my reflection.
Scared of the monster i had tried so hard to conceal.
Year after year, I barely gave more than a passing glance
Until that fateful day.
Curiosity overcame fear.
What i saw blew my mind.
My monster was nothing more than a girl.
Laugh lines, worry lines, and imperfections marred her face.
Freckles scattered across her cheeks.
Messy head of curls framed her features.
It was her eyes that caught my attention.
Such a dark brown her pupils got lost in them.
But her eyes told the most wondrous story.
It was a tale of fear.
Fear of the unknown
Fear of never being loved
Fear of never measuring up.
It was a tale of happiness.
Happy to be alive.
Happy to have a home and a family intact.
Happy to know she always had a place in this world.
It was a tale of anger.
Anger over being held back.
Anger over being lied to.
Anger about falling in love just to have her heart broken.
It was a tale love.
Love from family and friends.
Love from softball, her true love.
Love from the fact she was alive and well.
But most importantly it was a tale of life.
The ups and the downs
The smiles and tears
Friendships and betrayals
They all play a role in shaping a person.
This girl in the mirror may have been young but she had lived and continues to live. Her smiles conquer her tears. She learned to dance in the rain without the umbrella.
My monster in the mirror was nothing more than a relfection of the person i am.
Dec 15, 2013
Dec 15, 2013 at 5:53 PM UTC