Curse in disguise of a blessing
A rainbow after the storm
Not a *** of gold,
but a quicksand await by its end
It was but a better-than-dreams kind of truth,
A hard pill to choke on
But i swallowed.
I swallowed every inch of lie i tell myself at night,
Every ounce of my denial from your truth
Nothing but a mockery,
A slate of shame for you and me
It wasn’t saving grace
But a curse wearing a pretty face
Sep 30, 2018
Sep 30, 2018 at 10:47 PM UTC
I can’t be your light
Not when your moon is gleaming at night
Not even when summers are long;
For its nights are where both of you belong
I can chase your nights away
But your heart—it belongs to the moon.
So I let my light die everyday
So they slowly fade and give you away
She is your Moon.
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 11:37 AM UTC
Let me be your ray of light
In any form, in any given flight
Not only when your moon fails to light up your river
Not only when your stars forget to glimmer
Amidst your moon are stars with frail light bickering;
But the sun is a star, it shines for you, darling
But you never look her in the eyes without blinding your own;
I am your sun
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018 at 12:19 PM UTC
But I will love you with the deepest parts I've known of me
Where no one really knows what they'll come to see
Where by you,I'll be felt
Even if not known to all else.
I have set my heart for you
Like the day is set after night, to come through
Like trees that wither
But only in the cold dark winter
Jan 7, 2018
Jan 7, 2018 at 6:23 AM UTC
I'll keep you hidden somewhere far
Somewhere in my dreams when my eyes aren't ajar
Like the way you'd hold my hand
When no one's there to see at last
As the road neared end
You were the only one who knew
And that day you branded my now-favorite spot
You cleared the path, the line was right before my eyes
I should've been mad
Should've lost it when I was sad
But I cleared my mind, maybe I didn't care that much
Cause when i called you that night, I shouldn't have asked for another match
Dec 7, 2017
Dec 7, 2017 at 6:35 PM UTC
If things worked out, I would've given you the world.
I stood there as my stomach curled
Sinking in reasons I'll never hear,
Drowning in a future that was never clear
I asked you not once, but one too many times
In all of those, you vaguely assured while shifting tides
I would've asked for more, and I didn't.
But you gave me a little too much to forget that we shouldn't.
Now I'm left with pieces of you in every turn
Like you wanted to be there til nothing's left to burn
You were a tide of joy that's waiting to fret
Now you're a wave of disappointment I don't think I regret
Oct 16, 2017
Oct 16, 2017 at 6:22 PM UTC
That old sock of a teddy bear
That shiny silver tag
The letter you wrote
Those trinkets you let me keep
The best ones, I say
Aren't those you've handed to me
The best ones, you've given
Weren't yours to begin with
Those nights at the beach
I tried my hardest to enjoy
To shake off the thought
Of you not answering my calls
Those drunken nights
I call the best ones by far
To fill what you've left
When the choice was all mine
The time for myself
The growth I've acquired
The freedom i had
From the ways
you've made me feel
Because out of all the things
you've given me,
The best were the ones
you didn't hand over
Jan 17, 2017
Jan 17, 2017 at 10:47 AM UTC
I don't know if they suspect a thing
When they ask me why
I have all photos taken
Old and new and in a box I've hidden
I always say, as the truth that it is;
That once in a while, every now and then,
I feel the need for proof that once,
All of it were real
Jan 17, 2017
Jan 17, 2017 at 10:32 AM UTC
I befriended the night,
He chased away my empty flight.
In return, I gave my share of good times
Deep into it, like it were a crime
Just as those small hands bring forth his end,
It's almost time to see an old friend.
The night is deep, the day is young
In between are secrets we never let slip from our tongue
Dec 14, 2016
Dec 14, 2016 at 10:06 AM UTC
Sometimes in my sleep I stand by the shore
Just as waves crash and soak my bedroom floor,
Nothing to lose, I let all of it through.
Riptides, they form as the waves do so too.
Just empty thoughts and somehow loosened faith,
Currents are strong, all my fears, they have bathed
Until I cease fire, my thoughts shall stay lulled
Still, I stood by—all washed out and left null
Dec 14, 2016
Dec 14, 2016 at 9:50 AM UTC