written January 3rd, 2017
"Hypocracies flood my mind, time after time
I'm not fine, I'm lying when I say these things in my mind are just all composed of rhymes and lullabies
To get me by
Time flies, yet compositions on white boards and ideas of how I want to be are at an intertwine
Inside - it's one thing
On the outside - I can't compromise"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:54 PM UTC
written November 27th, 2016
"Minds wandering across laterals
Collaterals
Intangible thoughts of processes
I am overwhelmed
I can't think of these impossibles, imaginable
And I gotta say
I feel pretty ******
Creativity crosses my mind as minds shout their processes
Time is running out
We must act smart
We must act fast"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:53 PM UTC
written November 15th, 2016
"Sometimes I envy those who lie vacant in space, composed of Stardust, creating energies so naturally and effortlessly
Sometimes I envy the amount of beauty they shed on to this earth
Sometimes I envy them - because they knew their potential was to be used outside of what lies before our blinded eyes
And they knew that what they once saw, adjacent to our own vision - wasn't good enough
Sometimes I envy the quick and easy relief they felt
When they overflowed their lungs with water, took a metal handle to their head, or sat in their car for one last nap
Closed their eyes, inhaled, and accepted that they were too great for this world to handle
Sometimes I envy that they no longer feel the stress of societies standards
Sometimes I wish I had the confidence to do as they had done to themselves
And sometimes I wish I also slipped away into the vast abyss"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:50 PM UTC
written November 15th, 2016
"Some say your favorite color sneaks up on you
A repetitive slate that shows itself time and time again
Some say depression does the same
One day - you're feeling alright, the next you're dwelled in this feeling of desire
Desire for the sweet kiss of death to lay its lips upon your cheek
Affection always was highly underrated
And so you lie there - body aching, trying not to throw up, tired of your time, life, dignity
And you wander where all this time has gone and how you ended up here
Yet if one thing is for sure,
You're content in the pitch black nothingness that surrounds you,
Black is a new favorite"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:44 PM UTC
written November 7th, 2016
" All we are is minds bouncing ideas off each other's tongues,
tying together words and knotting the ends of each sentence with and emotional appeal
It's not all ethos pathos logos my friends
Tongues conversing, starting up the engine until you switch gears to cruise along, floating while speaking your deepest thoughts
It's hard to get your brain to say the right words to emulate how you feel
Constantly trying your hardest to get your points across,
Knowledge is just an essence of this notion
And experience is just an additional charge
Metaphors are meaningless when you are lonely and scared
And I just want to continue to flick my tongue in order for you to feel my pain"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:39 PM UTC
written October 16th, 2016
"I hate their way of living
There's a bowl on the floor
There's ash covering the counter tops so I'm moving next door
I'm tired of the noise, the dumbfound statements, and the fights
I'm tired of hearing *** for 2 hours every night
I hate how selfish they've become, taking advantage of others
Getting money from their parents yet refusing to speak to their mother
So goodbye to this hell hole, I will miss very little
I hope you all enjoyed my stupid mockery of Paul's 'riddles' "
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:37 PM UTC
written October 13th, 2016
"Inhale
Sip
Close your eyes and embrace this
Float along, like sprawled out wings overhead
Slowly moving, back and forth
It's time now
Hold my hand
And I will take you to a land that you have never imagined
Awe at the black night sky above
The infinite possibilities and star lit path to
A universe we will never know
But look deep into my eyes, and I promise
I can show you something you have always wanted
Pour your passions into a jar, we will put it on our kitchen shelf
And you
You, my love
Can grow with me
In a universe of us"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:34 PM UTC
written August 30th, 2016
"I usually can't stand sleeping in warmth
I tear off all my sheets, tossing and turning in my bare skin, flipping the pillow from one side to the other
Back and forth
The fan is on high yet my skin is containing heat, causing my nights well rested to not be achieved
Yet, the nights you chose to end your day by my side, this is simply not the same
I wrap my arms around your waist, body to body, heat to heat we drive each others temperatures higher
I could sleep all night long in these conditions, if it meant I could intertwine your fingers with mine, kiss your lips and say goodnight, close my eyes to match the dark room,
if only it meant I could wake up next to you"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:32 PM UTC
written August 28th, 2016
"Numb to the illusion that past feelings are not present
Numb to the inevitable, reserved, and repressed thoughts that are now coming to the surface
Numb to the cold salty water drops that are making a daily appearance
Numb to the fact that I'm blind that we are not the same
I feel so numb, when I hear your name
Heart starts racing, mind moves at millions
I can not fathom the 'what ifs' and 'whys' yet they're all that crosses through my mind
I need someone to thaw me out
I need the old you back, to make me feel warm again"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:29 PM UTC
written August 23rd, 2016
"In the midst of the night, through groggy eyes, she slips her hand through the inviting slits of his
She grips tightly, trying to make body language say the words she was too tired to say
Half asleep, she smiles for this is the first in nights that she's woken up to him by her side
Even with her feeble, tired mind,
she never get tired of him"
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 2:22 PM UTC